What do you say when your numb? What do you do when your empty inside? Can you live on when your world falls down around you? Everything comes to an end. Childhood, love, and eventually life. You mourn the things you lose, but can you truly mourn the things you never had? I never understood his worth until I didn't have the chance to have him. I never got to experience the life he offered but I mourn the loss of everything that could have been. I'm through with moving forward without any feelings. I'm done with hands and faces I don't know loving me. I can't stay in a world that crumbled long ago. My world fell leaving nothing but destruction and agony. I'm not alright. I'm not doing fine. I speak nothing but lies. I stand in the middle of ruins as people and life pass by. Can they tell? Can they see how my insides have withered to nothing and my soul has faded? As they move up and down and all around do they notice the one girl who always stands stock still in the middle? I hope they do. I hope they see. Maybe if they do i'll be set free. Maybe someone will find the me that used to be, and bring her back. I liked her. She was creative, fun, independent, stubborn, and full of imagination. But she left. She left and now there is just me. Lifeless, dull, empty, and alone. Shall I cry some more? I tried at first I cried and screamed, but somehow I was over looked. In the world's crusade to help those who can't help themselves I was passed over. Not worthy in their eyes. Of course why should I be worthy of them, when I don't even find myself worthy? Life has left me of my own accord. I could have had everything life, love, happiness, but I gave it up all for my ignorance of what I was being given. I can't stay in this emotionless daze. So i'll lay here upon my bed and replay that last scene, allowing the pain to finally wash over me, until my body runs out. I'll take my suffering soul and depart to a place where I can live eternally watching over my biggest regret.