the city chilly .no one to witness his was the point?he wanted a different setting for the usual ,even without turning back,he could feel another presence on the ,uninvited,perhaps not much unwelcome,he always did love an audiance,

-every one hates me .

The tall boy said matter of factly.

- you hate them too.

The blond boy replied without a voice came from about 5 meters on his left.

-you're going to kill yourself?sherlock?

of course he'd know his sherlock didn't want to know 'd rather if this person stayed just a didn't sound the way one should at such times though.

-are you scared?look away then,and stop interrupting.

-no.i just wanted you to know ,i don't.

-you don't what?

-i don't hate you.

at this,sherlock's head turned and he saw the petite blond boy smiled at him,it was the first time he was gazing at sherlock without trying hard not to look stalkerish.

- i can't quite read your expression.

-i'm an open book.

-you don't hate me,i see, but you aren't indifferent dont despise me exactly but you don't pity me ,maybe i wouldnt ...you know

-gun in hand,standing at the edge of the roof,and *sniff* drunk.I see that in your 's a foolproof wouldn't change it no matter what i said.

good,so he's not going to make a scene or try to save me or anything.

thought sherlock.

-any last words?

-shoudn't i be the one asking that?

-just leave me alone

the boy stepped nearer,leaning on the railing.

-okay,okay,just a last word...would you kiss me before you kill yourself?

sherlock thought for a moment with a an odd searched his mind for that faint in the had been many years since he had kissed than that,the act itself ,was like a mating ritual ,a primative hormone fueled unimportant-

-this is ridiculous.

he into the blond boy's eyes reflecting light

-why?

the blond boy took a step closer.

-i'm not going to kiss you...uh

-john

_not going to kiss you john

john closed the gap between them.

-why not?

He looked down at john.

Suddenly he was to pull the sound of the gun and so much of his blood on this john ?no thank you.

unable to look had dug into his windowless heart.

he had felt this way once upon a time but he couldn't recall it.

He examined his face. why would anyone want to kiss me?he thought.

what makes you different than the rest john?

john grabbed him down and kissed was surprised,he blinked,he didn't know what to became more and more wasn't even aware of the gun he held.

Their kiss turned more and more had given him something he'd never forget anytime soon.

He leant back and broke the breathing coming back to normal. He regained his inhuman voice.

john tip toed and kissed his cheek.

he left without any other word.

-wait,

john turned back to face him.

-i don't hate you either.

-see you tomorrow after school sherly