'When I was younger I was convinced I had a connection to the sky, because when I was sad it would rain. Isn't that what children do though? Create their own fantasies so they don't have to deal with what is actually happening. Dreaming of something that makes them happy. Dreaming of something so they may hide from reality for a while, even if it's just for a little while.'
' I don't like to be sad, but ever since when I was smaller that feeling just comes so easily. To be completely honest I am glad that I am sad, at least I can feel something, and that makes me happy. I wear a smile so big to fool those who are all to easily deceived. It makes me sad that they care. No one should have to love me, I am a monster.'
' I hope you know it's okay if you all leave me. So please don't force yourselves, I will never be alone. I always have my loneliness, okay? I love you all to much for you to force yourselves to love me back. If you force yourself it only hurts worse than if you would totally leave me. At least in that case only one of us would have to fake a smile, right so don't love me. Don't help me and please don't save me.'
' I am sorry I make you pretend, I am sorry am a bother. I apologize that this soul is of such meaningless nature. I apologize for making you lie to yourself and I. Please don't forgive me, okay? It's better like this, I hope you know this doesn't mean I am forgetting you, believe me I wish I could. So don't ever love me again, please.'