Karma's Monologue
I woke up lying in my daddy's lap, his eyes were black and his cheeks were blotchy. He was so worried about everything. I could tell he'd been crying, but I know I was too. Mommy has been so sick, and I couldn't watch my little brothers and sister. So we sent them to Nana and Poppa. Mommy's in the hospital, and Daddy's not doing too well either. It feels like I've been watching over him, I'm so stressed out! We just moved here and I have just started a new school. The bullies are terrible and they always hurt me. I know I've been hurting Mommy about hiding secrets, so maybe her being so sick is my entire fault! I love Mommy so much, but I don't want her to worry about this… Daddy has a feeling about what's going on, me coming home with black eyes, cuts and bruises. My Mommy would rub my back and cry with me when I came home like this, and Daddy would read me my favorite stories. They don't much anymore because the babies need attention. Daddy tries hard and I thank him for that. My dreams are horrible and terrifying at night, the only time they're not is when I dream Mommy's better, Daddy and the babies are back. But I still feel like it was my entire fault. I feel sad and hated and forgotten! Sometimes I wish my siblings were never born, but then I realize I love them. It all must happen for a reason. So I guess I'll just wait and hope for the best, like Daddy always used to say "it's always worth it in the end".