I know I should work on my other stories but I hope you like this new story.
It's something both me and Love332 collaborated with so a big thanks to her!
Disclaimer: I don't own Vampire Knight
It felt like an eternity since that day.
The day everything changed in a way I both hated yet loved…
The ideals I was raised on…
Everything I worked hard for to secure the future I always knew I would follow…
The day you came into my life…
I never had a problem giving up others for my ideals without hesitation, it was a necessary sacrifice and I could move on with my life but they didn't leave an impression like you.
I first thought you to be sin incarnate as soon as I saw you, your voice so captivating as if you could entice even the most devout of followers succumb to your honeyed words, your beauty could bring the masses to their knees with a simple glance. Truly such a creature so tempting, so seductive was painstakingly crafted by the devil himself.
Yet you were more than that.
You made me question everything I was taught, every single brick built by my faith was rocked when we met and unlike any other person I had known you were the only one I truly found myself willing to give it up for if it meant seeing you by my side.
To see you smile from the bottom of your heart rather than your empty seductive one, to see your beautiful eyes shine with genuine joy rather than the concealed contempt you hold, but what I truly longed for was to see you shine as the selfless, kind person you were.
But if I was willing to do just that, would I free myself from my ideals?
To give up everything I knew if it meant having you, you who would willingly give up their own happiness for those you love without a second thought yet I struggle with the very concept of doing the same for you.
How truly mystifying you are, to readily sacrifice so much without asking for anything in return despite being considered a sinful creature whereas I struggle to make one sacrifice for you despite being a man of God.
Truly you weren't wrong in telling me many who were with you were hypocrites as I know I fall under the category, even going as far as to tell me you'd be angry at me if I ever did anything bad because of the life I would undoubtedly try to live.
But no matter how many would tell you that you were unworthy of me, it was I who was unworthy of being in your heart.
You who were so selfless for those you love, so kind, so pure and radiant in an undeserving world that had the gall to debase your worth when in actuality it was them that were not worthy of the blesses being you were.
You endured so much pain, so much suffering and yet when we were together it was almost as if you could remember what it was like to be happy, I wanted to fend off all the sorrows that fell around you and there was no way I could ever forgive anyone who would try to hurt you.
Like a warm light in the forsaken world you brought so much to my decided life, I didn't want you yet came to realize how much I truly needed you as I know that choosing my faith means I must give you up yet I struggle to imagine the loss of the strangely precious feeling you gave me if I were to ever lose you.
Maybe it would have been different if our worlds didn't oppose each other so much; maybe we could have something that could flourish without either of us suffering along the way, it certainly would have been easier if you could be you and I could be me instead of hiding who we were for the sake of others.
Truly we were not perfect yet together it was as if nothing else mattered in this world, as if our destinies no longer held purpose and we could finally be free if we gave them up for our selfish love. To go back to those gentle days we could never get back, when we could stand together, beneath floating snow or scattered petals and cherish your pure happiness for as long as we could hold those moments.
But now it has come to this since the moment we met and our fates intertwined in such a way we both couldn't understand how it came to this.
Everything started with that night, the spark you lit aflame with that single night, the night that caused me to question my faith…
Once again a huge thanks to Love332 as she is helping me with this story, show her support by reading her stories 3
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