So I rewrote this story because I do still love the idea I had for this and where I was wanting to take it. I generally have a problem with abandoning projects half way throuhg, so perhaps with enough support I wont abandon this one -ha ha- If you read the original then Thanks! this is the same story just touched up a bit mainly to help be get back in the mindset of the whole idea as i reupload the chapters one by one. If you are reading this for the first time Enjoy!

NOTE: The first chapter is dark, and although not descriptive it has a rape scene in it, so it might trigger some people. If you do not want to read that part you can basically skip a paragraph or two as it comes up.

I do not own any of the Inuyahsa characters, those belong to their rightful creators.

Chapter One

New Beginnings

Rin was living a nightmare. That was the only way to describe how her life had changed in the past few months, her own special brand of hell, doomed to suffer in silence.

Everything had become a sort of gray blur; her days undistinguishable from the dark nights, both clouded in dark despair. Most of the time she hide away in some small corner of the house with her knees to her chest praying to what ever sentient being there was, that some day soon she would wake up to something better then this hell she was living.

Though it began not like this, at first it was only bullies at school picking on her for small things here and there that she never much paid attention too. Rin had never been a girl to let someone's opinion of her get her down. However that was only the beginning; soon all the kids in her class began shunning her from activities. And seeing as she had no friends to speak of, she was left completely alone. Going home to her quite solitude had been her only sanctuary, with all her books to comfort her. Soon that too was shattered.

She had lived alone with her foster father for a two years now; he had been married, but once the divorce settled in his ex-wife took their two kids and left to somewhere far away. Rin thought at that point she would be given up and moved to a different foster family, but the man had somehow managed to keep custody of her as normal. In the beginning Rin noticed nothing too odd. Though it was true he doted on her in way a normal parent might not, but she had always thought it was because his other two kids were boys. If only she had thought about it sooner she may have seen the signs before things became worse.

Everyone else saw his as the hard working father who doted on his adoptive daughter, though that was a lie. He had never wanted her as a real daughter, he was only her care taker until she turned 18. He'd constantly buy her clothes that were not in her taste, and perhaps belonged to a younger age group. He'd buy her stuffed animals and dolls for her to set on the selves in her room, which always seemed to be watching her creepily at night. He'd make her sit in his lap occasionally as if she were a young child when she was obviously not at age 15.

When no one was around things went from strange to horrid.

Rin couldn't quite remember when it began, but she remembered his hand fondling her leg in an odd way while he forced her to sit next to him as they 'watched a movie'. A few times he let her get away with rushing off to her bedroom and locking the door frightened as he tried moving his hand elsewhere, where no one should ever touch. However, one night he pulled her hard back onto the couch and kept her there while his chubby fingers explored all over her body. She was made to watch him touch himself until he finished, then he'd let her run. It went on like this for a while. He'd grope her and touch himself then let her run away, but obviously that wasn't enough for him.

The night that haunted her dreams every time she closed her eyes was the night he crept into her bed held her down and took her as many times as he pleased. No matter how hard she struggled and how much she screamed he never stopped. After some time Rin had given up fighting back, so whenever he pushed her down she would become a rag doll and let him have his way.

Rin never bothered to tell anyone for she had no friends at school, and no one else would believe her. In time her grades dropped low enough that it became apparent something was wrong to the teachers, and they called her father. Whom spoke kindly to the staff but once home beat her senseless for causing him so much trouble. Soon she just stopped going to school, not that he paid much attention to what she did anyway.

Each day was torture, many times Rin had contemplated taking her own life but she never had the courage to actually commit to the thought. Today would be no different.

Normally Rin had to wake before he did to cook him break feast or else suffer the consequences, but today she could not find the energy to get out of bed. She ate very little, and was only ever abused for what ever she had done, good or bad; therefore today she saw now point in trying. Perhaps she would just lay there and let herself wither away. But when his angry shouts were heard down stairs and his heavy foot steps began to ascend to her room fear rattled her body. Quickly she wrapped the blanket around herself and hid on the other side of the bed hoping he would not see her, though she knew that to be an impossible hope.

"RIN!" The deep voice rumbled as he swung open her door, once again -like times before- busting the handle. Rin thought it to be a voice that belonged to the devil himself. She quivvered in fear in the long moment of silence between his shouting at her and then him spotting her curled on the floor. A shout full of rage sounded from his raspy lungs as he lunged over the bed grabbing her by the hair and yanking her hard until she lay flat underneath him.

Shaking with teary eyes as she silently cried out in pain from the hard tugs at her long black hair.

"Rin, why would you be so cruel to your father? Its no way to treat the man who loves you, staying up here in bed while I go hungry." He grabbed her wrists as he spoke. He always did things this way, yelling curses at her and calling her horrible things, then finally when she was underneath him his voice softened but his eyes glowed like the devil. His words torturing her as they pinned her the bad one who deserved what ever he was about to do to her body. Rin tried to shake her head in protest as he slid his hand underneath the t-shirt she wore to bed, one of the only ones he hadn't given her -which always angered him more to see her wearing it. She had no bra on for she slept without one leaving him clear game to grope her directly. A tear rolled down her cheek. This isnt what she wanted.

No matter how many times he violated her, nor the many times shed tell herself she wouldn't feel anything, each time was like the first. Fear, disgust, desperation filling her to the brim as she wished it would just stop. But it never did.

His free hand flew up and struck her hard across the face freezing her with fear.

"You deserve this, whore" he spat the word out like it was acid, spraying her with his spit. "good girls listen to their fathers."

Rin could no longer protest, her body freezing in absolute fear and defeat as it normally did while he went about touching and biting her as he pleased, making her skin raw and sore bruising her mercilessly. Without hesitation he'd enter her the way he always did, roughly and without regard, causing her to gasp in pain as more tears flowed. Though, no matter how much she wished to cry out, or how he wished to hear her fearful please, Rin could no longer protest for she had lost her voice long ago. Or atleast it felt like an eternity ago, when she found she could no longer speak. She could beg him to stop no longer, nor could she cry as she repeatidly apologized for things she knew were not her fault. Rin woke one day without the ability to say a word to anyone, which surely only angered him more.

Rin closed her eyes tight as she tried not to let her tears fall while he had his way with her, doing what ever he so pleased. It was a pain Rin would never get used to. Parts of her body had been so abused that were meant to remain pure for years yet to come, so why? Why was she used so? What had she ever done to deserve this? She let herself be lost in her own despair in hopes that time might move faster.

When he finally got off her he gave no regards to any comfort of her own as he shoved her aside leaving her room with the door wide open still. Rin laid there lifelessly as she listened to his steps fade as he went into his own room then left shortly for whatever job it was he actually did. Slowly she curled into he fetal position and held her legs to her chest crying heavily. How she wished she could just die from his abuse. A girl her age wasn't supposed to be dealing with things like this, though she had no clue what other 15 year old girls did or liked. The only person Rin had ever had a simblance of a friendship was two years older than her happily dating a guy her age and experiencing life the way it should be. Rin never hated her for the peacefull life she got to have, but it was all the more painful to be around her knowing the fact that she had to be tortured in this fashion while everyone else was smiling and enjoying happiness.

Rin was supposed to start her second year of high school earlier in the season, without even passing the first year, but she never attended a day nor did she plan to. She didn't have a plan for anything but she knew there was no way she could go.

Before long Rin found herself drifting off to a blackness she welcomed, thinking only if falling into death were so easy. However she was awakened by a loud sound. Her whole body stiffened. Was it that time already? The time he would come home late at night only to abuse her further or ignore her completely. She dragged her eyes to the window dreading to see darkness but was met only by the bright rays of the afternoon sun. Confused, the noise came again; someone was knocking on the front door. How oddly suspicious, no one ever knocked or came to visit while he was away. Not that Rin could get up to even answer the door, her body was still incrediblly sore and her sweat pants and panties were barely hanging on her ankles. It took all her strangth just to pull them up over her hips to hide at least half of herself.

After several long seconds that became minutes of silence Rin sighed in hoping whoever it was had just gone away, when her hopes were broken by the sound of the door opening. Had he not locked it? Why? It had always been locked when he was gone, but she remembered it was always locked because she would rush down stairs and lock it herself. Rin was thrown into a panic. Who was it? Him? One of his friends? Was he allowing people to come and rape her as he did. Rin shivvered in fear at the tought, shed die if she had to take this abuse from others as well.

Light foot steps sounded throughout the house, notifying Rin that it couldn't be a man. Then a familiar voice broke the unbariable silence as the person ascended the stairs. Kagome. The only person alive that Rin had any simblance of friendship with. It was one thing Rin knowing the differences between their lives, but now if Kagome found out she would surely want to die. Rin hugged the pillow tightly to her chest hiding the rest of her bare and bruised skin wishing everything would just stop and that she would disapear.

Rin squeezed her eyes tightly as Kagome called out for Rin once more then heard her stop right outside her door. Dead silence filled the room.

"Rin?! What happened?!" Kagome rushed to her side, climbing ontop the bed to be by Rins side though gladly she dared not touch Rin. Slowly she opened her eyes to see the beautifully concerened face of the only person who cared about her.

Luckily Kagome had at least known bout Rins speak problem so she didn't bother actually asking any questions and just looked over her body with sad eyes infering on her own what happened but probably not suspecting the correct assailant. Softly apologizing she quikly rummaged through her bag grabbing her phone to call for emergancy help, which after a short phone call they arrived shortly.

Rin wasn't sure if it was in relief or exhaustion that her mind shut down, the last thing she remembered was laying on a very uncomfortable bed while Kagome held her hand as the vehical they were in bounced along the road at a high speed.

Rin slowly opened her eyes to look up at a blinding bright ceiling of white tile. It took her a few blinks to get comfortable with the shine of all the white; white walls, white curtain, white tile floor, white blanket and pillows. The only thing that wasn't completely white was the hospital gown. She had no clue how long it had been, how much time had passed since Kagome found her. There was an IV in her left hand and a tray with a water and a pudding to her right. She didn't feel much like eating though.

Attempting to sit up in a bed that was comfortable what so ever on top of having absolutely no strangth proved more difficult than Rin had imagined. But once she was seate up right she looked out the window and wondered what would happen to her. A few seconds later Kagome walked through the sliding door closing it behind herself smiling at Rin, seeing that now she was awake, walking over with what smelled like oatmeal. She put the bowl down on the tray and pulled up a chair to sit next to the bed.

"So how are you feeling?" Kagome smiled a wary smile at her. It was obvious that she now knew, or at least figured out part of the truth. "You hungry?" Rin shook her head. She didn't really feel like eating although that oatmeal smelled farely good.

"Alright, but it'll be there for you when your ready. The doctor said you should be okay." She moved some of Rin's black hair behind her ear. Rin had a large purple bruise on her face that was still slightly swollen, but the nurse had informed Kagome that the swelling would go down soon. They also informed Kagome, seeing as she seemed to be the only other connection that the girl had, what other wounds she had and the possible causes of them, but that they would need Rin to speak for herself sooner or later.

Kagome let them know what she already knew about Rin and her circumstances. She knew that Rin and her foster father didn't get along all that well but she had no clue that he was doing horrible things like this to a 15 year old daughter he boasted about to other parents. Kagome was never sure if what Rin was telling her was the truth and now she hate herself for doubting her young friend.

"They arrested that man, so you don't have to go back there ever again. " A strange relief came over Rin and she slowly nodded but only barely, waiting for her only friend to continue. "Any way, I was hoping you would come to live with me. I know its a little further from the school, but your not going anyway right now. So how about it? The shrine is huge and we have plenty of room for one more person. Even if you don't want to sleep alone you can share my room, I don't mind." Kagome had not realized she was rambling and when she looked back up at her friend there were tears streaming down her face with a small smile.

"Oh, I'm sorry! Did I say something wrong? Is it about school?" She put her arms around Rin and Rin shook her head no. She was actually extremely happy right at this moment. She knew Kagome was a kind, but stubborn, girl however hearing her say that it was okay for her to live with her best friend. All she could do with the tears flowing happily down her face was nod her head frantically. She would finally be free of all her torment.

Kagome smiled in turn patting her on top of the head. "Well then its settled. Once they can let you go we'll get some of your things and you'll stay with me until your ready to go back to school. OOH its going to be so much fun!"

Kagome stood and began joyously talking off all the things they would do together that neither ever got to do because neither had a sister. At first Rin was smiling at the notion, then a coldness swept over her. Was she ready? She just spent months doing nothing but trying to hide from a man she saw as the devil, and now she would be living with someone who was this chipper? At least she would be in this hospital for a few days. It was nerve recking though. Kagome had a large family. Her mom, her little brother, her grandfather, and she had once told Rin of the few other people staying there who either paid rent or helped around the large shrine. Rin always heared from Kagome -when they got the chance to speak- of how much of a joyful place it really was. Could Rin willing go into an environment like that without feeling completely and totally out of place. Could she take it knowing that her life had been so terribly different. Did she have a choice?

Before Kagome could comment on Rin's sudden change of mood the nurse walked in holding a chart. She smiled somewhat seeing that young Rin was finally awake.

"Ah good, I see you've joined us. I'm just here to check your vitals." The young woman, a few years older than Kagome who had just turned 17, went about the few machines that Rin was hooked up to checking them all. She wondered why she was hooked up to so many. She heard her heart rate machine constantly beeping in the distance and one other she had no clue what it was doing, but she did see another IV going to her belly.

Kagome noticed the quizzical look on Rin's face and spoke up for her. "They said that you were suffering from malnutrition and needed help fast or else you might have gotten sick and not have gotten better.." There was a sadness in Kagome's eyes. Rin knew she had lost quite a bit of weight the last couple of months but she didn't think it was that bad. She was eating once every day, or every other day. Perhaps more, it was hard to separate those blended days of pain together. Most of the time she just wanted to sleep the pain away.

The nurse nodded confirming Kagome's statement. " You were very sick dear, but your in the clear now. A few more days of rest with us and you can go home with ms Higurashi. The paper work is already done, but if you have any questions don't hesitate to ask." Rin just stared at the nurse as if expecting her to say more; however the nurse was the one expecting Rin to reply with words instead of silence. Kagome had notified them all that Rin had not been talking for quiet some time and that she didn't think it was a medical problem, but the doctors checked just to be sure. Sure enough it was out of her 'own free will' she did not talk. The nurse sighed.

"Well you need some rest dear. It is getting late and visiting hours are almost up." If that wasn't a hint for Kagome to leave then Rin had no clue what was. Surprisingly for just waking up, she was getting rather sleepy. She smiled at her friend to let her know she was okay.

Kagome gave her a hug saying her short goodbyes then left the room turning the lights on low so Rin could better sleep.

Chapter One

New Beginnings End

Alright! done! Promise that the rest of the chapters aren't completely awful and heart wrenching. Let me know how you like it! support makes me write faster ;)

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