Hey everyone! It's been a long time since I've done anything in the Bible fanfiction category. So, I decided it was time to do one. Here's a poem about something that's been on my mind lately.
Everyday it's the same story
It's like my mind has this internal clock
It happens by impulse
Not because I want to
But... I want to
It sucks me in, it kicks me out
Until I leave, and when I do, I'm drained.
I find something better to do, I play piano, I pace
Then I return, I'm ready for more
It's all more of the same
It makes me empty.
There seems to be no joy left in me.
Especially after I turn it off
I'm in a cycle.
Read more, watch more, comment more, post more.
I can never get out.
I want a way out!
Where has my joy went, the joy I used to feel?
I'm empty inside, and what's worse...
I chose this for myself
Jesus, help me find a way out!
My life's supposed to be more than starring at a screen
But that's all I seem to do it seems
Where have the days gone where everything was about the real world.
I want to go back to my days of playing tag and drinking homemade lemonade
Is this where my sin has taken me?
Will I always be a victim to this technology?
Oh God, please help me find a way out!
I'm done with my days laying waste, surrendering my joy, but for what?
A stupid thing online?
Please fill me up again.
I want to be whole again.
I'm sick of the empty, the lonely, the pointless.
No longer do I want to be drained but plugged
Jesus fills me up again with his love
Okay, so long story short, I'm finding that a lot of the times I get on my phone, or watch a youtube video, or play an app, it fills me up a bit, but the feeling doesn't last. I feel so empty when I'm done, and I'm sick of just going through the motions. That's why I've decided to only let Jesus be my joy. I hope you all enjoyed this poem and can maybe relate a bit. Thanks for reading!
#God's Not Dead!