Dreaming of My Doctor (a poem)
After struggling to find sleep and grab its hand,
I slip into dreamland.
I dream of the 'mad man with a box'—
one particular version of him:
the one who is tall, thin, warm chocolate eyes,
sharply dressed in a suit and long brown coat,
with a bright smile and a kind musical voice.
In my dream we dance—slowly.
Hands united, fingers entwined,
My head resting on the soft black t-shirt-covered chest.
He smiles and says "let me have the lead."
I close my eyes and let my senses capture the moment—
summer air, night sky dotted with stars, gentle breeze,
the soft hands, the warm chest, the beating heart.
I open my eyes and I'm welcomed
by afternoon sun, green grass, a blur
of children running, playing, talking,
birds chirping.
He sits next to me and we watch the scene.
Turning his head, he smiles at me,
gently takes my hand for a moment.
Then slowly his grip slips from me, but he still smiles.
I know he won't let me go even as he rises to leave
for moment.
"This must be how the girl in the storybook felt,"
I say.
He smiles again and says "yes."
Though I awake and find myself greeted
by the same sun, the same sounds of summer,
there is no man beside me.
Only an empty side of the bed.
I am the girl who is waiting—
And dreaming of her Doctor.
