I looked at the calendar for the fourth time on this day, it was already Christmas eve and I was spending it alone again. As i looked out of the large window in my living room I saw my snow covered porch and the sparkling white field. Lighting a cigarette I walked to the old sofa it used to be a beautiful shade of red but now it was a faded shade of pink. Not that i minded no one ever visited me nor did i ever bother to invite anyone over. Why would I i only have one friend anyway and he is long gone by now, i miss him.
We used to spend every second together , I remember the last christmas we spent together clearly. It was three years ago , we had no decorations and we had no tree. Not a stocking or candy cane in the entire house. The only thing close to a decoration we had up was the drawing of a wreath that was on the fridge. We never had much money but we always got each other gifts.
He was blonde and for once he wore a grin on his face! His present was perfectly wrapped with a red bow wrapped around it the wrapper he had gotten had cats on it. He knew i hated cats more than anything and he always wrapped my presents with cat wrapping paper to see me pout like a child. I looked down at my present, it was poorly wrapped the wrapping paper was wrinkled and slightly crumpled around the box. The wrapping paper was hard to describe i think it had been spongebob but I had used duct tape instead of normal tape.
Guilty we exchanged presents I couldn't help but stare at the gift for a bit , it felt slightly heavy. I looked up only to see the blonde waiting for me to open it. Hesitantly I gave in opening it up careful trying not to rip up the paper knowing it was an impossible task i ripped it open the box said it held a brand new Xbox 360! I knew he liked to play jokes on me so i cautiously opened the box there was no trick this time it did hold a new Xbox.
Guilt washed over me as i realized how much money i must have costed him, I knew we were having a tough time with money and i didn't think he would spend so much on me. I looked up seeing he had already opened the gift there was no disappointment on his face only a sad smiled. His dads hunting knife had broken days ago it was the only thing he had from his parents they died when he was young. All i did was take it and get it fixed it didn't cost much but I thought it would be nice. After staring at him i noticed something off about him, he was actually crying. I watched him set down the knife as i began to ask him what was wrong he threw his arms around me sobbing out thank you to many times for me to count.
After that he had to the next summer, i haven't celebrated christmas since. Oddly though a couple hours ago a little girl knocked on my door. The orphanage i used to live in was having trouble with christmas this year and was having a party today to gather presents for the children there they were taking donations of old toys or new ones. I sat and thought for hours before gathering a bunch of my old games and I went to the store and bought so new toys and clothes for the children. I spent a while wrapping each present trying to make them all look perfect for the children. After that i carried armfuls of the presents out to my new truck, well it wasn't exactly new I just bought it used. It wasn't the nicest truck it was silver and slightly banged up but I don't mind that its just like me ,its pretty to look at and kind of messed up.