So,
here I am, at the coffee machine again, making my magnificent coffee
for the team, whilst working up the courage to speak to Jack about
our relationship. Well, if you could call it that. Once
the coffee was in the cups with the finishing touches added, I placed
them on a tray and headed towards the hub, to give the team their
final round of coffee. I got the usual grunt of acknowledgement from
Owen; a small smile from Tosh and Gwen completely ignored me.
Again.The
last cup on the tray was Jack's; I headed up towards his office,
walking slower than usual, and the closer I got, the slower my steps
became. My stomach was doing triple summersaults with the odd back
flip included; I guess you could say I was nervous. It was probably
because I had, by then, kind of figured out what to say to Jack, and
I guess that our future would depend on whatever his reaction would
be, and his view on our relationship. If he even calls what we have,
a relationship. Hopefully he does.Anyway,
as I got to Jack's office door, I knocked and went in. He looked up
and smiled, that sweet smile he saves for me when we're alone.
Slightly dazzled, I paused a second to reassemble my thoughts, and
hesitating, I put his coffee down in front of him. I took a deep
breath and thought 'Here goes!''Jack'
I said, sounding more down, than I was going for, but I've said it
now.'Yes,
Ianto?' he says, looking at me with a curious expression, probably
because of the way I sounded. 'Is something the matter, anything I
can do for you?''Well,
I was wondering…' I started, pausing again as I re-organised my
thoughts and took another deep breath. I opened my mouth to
speak, and just as I was about to ask about our future,
relationship and what not, the bloody rift alarm goes off. 'Fucking
fantastic.' I thought, growling internally, 'Just when I have it
all planned out and everything, I get interrupted.''Can
this wait, Ianto?' he says, as he gets up from his seat and makes
his way across the room, out the door and down towards the main
hub.'Well
I suppose it'll have to now' I muttered darkly to myself, as Jack
had already walked off, well out of hearing range, without waiting
for an answer. He knows I'll do as he asks, I always do. I reckon
it's that voice he uses with me, it's like a soft commanding
voice, that smoothly hypnotises me into a trance, were I'll agree
with everything he says or do bloody everything he asks of me, like
commanding a dog to do a trick. Oh bloody marvellous I'm his bloody
lap dog.
Sighing
deeply, I tucked the coffee tray under my arm, and followed Jack out
of the room, thinking, 'I wonder what tonight has in store for us,
it certainly won't be the conversation I had planned.'
