A Broken Valentine

Ren's POV

Disclamer: I don't own Shaman King.

Post-Valentine story. A little drama (Err I really don't know if this is drama…) I wrote because I can't sleep. Damn Insomnia… Sigh*

Hope you will like it.

How long had it been?

Five years? Ten years?

No. I think longer than that.

I don't know when exactly I began to love her. The feeling just suddenly bloomed in my heart unconsciously.

I remembered when I first met her in primary. She was different from the other girls. Cold, stubborn, and easily got angry. That's why many were afraid of her.

But not me… because I found her unique.

Our friendship begun when we were in junior high, along with others. Also that time, I realized I was always looking at her, mesmerizing over her golden hair, her porcelain skin, her brown orbs… her beauty.

I also found myself doing stupid things, making her angry, irritating her, just to get her attention.

It was in high school when I finally admitted to myself that I like her… No. Maybe love her.

But I didn't want to ruin our friendship. So, I just hid my feelings… waiting for the right time to tell her.

Senior year was one of the eventful parts of school life. But it was the prom I was looking forward to. Because that day of hearts… I finally got the courage to tell my love for her.

Waiting at school's auditorium, I felt my heart beat faster as I saw Kyouyama Anna entering the hall. The simple dress she was wearing looked elegant on her. She was so beautiful.

But my heart dropped when I saw her hand… holding someone else's… hand that belongs to Asakura Yoh, my best friend.

Yoh waved at me when he saw me with that sheepish smile of his.

I smirked, as if congratulating him, while hiding the rose behind me.

The music began and my heart was torn to million pieces seeing the scene of them… dancing lovingly under the moon.

I felt broken… broken at the Valentine's Day.

I knew there was something between them. The way they looked secretly at each other, their eye contacts filled with message, and those simple smiles they give to each one.

But I never thought it was love. For I never thought they will love each other… even like… for they were totally opposite, like Yin and Yang.

Graduation came quickly. I decided to study college abroad. I bid goodbye to them, promising I will visit them once a year… reasoning I missed my mother land.

But the truth was I just wanted to forget… to forget about her and to totally move on. To piece together this shattered heart of mine and let this pain be totally forgotten.

A year later I visited them and learned they didn't go to college. I knew they were not as rich as I am, but that was not the point… What was his plan in the future?

"I don't know. I don't think about that now."

That was the answer I got from him. Somehow, I expected it. He was a very carefree guy, always looking at the positive side.

Thinking of the girl I love having a miserable life in the future build a little flickered of anger inside me. I don't want to see her suffer. And so, I told him what I thought about him.

"You're selfish. Your future is not just about you. It's also about Anna. What kind of life will you give to her? Don't you have any dreams?"

I haven't realized I said many hurtful words until I stopped.

He looked at me, thinking what I had said. Then he smiled and scratched his head, mumbling a soft 'You're right.' And then he turned around and walked while looking at the sky.

I knew I hurt his feelings. I knew my words sank deeply in his heart. But he should know the truth… that a guy like him isn't worthy for Anna.

I visited them again after I finished my college. I knew they were angry at me for breaking my promise. But I need to distance from them after what I did to Yoh. Also… I realized I still love Anna.

The first question entered my mind when I arrived in our old hang out was 'Are they married?' But I brushed that away when I saw Horohoro, one of our friends.

From him, I found out that Yoh just vanished unknowingly from the town the day after I went back to China. No one knew where he is. No one knew why.

But I did.

I knew it was because of our conversation. I think I made him feel so down. And I felt guilty for this.

Still… some part of me felt glad. And hope was building up inside me. Hope that Anna and I will be together.

And as I visited her, I saw she became paler and thinner than the last time. Horo was right, Yoh's absence really affected her.

Anna cried on me while telling how she badly missed Yoh. How much she longed for him. And I did my best to comfort her. Promising I will always be at her side.

Ever since then I always came at Anna's place, dividing my time between her and my business, hoping that I can cure her heart, wishing that I will win her heart someday.

After several months she finally accepted me. She finally accepted my love. And that was the happiest moment of my life.

I wished this happiness would last.

But…

A month before our wedding, a luxurious black car suddenly parked in front of Anna's house.

Out of curiosity I walked towards the vehicle and was frozen when a familiar man went out from there.

Yoh…

He quickly gave me a hug when he saw me, telling how happy he was to see me.

I was happy too… but I was much more scared.

Scared that he would take Anna away from me... again.

I asked him what happened to him and he answered it was a big luck.

When he left Funbari, he really didn't know what to do. But at the end he decided to take any work. When he saved enough money, he decided to take a business course and began a small business. Luckily for him, his business became successful and it bloomed, making him earned much money.

"It's all thanks to you," he said.

Yes, he was talking about the words I said to him before. My words made him motivated to have dreams… dreams for Anna.

I invited Yoh inside the house and there I told him we, Anna and I, were getting married.

I saw hurt in his eyes as he looked at Anna.

Anna was not looking at him at all.

Yoh smiled, masking his self again, and then congratulated us. After a short chat, he bid goodbye.

I thought it was going to end there.

I felt somehow relax.

But the fear in my heart never leaves…

For I know Anna still loves him.

One week after his visit my greatest fear came.

I was so happy that time while looking at the bouquet of flowers and chocolates on my hand.

I was hoping that a blonde girl will welcome me with a smile.

But instead, an empty room and alone letter greeted me.

Ren,

I'm sorry. I still love Yoh. And I want to live with him forever. Please forgive me.

Anna

My knees dropped on the floor as my vision blurred. Tears started to flow from my eyes.

I felt so hurt… damn hurt.

My heart tore again in million pieces…

The pain was unbearable… It shattered my whole beings…

I saw a knife shining at the corner of my eyes…

Thunderclaps were acknowledging what's inside my mind…

cm21:Wooh! Done at last… Teehee! I hope this story wasn't boring. Yeah, the characters where somehow OOC but I love the idea of Ren just like that… Hehe!

Forgive me for grammatical errors. And tell me your opinions.

Please R&R.