Author's Note: Since I already did a drabble for Naminé, I thought of doing one for Axel, who is apparently a very misunderstood character that strangely enough we feel sympathy and empathy for. Another short story shit crap thing from Shirozora. Sue me.
Copyrights: All characters belong to Square-Enix and Disney but the core of the drabble belongs to me.
Trivia: I will be using the word 'nostalgia' and its various forms a lot now because of Utada Hikaru's song, Passion, and the various usages of the word 'natsushikaru'. You look up that word yourself.
Victim of Nostalgia
I am a bigger fool than I thought. How could I have been so blind to this?
All my rage, all my anger, all my sweat and tears and blood and effort, all for...nothing. My will forced itself upon yours, tried to burn down the wall of amnesia surrounding you, but now I know the truth: I have lost. It wasn't because of your need to complete yourself, the need to find a purpose in your life, a need to pull yourself out of the lie you've been thrust into. It wasn't because of that damn witch and the man she worked with. It wasn't because of the goddamn Keyblade Master and his meddling friends.
No, it was me. I was the one at fault. I tried to bring you back when you already decided to step forward.
You didn't remember me. It hurt me when it shouldn't. It angered me. Who dared to touch your memories and wipe them away? Who thought of tampering with our friendship, the brotherly love that existed between us? Who decided to pull you away from the life you used to lead...and thrust you into a lie?
I tried to bring you back. I broke every rule, defied my superiors, and tried to bring you back to the Organization. I wanted you back, I wanted your friendship and our shared past to come back.
Nostalgic dreams. That's what people call it. They are mere sparks in the dark, to vanish with every licking flame.
But I never understood. I was your best friend and I never understood what you wanted. That was my greatest failing. I was so blinded by the need to bring you back that I never gave a thought as to what you wanted. This...this blindness...this flaw destroyed the both of us. I lost you...and I lost myself. I was branded traitor and in my fury I sought to manipulate him to take vengeance for the both of us.
But it was only for me. You were at peace. You had found what you wanted...when I haven't. I'm still searching...but that search is coming to an end.
You have what you want. Now it's time to find what I want. What I desire.
This is all for you, Roxas. Remember that.
Author's Endnote: Eventually, it all comes down to Roxas, doesn't it? Very strange…I'd like your thoughts on this, since Axel really was the last person I'd do a drabble on.