The night "3XK" first aired, I was so inspired by the ending of the episode that I couldn't fall asleep. The desperation in Kate's voice when she thought for a moment that Rick might not be alive, the tear down her face when she realized he was all right, the hand holding at the end... All of it. It was so perfect. So, I stayed up that night and wrote this song.
"Kate's Song"
I'm not the kind of girl
Who goes looking for attention
I'm not the kind of girl who needs someone
To make me feel safe
I make a mess of love
Despite my good intentions
And you're a child who doesn't understand
Just where I'm coming from
You're the best thing
I never knew I needed
So baby, tell me
Why it's so hard
To just tell you that now
When I see you
I'm seventeen again
Caught in a reckless romance
And I'm lost inside your eyes again
Oh God, I've done it this time
Between the eye rolls and
The sideways glances
Awkward smiles
All my lost chances
To tell you what I've finally realized
You saw right through my smile
When I said I was all right
And in my darkest night
You stayed there on my couch
'Til morning light
You see the best inside of me
And not who I pretend to be
I'm not as bulletproof as I may seem
And when I see you
I'm seventeen again
Caught in a reckless romance
And I'm lost inside your eyes again
Now I'm sure I've lost my mind
Between the eye rolls and
The sideways glances
Our long talks
And long gone chances
To tell you you're all I've been searching for
I was running scared
Out of pace
Tears rolling down my face
I thought I lost you
I thought I lost you
Struggling
Hard to breathe
What's gotten into me
What if I lost you
So scared I lost you
Ran upstairs
Screamed your name
Only myself to blame
How could I have been so blind
The night I prayed that I'd have more time
To tell you
That when you smile
I'm seventeen again
Lost in a reckless romance
That I hope
Will never end
Between the eye rolls and
The stolen glimpses
I finally found what
I've been missin'
And you need to know I've loved you all along
And you're the only one who tore down all my walls
And found out
Who I really am.