Ok so as we all know Sodapop broke up with Sandy and how he was heartbroken. Well this is like an insight on his feelings.
They tell me to forget.
I want her. No, scrap that. I need her. I need her touch, I need to see her China blue eyes, to run my fingers through her hair, to hear her soft voice again. I need to wrap my arms around her to keep her warm and safe.
I just wanna be loved by someone who ain't family or friends, is that so hard to ask for? Yeah, people would say that I'm being over-reactive and that I can just get a new girlfriend, but I can't, no other girl compares to Sandy. I need her.
People tell me to forget about her but I can't, it's too hard to forget her. How could anyone forget that cute laugh? Those China blue eyes? All I ever think about lately is her and only her. I can't forget her, it's physically impossible for me to do that. The others don't understand me, just like no one really understands Ponyboy. I try to but heck that kid's different to all of us, in a better way I'd say too.
All I can ever do is staring at the photos of us two and think of her. All the time 24/7 of every day. I can't forget her, I just can't. And I can't find anyone I'd like better. Why is it so hard to find love, when it just keeps running away from you? At least Steve found someone, I'm happy for my bud but there's still that aching loneliness in my heart. A gaping hole that can't be patched up. Like a piece is missing.
If I could just go back and try it all over again I swear I'll get it right. I make our relationship right, I wouldn't rush in too quickly and I'd make sure I got a good job to try to impress her parents. They don't seem to like me.
Man, I don't think I've loved anything this much since Mickey Mouse, I loved that horse so much, and someday I'll buy him back, just like someday I'll get Sandy back. Then we can get married and have kids together just like we'd dreamed.
I need to get her back, but I can't. It was hard in the first place asking her out. I know people think and say that I'm movie-star handsome and stuff, but everyone has their bad points, mine happens to be asking girls who I need to take me back. I'm actually pretty shy about this stuff and since I haven't needed it for a while it's gonna be tough.
But I need her. I can't forget her.