It was a beautiful November Sunday morning and Sami had gotten up early and decided to take the younger kids out of town to see the changing leaves. She knocked on Will's door and waited.
Will: Go away Mom-I'm not feeling so good, today.
Sami: You've said that for the past two days. Will, if you're sick, what is going on. Please, I want to help. (Will comes out of the bedroom, he is unshaven, in sweats and t-shirt. He had obviously been crying. His eyes were red and puffy. He looked sick, not the flu, or a cold, but heart sick.
Will: yeah, you beckoned me Mom. (Taking a seat on the couch)
Sami: Hey are you sick, do you need to go the Doctor? (Feeling his forehead)
Will: No, Mom just stop, I, I… (The tears start again and this takes Sami by total surprise)
Sami: Hey, what the hell, what's wrong? Did Sonny do something to hurt you? His mom?
Will: Nope, it was all me and well, not true, I had some help from Lucas Horton, as well.
Sami: Ok, what is going on, please talk to me, Will? (She takes a seat next to him on the couch)
Will: So, the other day, I went to Sonny's place, we were having a great time, and we were just kidding around, like two guys do. Well one thing lead to another and we started kissing, then I wanted to, well you know?
Sami: Oh, OH…have sex, you mean.
Will: that doesn't surprise you? I just told you that I was going to make love with my boyfriend.
Sami: Will, what you and he do in private, is just that, private. I know gay people have sex, I would just want you two to be safe, that's all, so anyway, go on.
Will: Well, we were just kinda making out on his bed, and there was a knock on the door. We were just going to ignore the person, but then Dad started yelling though the door, so we dashed to answer it, putting shirts back on, but he obviously knew what was up, and it was just kinda embarrassing.
Sami: I'm sure it was for all three of you. And so what happened next?
Will: He came to tell me about Grandma Caroline, so I left Sonny alone with him. While I was gone they apparently had some sort of talk, but Dad got some crazy bug up his ass
Sami: yeah, and then, (encouraging him to go on)
Will: Later, on Sonny and I had met up at CG and talked. Sonny tried to play it off like Dad didn't say anything to him, but I knew better. I went and met up with Dad at the benches in HTS. He started in about do I know how many guys Sonny's been with, if I knew if he was serious, how I was dumb to fall for Sonny's tricks, and on, and on, and on. The more he talked to more I started doubting Sonny and myself.
Sami: So, your dad, thought, that Sonny was using you for sex? Do you think that?
Will: No, No, way. I started it, it kissed him, and I wanted to be with him. He asked me if I was sure and I said yes. I wouldn't have started it, unless I was sure, and I was, positively.
Sami: So, now how did this fight with Sonny start?
Will: I went back to Sonny's, and instead of talking, like he wanted to do, I grabbed him and started kissing him, it was so intense. He backed off, sensing that I was in a bad emotional state, and I was so mixed up by what Dad had said, I started hammering him about, who he's been with, if they had been at this new place, if I was the first guy, he'd brought there, I basically hurt him, and he told me to leave. And now I have no idea where we stand. I love him, Mom. And now I think I've ruined it. I want to talk to him, I want to hold him. I want to tell him how sorry I am, for the doubt, the stupidity. But, I don't know if my heart can handle the pain.
Sami: Have you tried to talk to him?
Will: I don't have the nerve to face him. If he rejects me, I really don't know if my heart or head could handle it. I want him to want, to come to me. But, I want him to know that I love him, and how sorry I am for letting someone, yet again get in the way of our happiness.
Sami: Hey, you need to face him, whether he breaks up with you or not. You need to be the strong man, you have become and go take a shower, and get dressed. I will, make you something to eat and some coffee, ok.
Will: Ok, Mom, and thanks for just listening, and not judging me. (He kisses her on the cheek on the way to the shower).
As soon as he is out room, Sami is texting Lucas to see if he wants to join her and the younger kids today, for their trip to see the fall leaves. He texts her back within minutes, that he would be delighted to join them, he'll be over shortly. She texts him back to give her an hour.
She wants to make sure Will's not there, when Lucas is.
Meanwhile, Sonny is at CG, going through the motions of running the coffee shop, but he is more like a robot than a person, these days. Since that big fight he had with Will. The horrible, horrible, fight. It has been, all he's been thinking about, for the past few days. He missed Will, terribly but, he had no idea where they stood, and it was still too painful to even think about seeing him. He loved Will, there wasn't a doubt of that, and he knew at some point, he'd have to swallow his pride and finally talk to him. He was getting tired of the questions of why he and Will weren't together at the moment. And God, if his mom found out, she would have been justified in her issues at the beginning of their relationship. Damn it, Lucas Horton. Damn you and your homophobic ideas. Why was it just so hard for him to love Will and support, him? He was the son he had always loved, wasn't he. He was just now, living his real truth. If, Lucas could just get that.
Justin: Sonny, Jackson! (he yelled)
Sonny: Oh, gosh, Dad. Sorry.
Justin: Are you ok? You don't look like yourself.
Sonny: Well, I am just a little sad, as a matter of fact.
Justin: Why?
Sonny: I miss my boyfriend.
Justin: Did Will go out of town?
Sonny: No, dad. We had a terrible fight and I kicked him out of my apartment. I haven't talked to him since.
Justin: I hate to over step, but what was the fight about?
Sonny: Lucas Horton. He hates, the fact that Will is gay, and he tried to make this thing about me, but it's him, and I called him on it, as did Will. But, Will, allowed him to get in his head. He came back to me, and started throwing personal questions my way. I, in any other situation, would have gladly answered his questions, but at that moment, I knew it was his father talking and not Will. I was hurt, and I asked him to leave.
Justin: But, now, you're not sure that you should have asked him leave?
Sonny: Yeah, I haven't seen or spoken to him in days, I really miss him. I just don't know how to go about fixing things with him.
Justin: Do you care about him?
Sonny: I, I'm in Love with him, Dad. (Smiling for the first time in Days).
Justin: Have you told him that?
Sonny: No, I have not. I don't know if I'll get the chance too.
(As Sonny and his dad were talking, T and Audrey walked into the coffee shop.)
T: Hello, Mr. Kiriakis, (nodding at Justin), Sonny.
Sonny: Hey, T. And this pretty lady, must be Audrey. It is finally nice to meet you.
Audrey: You too, Sonny. I've heard amazing things about your coffee.
Sonny: From, T?
Audrey: Yeah, he told me, he had a new friend, who owned this amazing coffee shop, and I love coffee.
T: Yeah, she loves coffee.
Sonny: Well, you guys tell, the barista, up there, that your drinks are on the house.
T/Audrey: Thanks,
Sonny: No, problem.
Justin: Hey, you're talking to T, but you're not talking to Will. I don't get it.
T: (walking past) Wait, you're not talking to your boyfriend? My best friend, Will. What in the heck happened? You, two were attached at the hip, last time I was here.
Sonny: Well, I'm sure you'll hear about it, we had a fight and now we are not talking.
T: Hey, I have some, advice for you.
Sonny: Yeah, what's that?
T: I was watching you two, when we talked last time. You two are meant for each other. I have no doubt about it. You two went through far too much to be on the outs, you need to make it right with him. I can see the pain in your eyes man.
Sonny: I didn't know you were so romantic.
T: Hey, I'm trying. Bottom line, Gay or Straight, I know what love is, or at least I guess I kinda, am inspired by being with that pretty lady over there. If you and Will hadn't encouraged me, I wouldn't have gone for it. If you don't try to make it right with Will, you both will be hurt. I'm not blind Sonny, I know you are in love with him, and you have been for a long time. Don't let Will's, dad ruin something that is perfect.
Sonny: Perfect?
T: Yeah. You stood by Will, when even his supposed best friend couldn't. You believed in him, when people wanted to accuse him of murder, a murder that wasn't even real. You kept your own feeling in check for this man, when I know it was hurting you. You could have even had other guys if you had wanted to, but you didn't. Why? Because even if he didn't know it or realize it, he was in your heart, he was, is your heart. (Sonny couldn't believe that this was coming out of T's mouth, these honest and perfect words were actually helping. T was right, too. He loved Will, more than he realized. He wants to find Will right this minute, he is longing to hold him and he still can feel Will's touch)
Sonny: I guess I'd be willing to see him, and talk. That's the best I can promise. (Even though he knew the moment he saw him, it would be over for him. They don't say the heart wants what it wants)
T: Great!
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Meanwhile, Will had made it to the Brady Pub. He's at the bar, having some food, and a soda. He's made through most for the burger, when Gabi stops to talk to him.
Gabi: Hey, you. Haven't seen much of you in a while, you and Sonny must be hiding away somewhere, huh?
Will: Not exactly. Sonny isn't talking to me. And it's all my fault.
Gabi: He didn't find out about, that one night (pointing to herself and Will) we?
Will: God no. Long story short, he and I were going to… and my dad interrupted us, the day my great-grandma left.
Gabi: That is why you were so emotional that day.
Will: Yes, it is.
Gabi: And why is Sonny mad? I still don't understand.
Will: My Dad, interrupted us, when we were going too—you know
Gabi: ah yeah, and
Will: Well later, my dad texted me to meet him, so I went to see him. I tried to tell him to stay out of my love life, since his wasn't perfect. But he started saying crap, planting doubts in me about Sonny and it kind stuck in my head. So when I did see Sonny again, I was forceful and when he wouldn't give in to me , I questioned if he had been with other guys before me and If he had brought other guys to his place.
Gabi: Oh no! Will.
Will: Yeah, it was basically the same crap my dad had already said to him, when I ran outta Sonny's place to come here. So he knew my Dad was the one who had put the ideas in my head. I hurt his feelings so bad. And, I know he'll never forgive me.
Gabi: Will, never say never. I didn't think I could actually find some who'd liked me, but then your great-grandmother, hired Nick, and now, we're together. So, don't give up. Give him a chance to cool off. And when he calms down, and if he truly cares for you, like I know he does, he'll talk to you.
Will: I don't know if I can wait that long. (As he says this, his cell phone indicates that he has an incoming text message. He almost can't believe it. It's from Sonny. He gets a small smile on his face.)
Gabi: What?
Will: A text, it's from Sonny.
Gabi: Well, What does he say?
Will: He wants to meet me at the benches in HTS, the far edge, where we can be alone.
Gabi: Yeah! Its progress, text him back and tell him, you'll be there, now. Do it.
Will: OK, yes of course.
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Meanwhile, Sami is still at home waiting for Lucas. She was pacing around the apartment. She had sent the kids out with friends, for a trip to the apple orchard; they didn't need to be around for this. This was going to be ugly and she was ready for battle. She was a mother ready to defend her young. Yes, Will was a grown man, but there he was yet again, heartbroken, because of his dad. And this time Sami, wasn't going to stand for it. Then the door bell, chimes, and it brings her back. She rushes to open the door.
Lucas: Hey, so are the kids ready? (He says stepping inside).
Sami: How dare you? Lucas, really, who in the hell do you think you are? Will, he's so upset, do you know that I finally was able to get him out of bed, after 3 days. You are really a piece work, I'm still trying to remember why or how I fell in love with you, ever.
Lucas: What are you talking about?
Sami: One, the fact, you totally embarrassed Will and Sonny, during what should have been a very private and intimate moment in their relationship. And then, when Will agrees to see you after, send encounter, you completely mock their relationship and start saying horrible things about Sonny, like he's some man slut or something. When, he's not.
Lucas: How do you, know? You're just as naïve as Will.
Sami: I am not. You really have no idea what you may have done, do you. Do you realize he went back to Sonny after your "talk" and asked him those questions, and Sonny kicked him out.
Lucas: Good, well, I was right, then wasn't I, he only wanted Will for sex.
Sami: No, Lucas. Sonny was hurt by the questions and accusation, because they weren't coming from Will's heart, they were coming from your mouth and Sonny could see right through it. I would have thought that after the crap your mother put you through with most, if not all the relationships you have had in your adult life, that you of all people would have the common decency to stay out of Will's relationships.
Lucas: I felt like Sonny was just pushing Will into something he wasn't ready for, I thought I was helping him.
Sami: He's a grown man, Lucas. If he wants a sexual relationship with any boyfriend he has, well, that my dear is his prerogative, isn't? He and Sonny have known each other for over a year and I know that Sonny has cared for Will for most of it, if not all of it. And now, Will is able to love himself and feel comfortable in his own skin. And more important, he can love someone, who is smart, funny, caring and giving. And that someone loves him back. Sonny isn't out to use Will, he loves him, Lucas, I know he does and I honestly hope you didn't ruin Will's chance for a happy life. We owe him that much. His childhood was horrible and it's our fault. We shouldn't make his adult life horrible as well.
(Lucas was puzzled by Sami words. She was right. They did owe him his happiness. And he knows one thing for sure; he loves his son and only wants the best for him,)
Lucas: Ok. Ok. I get it. Will was right, it's me, and I have a problem with knowing what "Gay" really means. I have a problem, not with knowing he's gay, I have a problem, know the "technical" parts of him being gay, and…
Sami: Let's just say this, how you or I have sex is no one ones business, and the way Will has sex, isn't anyone's either. We need to support him and his choices, and being gay is not a choice I might add. You have to apologize to them again and this time, when you say you're ok with them being in a relationship, you have to mean it. Or Will, be gone forever to you, this time.
Lucas: you are very, right. Ok, Sami. There is a first for everything. (Smiling)
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Will is walking in the gate of the HTS by the benches. There is only one person there, and it's Sonny. He can feel his pulse quicken, his heart is pounding so fast, and his breathing is heavy. He knew he was missing Sonny, during this break, but he hadn't realized just how much. He walks up to the bench. Sonny, who had been staring down at his feet, looks up at Will. Sonny see's the pain in Will's eyes. He sees the hurt he has put the man he loves through, and it makes him sad. He wants to jump up and put his arms around Will and hold him close. He wants to kiss those lips. He wants to run to him and hold him. But he uses every ounce of self -control he has in his body to stay right where he is sitting.
Sonny: You came.
Will: As fast as I could.
Sonny: I'm glad (with a small smile)
(Will notices the smile; it makes his heart skip a beat)
Will: You said you wanted to talk. I want to first say, I am incredibly sorry. I'm sorry for my stupid behavior after, I went to see my dad. I also want to say sorry for leaving him with you. I shouldn't have left you two alone, not like that.
Sonny: I shouldn't have let you go see him alone, when you got that text from him. I had a feeling that he was going to lay into you for what he walked in on.
Together: I miss you. (Smiling)
Sonny: I shouldn't have kicked you out the other day. We should have talked about this then. But I was so angry with Lucas, I was afraid that I would say something that would have offended you, or him, and I don't want to come between you two, I really don't.
Will: Me either. I'm also sorry for allowing him to let me doubt you. And you were right, if I had wanted to know about who you'd been with, I should have asked for myself, not because my dad put the idea in my head. (Standing, up and pacing a little) I really miss talking to you. Knowing that I can tell you anything and I can trust you with it. I should have trusted you and came to talk to you about what my dad had said. I am sorry for not doing that. I, I, really want another chance, Sonny. If you can give me one. I, (this was it, do or die) love you, so much. I don't want us to be over. I really don't. (Sonny couldn't stand the emotion in Will's voice, he couldn't stand that this heart break and ache was somewhat, over him. Will was scarred of losing him, and Sonny was scared of losing Will as well. Sonny, got up from the bench, and went over to Will, who had his back to him. Sonny, he, tentatively puts his arms, around Will, and each are feeling the emotional pull that this action represents. It feels like it has been a life time, since they have touched, it feels like the first time they touched, when they met that summer day, last year. It feels like home. )
Sonny: I don't want us to be over either. Anything I said the other day was said in anger, and in hast. I was mad, at your dad, I was mad at you for doubting me. I love you, so much more then you can ever know. I have loved you for so long. It was love at first sight for me. And even after our fight, I was still in love with you. I couldn't stand being away from you. But, I needed the time to think. I appreciate that you gave me the space and time I needed. It proves to me, that you do care about me. And I get why you'd want to know about my past, and if I had sex with any of them, but I was mad that your dad, had to be the one, who made you, bring it up. And for your information, I haven't had "Sex" with anyone. I have, been intimate in other ways, but no sex. I swear (putting out his pinky. Will smiled, and put his pinky out, too.)
(At this point, they both have had enough of being apart. They are at first tentative in their hug, but then Will pulls Sonny in for the embrace, and Sonny stares into those blue eyes, and he is home once more. Will, feels his own heart beat for the first time, in a week, he feels whole again. He never wants to be apart again, ever. He knows, he's lucky to have Sonny and he promises to himself, never to let anyone come between them again. )
Sonny: So, do you want to get out of here?
Will: Um, where were you thinking?
Sonny: My place, and we already know, we won't have any interruptions, right. We are the only ones who know where, we're going. So, let's go.
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They make it back to Sonny's in record time. They talk for a little while, have a bite to eat. But they just want to enjoy each other. No sex, ok, maybe a little kissing and touching, but they just want to reconnect with each other, take it slow.
Sonny: Hey, I know this might sound silly, but dance with me. (He holds out his hand to Will)
Will: Um, ok. (Taking Sonny's hand.)
(Sonny, using a remote, clicks on the stereo and this song starts: (He is, by Brady)
It's the only explanation
To the question at hand
Like years of pain gone away
In a single day
There's nothing that compares
To the way
You make me feel inside
And I'm so glad you're my…
Prince charming, my angel
My king and my friend
My lover, my one
He is, He is
The beat in my heart
The kiss on my lips
My lover, my one
He is, He is
They could take away the money
My fortune and fame
But as long as you stay
Here with me
I would be ok
I look at you
And I see me
Just reflections of the love you made with me
And I'm so glad you want to be my
Prince charming, my angel
My king and my friend
My lover, my one
He is, He is
The beat in my heart
The kiss on my lips
My lover, my one
He is he is
My Sun, my shine
My love, my life
He is everything
I gotta a love you like no one has ever loved before
I gotta give you what you gave baby and so much more
I wanna take it fast, but I wanna take it slow
Addicted to your love and I can't let go
Prince charming, my angel
My King and my friend
My lover, my one
He is, He is
The beat in my heart
The kiss on my lips
My lover, my one
He is, He is.
After the song, Sonny notices that Will has tears in his eyes. Sonny, wipes one of Will's tears, from his cheek.
Sonny: Hey, why the tears, haven't we had enough of those?
Will: that song, it's pretty, perfect. It sums up what I feel for you.
Sonny: Well, that one thing about us gay guys, some of us have good taste in music (he says smiling.) So I was hoping that this evening wouldn't end. And before, you have to wonder, we don't have to do anything, I just want you to stay with me. I've missed you like crazy, and I want you to be here when I wake up in the morning.
Will: you want me to sleep here with you. Ok, I don't want to be apart, either.
(So that night, the reunited lover's, hadn't had sex, just enjoyed, a tear or two. A perfect slow dance, to a great love song, that was perfect to describe them and their love and a bed in which to sleep in one another's arms. It was a perfect night, and they were both happier than, they had been in a long while.)