"Hey, Kaidan."
"Hey. There you are."
"Are you ready?"
"Absolutely. For anything. Bring it on.
"And biotic division? Your students?"
"More than ready. Eager. That's youth for you."
"guess we're old soldiers, hey shepard?"
"Yeah, I guess we are."
"Brothers- in- arms." He let his head down. Coming kaidan he needs you to be strong, but I can't I have to say goodbye in case he- but he could not finish the thought.
"We know the score; we both know that this is goodbye." He looked a he trying to hold the tears in his eyes there was a great sadness, he was about to lose control, he was desperate.
"No my love, do not talk like that, when this is over," his voice breaking, her eyes filled with tears, "I'll be waiting for you, you'd better show up."
He slowly approached him.
"Don't get me wrong! I'm going to fight like hell for the chance to hold you again." "But listen there's… a thing I want to say, looking back… I have a few regrets but not many. That's pretty damn amazing, right?" He could no longer look at him, he was falling apart and turned to look at the sides, shepard did the same. "Messed up kid that I was, never would have dreamed of the life I've had. And I owe a lot of that to you, you know. I do not regret giving you my heart and remember that I am nothing but a empty life without you. "
"Do not lose hope kaidan."
"What good is hope to me, it if is the last thing that dies and without you my hope is lost."
"It's been tremendous journey" I said trying to change the subject, his words were burning he inside.
"If it has been"
He looked a he again. "But you feel afraid?"
"Of course I'm kaidan , but that fear's gonna keep me alive long enough to strike these bastards right through the hearth ."
"Yeah. Exactly."
"So," he said with a sigh of pain. "So…Take care, kaidan"
He made an attempt to go, if he stayed longer he would lose control, but he did not get far when he felt his arms.
Kaidan did not care that they were in the middle of all that his students were looking a he, at that time he was not a soldier, in this moment he was only a man in love with a terrible fear of losing the man he loved most in the world and without thinking. With his hands he grabbed his face and looked into his eyes, when he saw the tears in his eyes he could not hold his.
"I can't lose you again" he said with a broken heart and her lips meet together with his, in a desperate kiss.
When they stop kissing he looks at him, at the tears running down he's cheeks.
"I love you John"
"I love you kaidan"
He released her slowly, looked at him with a sadness. He never seen him like this, he was struggling to breathe, he felt that his heart was being shattering. He always has been his strength, his safe place where he could be and seeing he like this was destroying his soul." My God, he thought, I have to live for he, I have to return to he."
The face turned slowly, if he keep looking at he, he will lose control.
"I have to find the rest of my team," he said.
"Yeah,"