"Here Without You"

A hundred days have made me older

Since the last time that I saw your pretty face

A thousand lies have made me colder

And I don't think I can look at this the same

But all the miles that separate

Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

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100 days. 100 days have gone by since that day she left for her mission. Halfway around the world. I still can't forgive myself for letting her go when I knew this my end everything. So may lies have been going around saying things will get better, but I can see past their eyes. I go to sleep everynight and dream of me seeing her again. Holding her in my arms, but I wake up and nothings there.

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I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight it's only you and me

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Being here, in our home, without her killed me. She was always in my mind, no matter where I was. I always dream of her and always feel that shes with me. The last dream I had seemed to be in the future. She and I were sitting on the couch, laughing and having a good time. A small blonde haired, green eyed two year old came running into the room, jumping in my arms. I held her tight and kissed her forehead lightly. I know it was just a dream, but I wish it was reality. We could have made a family. Could have.

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The miles just keep rollin'

As the people leave their way to say hello

I've heard this life is overrated

But I hope that it gets better as we go

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Traveling on my own missions made it harder. Meeting people with there fake 'hello's. I was always tolld growing up being a spy is overrated, but I knew it wasn't true. I knew things would get better as time went by. How wrong I was. Losing her was the worst things that has ever happened in my life. And living in this city of lies wasn't making my life any easier.

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Everything I know, and anywhere I go

It gets hard but it wont take away my love

And when the last one falls

When it's all said and done

It gets hard but it wont take away my love

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From everything I've ever been taught to everywhere I've even been, I get complicated and I forget what really matters. But I know nothing will truely take my love away from me. Up to the last point, when everything is set and done, it is hard to remeber that she was everything I lived for. Not even death will take her away from me. People say I should move on and find somebody else, but that would make me nore upset. I only want her. I only need her. Being away from her is already killing me softly. What I wouldn't give to see her soft smile once more. Her sparkling blue eyes. She was the only thing I needed. My Gallagher Girl. My sweet Cameron Ann Morgan. Gone without a trace.