This is the first of my poems that I have posted on ! Weird, considering poetry and horror are my specialties, and I don't have much of either…

Regardless, it's Vincent Valentine this time! And of course, with that comes angst. There is no such thing as happy Vincent.

No warnings. 100% rated K.

Background info- Vincent has left for the first time, before the events of Dirge of Cerberus.

I do not own FFVII or Vincent Valentine. (Sadly)

You ask me what makes me happy;

I suppose it's the normal things

Like life and friends and family

But that's not what you mean.

For the longest time I'd say nothing;

I was secluded for so long.

I felt I couldn't have something

To make me seem to belong.

But perhaps even in those days

There were still the stars in the sky

And the sun with its bright rays;

Yet I never wondered why.

Why must I be so lonely?

I had reasons; that I know.

To repent my sins, for my mistakes

I felt no joy could show.

Then one day they found me;

These people became my friends.

This group of renegade misfits

Trying to hold off the end.

To my shock I went with them;

It was only for revenge.

But through our travels we bonded.

Joy was just over the edge.

These people with their smiles

And laughter through the pain

Made me feel like I

Could share some of the same.

Yet still I fought it; I was

Filled with guilt and shame.

They were quite persuasive;

They seemed to be fond of me

Regardless of how hostile

I might pretend to be.

After the battle was over

For some reason I remained.

Why I stayed around them

I couldn't have explained.

I still felt I didn't deserve it;

Their friendship and their joy…

But they were quite convincing;

At first I was only annoyed.

Yet one day I started to give in;

To believe in what they said.

I started to deny

The dark thoughts in my head.

I spent time with these people;

I was one of their dearest friends.

I even shared some laughter

Feeling the message it sends.

Yet my demons were still within me.

That they could not deny.

To say that I'm not a danger

Would simply be a lie.

I stayed a while longer;

I didn't want it to end.

I couldn't be alone;

On them I shall always depend.

That closeness made me happy;

Of that I will not lie.

Until one day I realized;

One day they would die.

Yet I am cursed forever

With a life that never ends.

That was when I realized

I did not deserve these friends.

Because I know I'm greedy;

I can't give what I received…

These people made me happy;

And that's why I had to leave.