Title: Why?
Author: Drupadi
Warnings: Sap, Angst, death
Disclaimer: GW is not mine(thats what you think) I dont own them (damn its right i dont)
AN: Ok this one is also one I did a long time ago, I'd tell you the pairings but that would take away some of the mystery.
AN2: I think this was the very first fic I wrote. It's so depressing... I guess it's pretty good. I've read over it lots of times, but I've never really had someone else look over it for me. So comments and suggestions are appreciated.
Why?
Why...why did he leave me? I didn't even get the chance to tell him I loved him I should have we were together so many times I never got the chance to tell him. I tried, so many times I tried now... nothing, he's really gone...what am I going to do. My poor angel, I tried, I really tried to save you why did you have to try and fight we both knew you had no hand to hand combat skills. We knew you couldn't take a life instead you let them take your life why couldn't it have been me?
FLASHBACK
"Go you have the information we were sent for I'll cover you"
"No you know you don't fight come on."
"Then I will surrender now go"
END FLASHBACK
You made me leave you, you wouldn't let me stay and you surrendered I loved you, you didn't know that, I was afraid for you... I came back for you, but you were already gone. They had killed my love... my beautiful golden haired angel... they killed you... I took your body back... I got it back... but that's all it was, a body, you were gone, your beautiful soul, everything I loved about you was gone. I would have joined you but my soul is stained... tainted with unjustified bloodshed... you were so innocent you didn't belong fighting... I love you... I miss you... not any of my courage or skills or anything I learned from the Doctors and Cathy could bring you back, all I can do is keep you in my heart... please stay in my heart, I need you, I don't know how much longer I can live without you. They are all worried about me... they don't leave me alone in the kitchen or hanger... they think I'm going to try something stupid. I would never do something like they think on purpose, I know you would frown upon it, you would yell at me, like you did so long ago...
FLASHBACK
"Don't, please, put the gun down you don't need to do this we all want you to stay around."
"You want a nameless friend? You want someone who doesn't know who they are around you?"
"Stop, don't say that of course we want you around and you are someone you are Trowa Barton. Our friend, gundam pilot 04 protector of innocence, but most importantly you are our friend. So please... stay."
END FLASHBACK
I wish then I would have known you were going to leave, I would have told you then I loved you. Maybe you wouldn't have left. Now they really think I'm crazy; Wufei, Heero, and Duo; they think I've lost it. Its been a year since you left and every Sunday for that whole year I've come here to visit you... hoping your spirit would say something to me... maybe I am going crazy, I come out here every Sunday and talk to a tombstone. I wish it said something else but I have it memorized now, I could recite it unconsciously if I had to. I see it in my dreams... well... now that your gone they are more like nightmares, every night I see the same cold, gray slab reading
Quatre Rabera Winner
Pilot
Friend
Loved One
Please wait for the rest of us.
Owari ::sniff sniff:: even I couldn't deal with how depressing some of this was.