Hold Me Tight
Okay, so I had an idea for this story and I just wanted to get it out there.
Disclaimer: I do not own The Twilight Saga props for those books goes to her. Lucky freaking dog for having that dream :/ I only own the story line and a couple of the characters. So… I don't want you to think I'm boring, so please read and REVIEW! Please read my other stories too.
xoxo,
Alana
Chapter One
Bella POV
This was not good. I thought as I threw the little blue box in the trash. The last thing in the world that I wanted to see was a plus sign. Plus signs meant positive, and positive meant pregnant and pregnant meant I was carrying a child inside me. His child, but how was that even possible. He was dead… wasn't he?
"Don't worry, love. I can't have children so we will be okay, and remember I love you." he had told me, so much for both. I was pregnant, and he didn't love me.I leaned over the toilet, and was sick again, just thinking of the memory made me sick. I stood up and rinsed my mouth again. I quickly brushed my teeth and looked into the mirror. Ugh! I looked horrible! I was pale, and my eyes looked clouded over. There was only one thing I could do, if I was pregnant that meant I could not stay here. I walked out into the hallway and into Charlie, on his way down stairs to leave for work.
"Oh hey Bell, I didn't know you were up yet. Are you okay? You look kind of pale." he said steadying himself.
"Yeah, I don't feel too good; I think I'm just going to stay home today." I said looking anywhere but his face
"Okay, well I got to get to work, I'll see you this afternoon." he said as he turned to go.
"Dad?" I asked
"Yeah, Bell?" he asked turning around
"You know I love you right?" I asked
"Yeah Bells, why does it sound like your trying to say goodbye?" he asked warily
"I don't know, I just wanted you to remember that, even when you can't see me, I will always be there." I said turning back to my bedroom.
"Okay… bye Bells, see you later, love ya kid." he said, walking back down the stairs. I went into my room and sat on my bed. What was I going to do now? I heard my phone beep on my night stand, 3 New Messages it read. One from mom and two from Angela. Every since Ed- he left me, Angela and I have become very close friends. Including her boyfriend Ben, this forgave me for going a little crazy. He went missing a week ago, and the police have no new leads, she has given up hope. We all have, that's only made us closer friends. She was now my new best friend, we tell each other everything. I clicked view, to see the message from my mother was just another FWD: I hate those! Every since she learned to text, all I got from her was FWDs, she hardly ever got just a message saying something like How are you doing? Or Oh Bella I miss you so much, and I'm sorry he left you. But no, all I received were FWD's. I exited off that one and went to the ones from Angela both were sent in the same minute. Bella! Please call me ASAP! The other message was I need to talk to you! I'm like freaking out, and you're the only one I can trust to talk to! Please call me! I quickly dialed her number. She answered on the second ring, like her phone was right beside her.
"Bella?" she asked
"Yes it's me, are you alright?" I said quickly
"I can't go to school today, I have to get away from here, and I can't stay in this town anymore! Everything reminds me of Ben. I even thought I saw him the other day, he appeared in my window but he looked different." she spoke. My mind was already racing, and jumping to conclusions.
"What did he look like Ang? I need every detail." I said
"Well… he didn't look like himself, he kind of looked like a ghost, his skin was white as snow, and his eyes weren't green anymore, they were more of a black. Um, and w-we kind of had sex. But I was thinking this was all a dream, because I have not heard of anything else on him, and he was hard, and moved quickly, but…" she stuttered
"But what?" I asked shocked, I knew where this was going.
She waited a few seconds before replying. "My period is five days late, I know this is all too soon, but I'm already throwing up, and having weird dreams," she said "What do you think, Bella?"
"Ang, I'm sorry, but I think you're pregnant," I said "But what you need to know is this won't be a normal pregnancy, if I'm right Ben really is alive, he's just changed"
"Changed? How? I'm so confused! How will this not be a normal pregnancy?" she asked, and I knew I wasn't going to be able to explain this over the phone, what if someone was listening in? I couldn't take that chance, even though the Cullens left me, I still feel like I owe them this.
"Ang, you cant stay here, get all the things you want, pack them all up and drive over to my house, we cant stay in Forks. Okay?" I asked
"Okay, I'll be over as quickly as I can." she said hanging up. I grabbed my old dusty suit case out from under my bed. I quickly unzipped it and ran to my closet, grabbed what clothes I had and tossed them into the suite case. I was almost done, when I heard a knock on the door below.
"Come in Ang! It's unlocked!" I yelled, and then quickly grabbed my toiletries bag from the bathroom. And ran down stairs. Angela stood by the door with a suit case at her feet. A wet tissue in her hand.
"I'm really going to miss this place. I left a note for my parents telling them I couldn't stay here when everything reminded me of Ben." she sniffled
"I know, I feel the same way. I am going to leave Charlie a note too." I said. She smiled a watery smile at me.
"Do you still have Ben's cell number?" I asked, we were now sitting in the Cullen's living room. After I left Charlie a note, we both drove over to their house, it was far enough away from town, and no one had went down there since they have left, I could tell this by how over grown their driveway was.
"Yes, why do you ask? He's gone." she stated, but she still held her phone out. I dialed the number and put it on speaker phone. Ring… Ring… Ring… Ring… Ring… C'mon, answer I thought.
"Hello?" a musical voice said
"Ben?" Angela gasped
"Ang?" he asked
"Oh yes Ben it's me! I miss you baby, are you alright?" she asked
"I've been better. Who's with you?" he asked
"I'm here with Bella." she said
"Hey, Ben! We need you to come to the Cullens house." I said
"Why?" he asked
"We have a few things to discuss, just come please?" I asked
"Okay." he said hanging up. While we waited, I wondered over to the grand piano. I slowly began playing some chords I remembered from when my mother went through the classical stage, where she wanted a piano and made me take lessons. I had whined enough to get out of them, but I still had learned how to play a few chords. I sighed and looked over the piano. I would have never left this piano here. Angela walked over and sat beside me on the piano bench.
"Do you play?" she asked me gesturing to the piano.
"No, but Edward did." I sighed, being here seemed to make saying and thinking his name easier.
"You really miss him don't you?" she said
"Is it that obvious?" I asked
"Well… kind of, but you're very easy to read, you show all of your emotions on your face. And in your eyes."
"Yeah, I've heard that a couple times before." I chuckled; I had heard it a lot actually.
"Why are we here Bella? Why did you make Ben come here? What does he have to do with it?" she asked
"I can't tell you just yet, we need to wait till Ben gets here so I can see if I'm right," I said just as Ben walked though the back door. "Speak of the devil… and he shall arrive." I laughed while Ang however didn't laugh or smile, she just stood up and walked over to him. She was a good ten inches shorter than him, but that didn't stop what she did next.
"I though you were dead! You will never put me through that again." she yelled, then slapped him in the face. But it was her hand that was hurt. He wasn't a human anymore, he was a vampire now.
"Ow," she screamed, clutching her hand to her chest "Your face is really hard!"
"I know Ang." he said chuckling, looking over to me. His face went expressionless when he saw the look on my face.
"Ben… you have to tell her." I said
"Tell her what?" he asked
"What you are…" I said
"What do you mean what I am? I'm human Bella, are you okay?" he asked adding a nervous laugh
"If you don't tell her, I will." I stated standing up crossing my arms across my chest. His eyes went wide at this. He sighed before pulling her to the white couch before sitting down beside her.
"Ang; I'm not what you think I am, I've changed." he said
"Changed how?" she said looking at him seriously. He looked to me for help. I moved to the chair beside the couch.
"Ben is a vampire." I stated
"A vampire? No that can't be, vampires don't exist. I mean how can you even be here right now, don't vampires only come out at night?" she asked
"Well I'm not that kind of vampire, those are all just myths. And I don't have to prey on humans." he said
"How do you now prey on humans? Don't you need blood to live?" she asked
"Technically yes, but animal blood works just fine too." he said
"Oh so you found out about animal blood? How did you get changed" I asked
"I was hiking one day, and I had got off the trail to see some more of the woods, than I was use to, and that is when she found me. Her hair was brilliant red, like a flame on fire. She told me that she was hungry, but I didn't get what she meant. Couldn't she just go to town and get a burger or something? I told her this, but that only made her angrier. She told me that she wasn't human, she was a hunter, a predator, and I smelled delicious. I tried my hardest to run, for Ang and my family, I told myself to stay alive. But she was fast, quicker than any human, and she caught up to me. I thought she was going to kill me, but she let me live. I woke up three days later, and I felt like I could see everything. I heard a heartbeat close to me, and I could smell the blood. It made my mouth water, so I drank. I had finished three bucks before I was finally full. I have been staying out of the eyes of the search and rescue teams. If they saw me, I had a feeling that it wouldn't be good. So I ran, and ran. I finally decided to come see Ang. I was only planning on talking to her, and then leaving town, but we kind of got carried away… and it sort of escalated." he said, smiling towards the end thinking of him and Angela I guess. I didn't think I've heard him talk that much since I met him.
"But what does this all have to do with Bella? How does she know about vampires?" she asked
"I've known all about vampires since I've moved to Forks. I was dating one." I said
"What? You mean Edward was a vampire?" she asked
"Is; he still is a vampire, even though he left me." I looked down sadly
"What about the rest of them?" she asked again
"They were all vampires, changed by Carlisle." I said, the name burning in my mouth.
"Wow…" she said trailing off. A new thought occurred to me then.
"Ang, I think you need to tell Ben what you told me this morning." I said she looked confused, and then she remembered.
"Ben, my period is five days late." she sighed
"What? You're pregnant? How can that be? I'm dead aren't I?" he said looking over to me
"I would have thought so, but I'm pregnant too… Edward didn't think we could have children, so he broke his carefully thought rules on my eighteenth birthday…," I said trailing off. "But I don't think this is going to be a normal pregnancy either, I mean look how much we're already showing." I said as I lifted my shirt, exposing my baby bump… which wasn't much of a bump anymore.
"Whoa! You're big, Bella!" Ben stated
"Thanks Ben, you really know how to make a girl feel special." I muttered
"I didn't mean it like that, you know I didn't." he said
"Whatever, anyway, Angela and I obviously cannot stay in Forks, so we thought we might stay here till our babies were born. Maybe longer, I mean, they don't live here anymore and it's far enough away from town for anybody to notice us living here, but I think to get our parents to stop from searching for us, we're going to have to fake our deaths." I said tearing up at the idea
"Yeah, but how do we do that, and not have any bodies?" she asked
"Eaten by a wild animal?" Ben suggested. Gaw! I thought you were suppose to get smarter when you became a vampire… things were not looking up for him.
"I was thinking car crash, like Ben could take the car somewhere away from here, and like drive it in a ditch or into a tree or something and set it on fire or something so our bodies would burn?" I suggested
"Yeah, but first we need to like, empty our bank accounts and savings, so we can have some money. How about we take my car and go to Port Angeles and empty them there, get new cells and clothes, cause I'm thinking we're going to get big!" she said, as I nodded, standing up.
"Maybe it would be better if he took both of our cars and wrecked them in different places, because if it's just my truck, your parents might still keep looking for you." I said
"Yeah, but how would we get around?" she asked
"I think I know." I said walking towards the garage, gesturing for them to follow. I opened the door to the garage to see all of their cars except Rosalie's BMW were still there. Emmett's Jeep, Carlisle's Mercedes, and Edwards Volvo. I walked over to a drawer where they kept all of their keys in and handed them out. I took the Volvo, Angela took the Mercedes and I gave Ben the keys to the Jeep. He looked at me surprised. I just shrugged it off. Angela and I left in the Mercedes heading to Port Angeles while Ben one by one took our cars to go wreck them. On our way there Angela thought it would be best if we didn't keep our same last names. I agreed as we though of different names for ourselves. We finally decided that Angela would now be Angela Jane Riley, and I was Bella Natalie Masen. Angela didn't know the story to the last name, but I did. We stopped at an AT&T story and got three iPhones, Angela got a pink one, I got a blue one, and she got Ben a black one. Then we headed over to the local boutique and got some stretchy yoga pants, and some big tee shirts. We stopped at Arbys before we left town and grabbed a bite to eat. Then we headed home, to where Ben was waiting. We decided to take different rooms to sleep in. I chose his and she took Alice's. I cried myself to sleep, but then slept soundlessly on his sofa, maybe it was because I felt so close to him here. I got up around nine, and walked into his bathroom. I took off all my clothes and stepped in front of his mirror examining myself. I was bigger… much bigger, I looked at least four months pregnant now. I didn't want to look at myself anymore, so I hopped into his big shower, and concentrated on relaxing. How was I supposed to raise a child? I'm only eighteen! Let alone if this child is going to be at least half vampire. I couldn't do it as a human… I needed to be changed. After my warm shower, I went back into his room and changed into some more comfortable clothes, I dug though his closet, and found a Beatles shirt hidden in the back, behind some boxes… hiding it from Alice I guessed. I pulled that over my head and put on some black yoga pants. I walked down stairs after pulling my hair up into a high pony tail. I saw Angela and Ben sitting on the couch close together; I hoped I didn't interrupt something. They both looked up as I walked into the room.
"I hope I didn't interrupt anything." I said as I started to walk out of the room, and into the kitchen to give them some privacy.
"No Bella wait! Look!" she said running up to me. Holding out her right hand
"Oh my gosh!" I said grabbing her hand to see the ring on it! I jumped up and down with her! I don't know what came over me."He proposed!" she giggled
"I'm so happy for you guys!" I said as I quit jumping. Why was I jumping? Darn hormones. I grabbed a couple sandwiches and headed back up to his room. I sat in the middle of his bed, he had gotten, and I was beginning to think that he was planning on breaking his rules. I started eating on one of the sandwiches. I could feel some emotion building inside me; I hope no one was near when it came out. I turned on the CD player and started listening to the song that was playing. I guess it was the last song Edward was listening to before he left. I burst out in tears when I figured out what it was Clair De Lune. Our song. We both loved it. I was crying so hard I could feel myself shaking. So I turned off the CD player and decided to try to watch some TV to get my mind off of it. I flipped to the local news channel to see that they were doing a breaking news report about two Forks High School Seniors killed in a car crash.
"Ben! Angela! Come quick!" I yelled. They were up here in a flash so I guess he carried her up.
"What's wrong Bella? Are you okay?" she said
"I'm fine, but watch." I said as I pointed to the TV turning it up some.
"We are live on the scene where we believe our town has lost two of our most beloved students. Isabella Marie Swan and Angela Lucy Webber's cars were found wrecked just outside of town, both were said to have driven off the road and into a ravine where their vehicles have caught on fire. Isabella or Bella as she liked to be called, and Angela were some of our two best students at Forks High School. Bella the daughter of police chief Swan was said to have been in a deep depression. Angela Webber has also just recently lost her boyfriend Ben Cheney, as the police commissioner has called off the search for him when he went missing one day. Family and Friends are mourning their loved ones and ask for you to please give them their privacy. Back to you Julie…" I clicked the TV off; I didn't want to hear anymore. I felt myself start crying, Charlie was all alone now. He had no one to mourn with. He has no one… I felt sick, sick to my core. I need to see him! I can't let him be alone; he needs to see that I'm not dead, just running away. I stood up and headed towards the door.
"Where are you going?" Ang asked
"To Charlie's he needs to know I'm not dead. He has no one!" I said
"Oh no your not!" Ben said grabbing me from behind and sitting me back on the middle of the bed. Angela sat down beside me, wrapping her tiny arms around me.
"I'm sorry Bella, but you cant go see him, it would only make it worse, him seeing you, thinking your alive, telling everyone, then loosing his job because they think he is crazy and making up some stupid delusions seeing you." she sighed
"But… but… he has… n-no one now." I said
"I know you just have to let him go though." she said giving me a squeeze. I just cried into her hair, hugging her back. Stupid hormones.
"Bell, we will make it through this. I promise." she whispered.
"Ben, do you think you will be able to change me when I have the baby? " I asked
"Sure Bella, it wont be any trouble." he said. For only being a couple weeks old, he had very good self control. The next few days were the same, we didn't get any bigger, but we didn't get any smaller either. I woke up the next morning, tired… and weak feeling. I walked down stairs and sat on the couch. I guess Angela wasn't up yet, and Ben was probably out hunting. I got up and walked into the kitchen. I made myself a sandwich. I ate it quickly with some Doritos. Finally feeling full I walked back into the living room, and over to the piano. I had a tune in my head I just needed to get out. As soon as I got the tune out, I walked up to Edwards's room, and got a couple blank music compositions sheets. I wrote all the notes down then started thinking about some words to put with it. I finally came up with a few of the words.
I'm so tired of being here,
Suppressed by all my childish fears,
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave,
Cause your presence still lingers here,
And it won't leave me alone,
Theses wounds won't seem to heal,
This pain is just too real,
There's just too much that time cannot erase.
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears,
And I held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have, all of me.
By the time I got the second stanza done I was singing it. It just felt right. I didn't notice Angela and Ben standing by the stairs listening till I heard their clapping. I stood up embarrassed.
"Umm… I don't know how much of that you heard." I said looking down. Angela ran over, and gave me a hug.
"Bella that was amazing! Did you write all that yourself?" she asked me
"Uh… yeah… it just came to me." I said stepping off the platform and heading towards the kitchen. I was already hungry again. I was kind of craving a grilled cheese. After I cooked a couple grilled cheese one for both Angela and myself. I stood up and stretched! I felt a sharp pain in my chest that made me double over. It was excruciating, I've never felt a pain like this. I couldn't breathe; it felt like something was ripping through my ribs, breaking them all off, one by one.
"I think I'm having the baby…" I choked out, before slowly slipping towards the floor.
"Ben!" I heard Angela scream. Then everything went dark.
So… I hope you liked it… I had an idea for this story and just had to get it out. Please REVIEW, and read my other stories! I would like at least 10 or 15 reviews, then I will update…please please please please please pleeeeeeeaaaaaaasssssseeeee REVIEW I have a good feeling about this story! :)
xoxo,
Alana