This isn't suppose to happen. Everybody was suppose to have a happy ending right? Well, that's what I believed. Maybe I'm just a sucker, or maybe just a believer who was a loser. Oh well, I don't care. Why should I? It's not like I'm ever gonna get some girl or THE girl to fall for me. Damon Salvatore. I know that Stefan left to save my life and now he's back to get revenge on klaus. I fin it stupid. I'm the older brother. I'm the one who's suppose to take care of my younger brother. Right? Right, sure. Me, Damon. Take care of Stefan?
He would totally suspect something was up. Cuz me being the enternal stud and all. Would not care. But that was the old me. Who didn't met Elena before all this shit went down. All I want is my brother. Well, also Elena but that's a different thing.
Elena. Wow. Even as I lay here staring at the ceiling. I can her her voice, her warmth. I miss her. Maybe, I should call her? No. What would I say? I miss you? She of all people would say that I miss you too, or Damon, don't go there. All i wish that she would of chose me over not so saint stefan now. I want to hug her, kiss her. Oh how I would smuther her with soft passionate kisses. I want to make live to her in every way possible for a human. I love her. I love her more than I did with voldermort. The person who shall not be named. That bitch. Anyways, I want to be with her. Right now all I can do is picture it me and her looking up at the stars at night laughing. Maybe holding hands. Laying on the front of my car. Smiling and enjoying the time we had with each other but that will never happen since I quote "it was always Stefan; it will always be Stefan."
I love her and I can't have her. Like always. It's always my god damn brother. First my father, than voldermort, and now Elena. What's next a dog that I would adopt and it just runs to him? Yeah, that will probably happen. Whatever. Maybe I shouldn't even help him anymore. Maybe, I should snap like what I always do when I'm upset and tell him off. God, and he blames me for everything. Maybe he's the one causing me the pain not the other way around. But yeah, whatever. For now im going to lay here and tune out the world and think about my beautiful Elena.