"Biscoe," the guard said. "You have a visitor,"
Who, I thought, Would want to see me?
I was still in jail. Marshall was going to bail me out, but he wasted all his money on his girlfriend Peyton.
I walked up to the visiting area and there was Caitlin's sister-Cassandra?-all dressed in black.
"My sister wanted you to see this," she said quietly. She handed me a box that said TO ROGERSON BISCOE on the front.
I went back to my cell and opened the box. The first thing I saw was a manila envelope. I took out the contents to see that it was pictures Caitlin had taken during her photography class. First was her mom, drinking a glass of wine and laughing. Next was Rina, smiling with her ex-boyfriend, Bill. She took pictures of everything she thought was happy including the one picture she took of me when I was smiling.
There was another manila envelope. The pictures were sad, her mother crying as she watched Lamont Whipper Show, her with Matt, waiting on the curb right before I…And then there was her face. I knew there was going to be a self-portrait, but I had hoped it was her beautiful face, but instead it was the one I had created. She was looking at something else in the room while I'm guessing her mother took the picture. Her face was bruised, half of it purple, some blue-black, the rest pale, like she was dying.
At the bottom of the box was a note, in Caitlin's handwriting.
June 4th, The hospital
You know every answer to every question
I just have one more piece of trivia
Why didn't you let me die?
Why did you insist I get up?
You could have got in you car, and no one would've known
I wasn't begging you to stop so I could live
I wanted you to stop and let me die
Would that have been so hard?
And then it hit. I made her want to die. But I couldn't have let her die, I still loved her, even if it didn't seem like it. I dropped the note and I noticed there was writing on the back. In handwriting I didn't recognize, I'm guessing it was Cass's
Caitlin
1984-2000
The doctors did what they could,
But it wasn't enough
Rogerson, we thought you should know
What you had done to
Our Caitlin
And our family