OKAY Hi, I totally disappeared off the face of the planet and then i come back and write a story (very short, i apologize) about a couple I used to never ship. I have an explanation. If you care...its at the bottom but until then read this little chapter about samtana. c:

Quietly I leaned my head up and looked down at his peaceful face. My husband, the love of my life, the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

Sam Evans.

I smiled softly and laid my chin down on his chest while watching his face.

I thank god every day that I have him and he's chosen to stay through all of my bullshit. I hurt him all the time with my explosive attitude and how often I get stand offish, and even though I always apologize I know it still hurts him. I hate how often I hurt him and the guilt breaks my heart but I've promised to get better for him, I want him happy and I will do anything to keep him happy.

My thoughts were cut off when he started moving slightly and his cute boyish smile appeared on his face.

"San?"

I bit my lip and leaned up slightly. "Yeah?"

Peeking open an eye, he just looked at me. "You're thinking entirely too loud this early in the morning."

He grinned as I laughed and hid my face in his neck before I mumbled. "Sorry, I have a lot on my mind."

Slowly he started running his hand up and down my bare back and leaned his head on mine. "Like?"

Frowning slightly I leaned away from his neck and laid my cheek on his bare shoulder. "How thankful I am that you still want to be with me…"

His hand slowed before resting on the small of my back and I squeezed my eyes shut at the sigh that escaped his lips. "San…"

I leaned up and straddled him before looking down at his sad face. "No, Sam listen please?"

He frowned slightly and nodded.

I nodded and took a deep breath. "I love you. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone else. I'm horrible at explaining my feelings but it all boils down to that. I can't imagine myself being with anyone else now and I would never want to be with anyone else." Leaning forward slowly I cupped his face and let myself get lost in his eyes. "I hurt you…all the time. I treat you like shit and I never let you in anymore, I get emotional over small things and I treat you like a thing rather than my amazing husband. I don't mean to do it and I hate to do it but I never realize I'm doing it. I know it's hard to believe but it's the truth. I love you so much and the thought of hurting you intentionally makes me get emotional because I would never do it."

He quietly watched me before reaching up to lay a hand over mind on his cheek. "Why do you do it so often then?"

I frowned and sniffed softly before shaking my head. "I don't mean to. I know that's hard to believe but it's the truth. I know I don't show how much I love you and I'm so sorry…"

He reached up and quietly wiped away the tears that had just started to fall before sitting up and pulling me into a tight hug. "We both need to work on ourselves San. We just need to work together."

I sniffed and held him tight. "So you're not leaving me?"

He laughed and nuzzled the top of my head. "I would never, I love you entirely too much for that."

Slowly grinning I kissed the side of his neck before pulling away. "Want to go wake Anna up and have a family day?"

He nodded and rolled us over before leaning down and kissing my stomach. "That sounds amazing, we can go shopping for the other little one in your belly too."

I nodded and bit my lip. "That does sound amazing."

A/n: Hello, so I used to be pretty active until I randomly dropped off the face of the planet and my entire life ended up being about RP and instagram, I apologize for neglecting this account and I will eventually update everything (no idea when, so I'm not giving a date) but it will be done. And about the whole samtana thing, well I rp as Santana and I'm married to a Sam so I just made our roleplay into a story and this is the result.