Title: It's Still Not Enough
Author: K Gilmore
Summary: Rated for mentions of an eating disorder. If this topic bothers you please do not read any further
Fat. Large. Heavy. Obese.
Call it what you will. That's all I see when I look in the mirror. My shirts expose my huge stomach… how did I ever think I look good in something like that? My fat just hangs out for everyone to see.
Don't even get my started on my thighs. Just…ew.
No one is ever going to love me.
No one is ever going to stay with me. This is exactly why Spinner left. He just felt all my fat and ran to Manny. She's perfect. Slutty, but she has a great body. She doesn't have a fat stomach. Or huge thighs. Or flabby arms.
I tried exercising… I still do. I run 3 miles a day and do 500 sit-ups every night. It's not enough! It's not doing any good. Because I still have an intense amount of fat EVERYWHERE.
I thought I was fine but then….
FLASHBACK
"Thanks Spin," I said, as he set the plate of food down in front of me. I was starving. All that cheering at the game had given me quite the appetite.
"That's a lot of food, Paige. Maybe you shouldn't eat all of it. You're starting to get a bit of a belly." He started laughing.
I smiled. But I didn't eat the burger. I pushed it around the plate as my friends and I chatted. No one noticed…
END FLASHBACK
That was a month and still nothing. I still had the flab. I was, however, Spinner-less. That's why. It was the fat.
I was trying… trying to lose the weight.
This was the moment of truth.
I stepped on the scale. 95 pounds. Still too much…
Fat. Ugly. Bitch.
That's all I am.