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Mainly Sakura's silent sentiments for Kakashi….
A KakaSaku fic…I'm planning to have sequel on this…What do you think huh?
Hope you'll like this..
"The Silence of the Heart"
In the dimmed room you came
With one lighted candle in your hand
I asked "What are you doing in here?"
You're eyes just blinked at me then you shrugged
I sighed. There you are again with those enigmatic shove
You were always in your own world…nothing but silence
I looked up above the gray ceiling, thinking as seconds drop
You caught my attention then you stood up and left
I sighed again. Those act made the scratches sting
I gritted my teeth, wanting to curse those deep pains
Breathe in. Breathe out. Feeling more relieved
I wiped my sweaty face and stared at the candle you gave me
I slowly traced the mishap scratches. Ouch. It hurts.
Staring at the red-brimmed skin, tears formed in my eyes
Again the memories of the sudden event flashbacked instantly
One hour and forty minutes ago. Under the pouring heavy rain
Drip. Drip. You turned your back from me, with your head down
You stood there in front of me, and all I can do is to watch your image of leaving
Clenching my fists I realized, water droplets are beginning to fall
I just stared at your vivid image. I'm wet all over but the feeling of numbness overtook me
You started to walk. One… Two… Three… "Don't"
Only one word was uttered by my supple pink lips
Shockingly, you stopped but still with you're with your wide back at me
"What is it?" you asked in a cold monotone voice
I grabbed all the strength I can get but then I failed
Bowing my head down, tears started to overflow from my eyes
"I-I… just want to tell you something…" I choke from hiccupping
I was waiting for your voice but then again you sighed irritatingly
Drip. Drip. Those falling rain makes me want to surrender the fight
'I couldn't stand this anymore…' I thought as I saw my feet are slowly sinking in the grayish mud
Knowing from the start that this plan won't work the way I wanted it to be
Discouraged from the thought, I finally sighed and dropped my hands beside the seams of my pants.
Nervousness attacked me before I could actually tell you those things
"It's nothing." I uttered. Plain and simple. I give up.
Slowly I fall on my knees but stopped my tears from flowing
I don't want to see you walking away from me so I just closed my eyes
Suddenly I heard a squishing sound. "Get up. Don't act like a child."
I fluttered my eyelids open and saw you. You were angry.
I didn't understand why but then I easily complied from your command
Expecting that you would give me some tender and concern remarks
Again, you turned you back away from me and started to walk
"Wait!... Stop!..." I shouted my heart out… but you won't listen
Indulging my pride, I ran… reaching out to you
Unnoticed of the stone that had been covered by the mud, I tripped
I fell on my knees… dived into those grayish black puddle of mud
Ouch. That pale skin is crying out with pain. Shit. Why?
Searching for your trace… you blankly stared at my cursing position
You walk towards me and without hesitation; you carried me in your strong arms
And so I was here in the dimmed room
With only one lighted candle that supplies me a reason to wait
I sat here beside this wooden windowsill under the night sky
With my up drawn knees, I hugged them tight and sobbed for a while
Such fate had been given to me. Unrequited love is devastating
Those simple three words, I couldn't even utter out from my lips
But since, knowing that it will just be taken aback, there's no use
But then again, I couldn't withstand my sealed emotions inside my soul
You never gave me the chance to let out this unending beating of my heart
Why? What? Afraid? Or is it because you just don't want me to a part of your life?
Been battling these things inside my heart for four years
Maybe… just maybe this is seemingly a sign… that I should stop…--
Startled form the sound of the doorknob, you came in with white fluffy towels in your hands
You gazed towards me and looked into my swollen and jaded eyes
I looked away, not wanting you to know that I shed tears for you
Locking my attention in those endless horizon of velvety night sky
You slowly reached for me and carefully wrapped me with those comfortable towels
"Here. Dry yourself. You could catch flu." Stunned from the instant change of your voice
You picked the med kit beside the bed and searched for the ointment and white bandages
Tenderly you touched my knee and slowly applied the healing aid on my pained skin
Million tons of needles pricked the scratches; I could awfully slap you for it
I frowned. Those physical pain is more bearable that torturing me with your silent treatment
Somehow I wish in the back of my mind… that I can have some assurance
Though the disclosure of such truth will cause me again more pain
In a matter of hours, the healing had finally ended
And the pain on my knees subsided and so numbness faded away
I fixed myself up and closed my eyes… don't know why… maybe I'm tired
Don't care about your entity; it will just confuse me more if I'll look at you
"Don't sleep yet" You said as you nudged and shoved me in the shoulder
"What?... Why?" I asked with no emotions at all. Still my eyes closed
"I want you to open your eyes and sit." You commanded me again like as if I'm your pet
I sat and rest my head on the wall avoiding your intense gaze at me
"Please Sakura… Look at me in the eyes…" You pleaded… for the first time
Moved from the sadness of your voice… 'What happened?' I thought
I bowed my head and cautiously looked at you… suddenly you cried
I panicked from seeing you shed a million of tears… I touched your face and wipe that symbolic pain
"Don't worry… I'm here… Tell me what's wrong…" I said to you as I look into your misty brown eyes
You bowed your head then said, "I'm sorry… so sorry for everything…"
Your tears continuously slid out form your eyes… one by one dropped on the soft cushion of the bed
It all came up into an understanding in just those fleeting moments
Yes you did. You ask for forgiveness that I thought it wasn't in your system
Believed from the conclusion that you only care about yourself
And I guess I was wrong…completely wrong since the beginning
"Sakura… I just want you to know that I…" I instantly stopped everything
Threw my arms wide open and hugged you tight… "I know..." I whispered
And from there I know and you also understand every second of the moment that we had
That words doesn't need to be uttered out to feel what's really inside our hearts
kaeci090804
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Ja ne!
This is kaeci signing off…
