Sadly Beautiful

This is my first proper attempt at a story, I've tried writing a couple before but they never really developed but I'm hoping this time, it'll work out better and turn into a proper story. Hope you enjoy reading this, please review, follow, etc. Enjoy. The next chapter's will be longer, I just wanted a shorter chapter to open up the story a bit. Thanks for reading.

It's not exactly a mount but it's what I thought you'd enjoy the most, forgive me for my awkwardness, this is for you Jaz because you mean so much to me, I'll continue to write these as long as you enjoy them and will be always be here for you. Enjoy.

Chapter One - Only the beginning

I hated being the center of attention, everyone staring at me and whispering quietly, it was always worst at my old school in the canteen, now here. I hated it. It was my first day of my new high school in the shitty, rainy town that in a moment of stupidity, I had agreed to come to, to please my Renee.

I turned to see a girl walking towards me surrounded by a gaggle of giggling girls. I was nervous and my palms were sweating furiously but I couldn't let look nervous, I didn't want to alienate myself on the first day. They approached slowly, seeming to lose confidence the closer they came to me.

The 'leader' of the group stepped forward and shyly introduced herself as "Jessica" before hesitantly inviting me to join them. Relieved at being accepted so quickly, I eagerly accepted and followed sheepishly to a table that I could only assume was their 'designated' table and slowly sat down with them and they all introduced themselves.

The moment I had sat down they all turned to me and stares, like I was an animal in the zoo and placed conveniently for their enjoyment. I met the stares and hesitantly began to introduce myself and tell them my story about leaving my mother and her boyfriend so they could be happy... They stared at me blankly as if someone else's happiness had never entered their minds, except for one girl sitting at the corner of the table, she introduced herself as "Angela" when she saw me looking.

I knew I would like this girl, just from the brief conversation I'd had with her. I was distracted by Jessica and Mike talking excitedly about a trip to the a local beach he was organizing. From this brief conversation I knew that Jessica 'liked' Mike and he was blissfully unaware, I smiled to myself at his awkwardness.

Mike turned to me and nervously asked "I know you're new and probably want some time to settle in and everything, but would you want to come to the beach with us?"

I saw Jessica basically seething with anger beside him and I realised I'd have to be diplomatic. "Yeah sure it sounds like fun, I don't want to get in the way of you and Jess though, I can see there's something there." I was quite impressed by my answer, I'd never had much practice with relationships at my old school and am seriously unprepared for a small town.

Her expression changed in an instant and I knew she was silently thanking me, I discreetly made eye contact and winked. She chuckled quietly and I knew we'd be friends, albeit not close ones. Everyone became animated, talking about the trip and excited that I'd be coming, I wasn't sure why it's not like I'm involved much and they barely know me but I was content to let them be excited.

I was staring absent mindedly at the apple I was holding in my hand, wondering why a sense of unease washed through me, followed instantly by an aura of calm. I looked up and was instantly stunned by the five people who had gracefully walked, closer to floating than walked, into the room.

The first one of them to sit down was massive, easily the biggest of the five, he was pure muscle and I could see them bulging even from across the room. The second had her arm wrapped around his waist and looked like Aphrodite reincarnated, she was so beautiful that I couldn't think of an apt enough word to describe her. The two males sat down next, the larger of the two sat down first, his ruffled, untidy bronze hair fell unevenly across his forehead, emphasising his beautiful eyes with the shadows they cast. The last male sat down, his face was etched with pain, his eyes like pools of anguish. I was seeing this from afar, I could only imagine the suffering I'd see in his face if I got closer.

The common traits they shared was the unnatural grace, the perfect features and the confidence that was oozing out of them. I was about to turn and ask Jessica who they were when I realized I'd missed one. I scanned the room looking for her, I quickly spotted her standing apart from her family and staring intently in this direction. I got my first proper look at her and was captivated. The short girl was pixie-like, thin in the extreme. Her hair was a deep black, cropped short and pointing in every direction. I stared in awe of her extreme beauty, despite the blonde goddess and the other three images of perfection sitting at the table near her, she was the most attractive by far.

I found myself mentally tracing her body, starting with her cute 'bed hair' look, moving to her slender neck, imagining my fingers running softly down until I reached her collar bone. I visualized myself planting soft kisses across it, my hands running down her soft chest, reaching for her, needing her... Why am I thinking these thoughts?! I've never thought things like this for anyone, let alone another girl!

Angela snapped me out of my thoughts and curiously asked, "Why is Alice Cullen staring at you?"

I looked up confused, "Who are the Cullens?"

She laughed lightly, "The five images of perfection who just walked in, and one of them is staring at you!" The only thing I found myself thinking was, Alice... My Alice. I silenced this thought instantly, my imagination was running wild today and I couldn't find myself thinking things like this, it would only end up in rejection, humiliation and an intense agony in the pit of my stomach that I was very familiar with.

"I really don't know, maybe I did something?" I replied anxiously. Alice chose this moment to make eye contact with me and grinned wildly, before winking and taking her seat.

The rest of lunch passed quickly, I lost track of the conversation and found myself nodding along and throwing 'mmhms' in whenever a response was needed from me. I was subtly sneaking glances at the table the Cullen's were occupying, trying to get more glimpses of Alice. If I kept this up then by the time I'd graduated I'd be able to watch anyone I wanted without attracting any attention.

By the time lunch ended I could think of nothing else but petite little Alice, my Alice. I mentally scolded myself for thinking that again, telling myself that it would be the last time that I thought that. I made my way slowly to my lesson, Mike standing faithfully beside me and Jessica stomping off in the distance.

I sighed internally, I'm going to have to set Mike straight so that Jessica would know that I didn't like him that way. Of course she'd presume that there's someone else, not once thinking Alice. Mike directed me to the biology room and looked annoyed that he couldn't sit next to me, and grudgingly taking his seat. The teacher gestured for me to go to him, he stood me in front of the class and made me introduce myself.

I blushed furiously and tried to walk as quickly as I could towards the only avalible seat, I tripped over my feet and dropped my books. A small figure lent down next to me and started to pick my books up, I was surprised and thanked her quickly before taking my seat next to her. I sat there for a minute before I realised I was sitting next to Alice and sneaked a quick look at her. She was sitting as far away from me as possible, practically shrinking away from me. Her hands were clenched into fists and she looked agitated. Her brilliant golden eyes were looking around frantically before they setteled on mine.

I smiled shyly trying to appear as friendly, and desireable, as possible. Her eyes widened and she stood up quickly and practically ran as fast as she could out of the room.

Rejection washed through me, I tried to gather my thoughts and spent the rest of the lesson with my head in hands, close to crying. I know it's ridiculous, I've never said a word to her but she has this much power over me...

Biology ended and before I even had a chance to move, Mike was balanced on the end of my table. "So... I think Alice likes you" he joked.

I stared icly at him, "Mike, I'm not in the mood. Why don't you go and find Jessica?" Before I could hear his reply, I quickly walked past him and out of the door. I walked quickly, head low, to the parking lot and climbed in the truck that Charlie had brought me. In my tense state the roar from the engine made me jump and I took a minute to calm down before I drived, worried about my safety.

I drove out of the parking lot, eager to get as far away as I could from the school. Before I had a chance to get off of the campus, I saw someone standing on the side of the road, trying to get my attention.

I squinted and made out the figure of Jake, a friend on mine from when I used to come to visit Charlie. I slowed down and stopped at the side of the road, he opened the door and climbed in.

"I thought I recognised this old thing, working alright haha?"

"It's brilliant, thanks for selling it to Charlie Jake! I'll drop you off on the way home, I'm not in a great mood so if you don't mind I'd rather spend some time alone and no, I don't want to talk about it."

We drove in silence and I dropped him off, waving goodbye. I sped home and quickly shut the door. I sighed, alone at last, before I lay down on the kitchen floor and cried at the images of Alice floating around my head.