Miss World

My name is Lily Evans. My muggle best friend from L.A. told me to start a diary so he can make fun of me when I get back next summer. Why the hell not right? It'll give us something to do when we get bored. If you are reading this, I was probably too shit-faced to remember about it and by all means read at my expense. If you're confused right now, that's okay. Hell I don't even know what's going on half the time and it's my life. Well, I'm sixteen years old and I'm a witch. Yeah, yeah if that confuses you then you're a muggle. Just pass this off as a stupid stoner's fantasy and you'll be all right. As I was saying I am a witch, I go to Hogwarts School of witchcraft and wizardry. It's a boarding school somewhere in Scotland. I spend my summers in California with my mother and her bastard husband. I spend my holiday breaks in London with my father and his stupid trophy wife. My older sister is long gone, somewhere in the UK. But whatever my family life is a whole other fucked up story that I'll put on paper later. I'm in my sixth year; I was made a prefect last year, which is kind of like a model student. How? I have no fucking clue. Most of the time I'm here I'm too spun out to realize what's going on. I don't have many friends here. Everyone here seems all too fake and cheery. With the exception of the Slytherins whom I get along with despite my bloodline. Most of the time I spend writing music and learning how to play an instrument of some sorts. I'm in Gryffindor, all of my housemates hate me and the feeling is mutual with the exception of Remus Lupin, he and I got to know each other enough to become acquaintances during our patrolling because he is the other prefect for my house. He's a Marauder though. Those assholes have made my life here a living hell ever since day one. They don't know me though; I'd like to keep it that way. They don't know that during summer I spend my time practicing illegal spells in Los Angeles with Erick because the Legal magic age in America is 12. They don't know that I've experimented with almost every drug there is and that I can hold my liquor better than most guys, strictly through experience. They don't know the things I've done or anything out of the ordinary stereotype that they have me under. Erick is my only friend that I would die for. Truly the boy is like my brother. Even though he is a muggle he still is interested in Magic. He understands me and I understand him. If he wasn't gay I'm sure we'd be, married already. Hahah well I must be off, breakfast is going to end soon and I need a hit before I head of to class. Until later.

Lily

Lily opened the scarlet coverings around her bed and noticed her dorm mates frantically caking on make up and doing their hair.

'Looks like they missed breakfast too' she thought laughing at the way they resembled rabid dogs.

She took her little red book to the end of her bed where her trunk sat. Mumbling a few spells she opened her trunk tossed it in on top of her clothes and took out a tiny bottle filled with white powder. Straitening up she noticed one of her dorm mates staring at her.

"What was that? Your diary?" Pricilla asked smirking. The self-tanned girl was rather pretty but her bottle blond hair and orange skin took away from that. Not that boys cared really, she had a perfect body and no mind. She was any teenage asshole's dream.

"None of your fucking business" Lily replied slamming her trunk shut and muttering a few locking spells she knew that they would never be able to break. She had learned her lesson to keep all of her belongings locked away when the marauders, with help from her dorm mates, had taken all of her things and permanently charmed them to the walls of the great hall. She used to have a weight problem when she was younger and to have all of her fat clothes and underclothes exposed to the school like that wasn't too fun.

Sighing she walked into the bathroom she slammed the door behind her and ran to the nearest sink.

Opening her fairy dust bottle she took the small scoop that was attached to the cap and brought it to her nose. Snorting the white powder she felt the familiar feeling of lightheadedness followed with a rush. Taking another snort she caped her bottle and let it hang around her neck. Shoving it in her top she looked in the mirror. Wiping her nose she checked her make-up. Black eye shadow, mascara and Chap Stick. Her porcelain skin was flawless and her emerald eyes sparkled from the contrast of the black makeup. Her hair was strait and down as usual. Her natural blood red hair glowed against her black bangs that were complimented by black streaks that framed her face.

She didn't know who did her hair, she had woken up one day over summer with her new hair, she remembered going through the process but she didn't know who did it. It saddened her because she really would have liked to thank them

Walking out she noticed that her dorm mates stopped talking all at once. She raised her eyebrow at them.

"Oh please, don't stop talking shite on my account" she said in a mock polite voice. Sweeping past them she glared and grabbed her book bag heading out of the door.

Bounding down the stairs she hummed the tune she had been working on last night. Her band in London was booking some gigs during her holiday break. They had a few shows over summer and now they were really getting into the groove of things. She was excited and couldn't wait for holiday break, even though she would have to stay with her father and his wife, she still thought it was worth it.

Walking down the corridor she followed the route to her charms class. She was a natural at charms. She loved it, she also loved potions but that was because she liked to learn about poisons.

Walking through the door, she took her usual seat near the back. The only reason she was ever acknowledged was because of her abilities. She took out her wand and some parchment laying it on her desk before situating herself so she could look out the window.

Slowly the class started to fill, the marauders bounded in being their loud obnoxious selves. James Potter had his arm around a blond Hufflepuff who looked like she had been told Christmas had come early. Sirius Black was flirting madly with a Ravenclaw girl with pigtails and practically had his hand up her skirt. Remus Lupin was laughing with one of her dorm mates who looked like she might pounce him right there. Peter Pettigrew was eating, as usual.

Suddenly Professor Flitwick had emerged from his office and nearly hurt himself standing on his pile of books. He announced their Lesson and lily scoffed. She had mastered that charm over summer. Taking her parchment she began to write down words that matched the tune in her head.

I'd like to be somebody else and not know where I've been

Id like to build myself a house out of plactecine ….

I've been driving in my car with my friend Mr. Soft

Mr. clean and Mr. Ben are living in my Loft….

Trying to think of something else she looked over her words, they made no sense.

'Whatever' she thought, she racked her brain for another verse when her ink bottle suddenly exploded all over her parchment and spraying her with a few drops of the black liquid. She heard laughing and looked over to see the Marauders and their whores laughing at her. Without thinking she took her wand and levitated all of the inkbottles in the class and summoned them over their heads out of their reach. Before they could comprehend what happened she exploded all of them. Letting the ink shower over the once laughing crowd.

Crumpling her parchment she threw it at a glaring Sirius black and flipped them off before grabbing her things and walking out of the classroom.

"Where did Miss Evans go?" Flitwick asked slightly startled when he realized his favorite student had disappeared.

"Oh my what happened to you?" He asked in a concerned voice when he noticed the angry students covered in ink.

Walking through the chilly fall weather, Lily took out a cigarette and lit it with her wand. Walking around the quidditch pitch she took long drags out of her cigarette as she blew them out into the rushing wind.

"Crap I still have an hour before my next class" she said out loud to herself. Sitting down in the grass she took another long drag. Closing her eyes she let herself fall back.

Dream:

Lily walked down the oh so familiar street in Westwood. Coming upon her stepfather's house, lily walked through the open front door. There sitting in the parlor was her mother. The brown haired woman was sipping from a glass cup full of ice and liquor. Lily observed the woman closely. There was no life behind those dull blue eyes. Suddenly a shriek broke the heavy silence of the room. It was followed by many more screams and Lily instantly recognized her sister's voice.

"Mum!" she shouted trying to get her mother's attention. The woman just kept on sipping.

"Mum Petunias in trouble! We have to go help her!" Lily practically screamed

"GET OUT OF HERE YOU LITTLE WENCH! This is all your fault. Everything is your fault! You ruin everything you little scumbag. Well your not going to ruin my life anymore. Go away. Die for all I care. You are not my child," the bony lady screamed at Lily.

Lily ran out of the room before the woman could touch her she ran through the dining room where she saw her father and his wife chatting happily over the morning news.

"DAD! Help petunia! Something's wrong with her come on!" lily yelled at the two. Her dad turned to her. His face instantly rearranging.

"Now lily don't go off making excuses to get attention. Its not very honorable and I will not let my daughter turn into that sort of person" he finished and turned back to the woman sitting beside him and started to fondle her.

Lily felt as though she was going to be sick. She heard another screech and she instantly shot through the door. Running to through the kitchen she saw something that made her stop and stare.

There she was …a fifteen-year-old girl losing her innocence to a 20-year-old man who she barely knew. Lily watched what had happened only last year. She hardly recognized the innocent girl when she saw her. The man was working to pleasure himself, using lily's body as a tool. As the man started to cum, lily ran to the next room. Disgust draping her features.

She was in anther room she recognized from when she was younger. Before the divorce. There the chubby little redhead sat coloring as usual. Trying to ignore the shouting that was attacking her. Lily covered her ears, the shouting was getting worse. She left through the pink door into a hallway. She heard another yell from petunia and she ran up the stairs. She stopped dead however when she saw her best friend lying on the stairs looking dead.

Erick was beaten up pretty badly; his golden tan skin was covered in bruises and dried blood. He peaked open one of his soft brown eyes.

"They'll never accept us Lily, they refuse to understand," he whispered.

"I know luv" she replied reaching out only to have him roll off of the staircase and disappear.

"Erick" she cried and the only response she received was another shriek from petunia.

Lily crept to her sister's door. It was left a crack open. She saw movement on the bed and she could tell her sister was writhing beneath the larger body above her. Lily was about to grab the door handle when it shot open revealing her stepfather in a rage filled glory. He kicked her but she felt no pain. Getting off the floor lily brought out her wand only to have it aimed at no one.

She ran to her sister who was left in her bloody pajamas.

"Im sorry Lily but I have to leave you. I can't stay" was all petunia said before vanishing.

Lily woke up with a gasp. She never could get rid of that stupid dream. She shuddered and took out another cigarette. Taking along drag lily shivered in remembrance of the dream. It wasn't so much a dream as a long list of the worst moment of her life.

Lily sighed and looked at her watch.

"Fuck" She said throwing her cigarette on the ground. Grabbing her bag she shot off toward the castle. She was going to be late for potions.

Taking her usual seat next to Severus Snape and Lucius Malfoy she caught her breath drooped her bag next to her desk. She had gotten along with the Slytherins ever since she snuck into a 7th year Slytherin Party and helped them get in too. Second year was one of her craziest years at Hogwarts. Ever since then the boys had been there for her when she needed them, they were like her stupid older brothers.

"Why are you so out of breath?" Lucius asked in his usual cocky sneer.

"Because… marauders … charms… ink explosion… quidditch pitch… cigarettes…" she said through breaths. Lucius looked at Severus, who was staring at Bellatrix Black's hair. Shaking his head at his two classmates he turned to look at Professor Slughorn, who had just walked in.

"Good Morning class, today we shall be learning to make…" Lucius droned him out while he scratched down the notes onto his parchment.

"pssst, do you have any of that potion left?" Lily asked Severus breaking his staring contest with the back of Bellatrix's head.

"Um… yeah" He said blushing at Lily's knowing look while he scrambled to bring out the small bottle of black liquid. He handed it to Lily and She swiftly downed it in one shot. He watched her closely. Her pupils widened and her skin slowly paled to a translucent pearl color. A wicked smile painted her lips as she gave him thumbs up.

He took out a small black book and marked something off. He took the small container out of her hand and put it back in his bag. He, Lily and Lucius were always making new things up. It was like Russian roulette, they never knew what it could do, but none of them cared. Most of the time they just ended up making various liquids with drug like affects. They had mastered the entire potions book for their year and were currently working on the seventh year advanced one. Lily even managed to make a new cure for a cough, which she always got due to her smoking habit.

Lily was in Heaven. The smooth lack liquid had a sweet taste that snaked down her throat. Her mind went fuzzy and she giggled a bit. She never experienced a high like this before. She liked it. All of her anger flew away and was replaced by a tranquil numb feeling. She was so engrossed in her own mind that she couldn't hear the instructions. She didn't even come back to reality until Lucius stepped on her foot causing her to turn to him with a questioning glance.

"Lily, we were put into partners, you're stuck with the wolf," He said before he strode of to Narcissa Black's cauldron, an unhappy look on his face. Narcissa in turn was glaring at her cauldron waiting for the blond wizard to join her.

"When will those two shut up and shag already?" She said mindlessly. She turned to ask Severus what the hell was going on when she noticed he was off with Bellatrix blushing while the blue-eyed witch asked him a question.

Shaking her head she grabbed her things and walked over to Remus's cauldron. Sitting in the stool she put her head into her hands and waited for the room to stop spinning.

"Ok maybe this potion isn't the best thing in the world," she mumbled to herself.

"Um …lily are you all right?" Remus asked concern lacing his words.

"Never better, what the are we supposed to be doing anyway?" She said rubbing her temples.

He pointed to the board. She squinted her eyes and read the instructions.

"Oh, ok. You can handle the mixing ill just cut the shite up," she said laying her head down.

"Lily why don't you just direct me and ill do the actual physical stuff, I don't trust you with a knife right at the moment." Remus said walking off to gather the ingredients.

"I'm perfectly fine," She mumbled to no one, she suddenly found her long pale fingers extremely interesting. Remus came back to find her watching her hand in wonderment while slowly moving it.

Remus nudged her but he got no response.

"Poor Moony got stuck with the brainless redhead," James said loudly from his cauldron next to theirs.

Lily turned her head slowly to face him. She stared at him for a moment; he looked slightly startled.

"You're doing that wrong Potter, if you add in the beetle eyes cut up like that you'd kill the drinker" she said slowly. He just glared at her and added them in anyways.

Remus just shook his head and started their own potion. Lily directed him sitting down while he added in all of the correct ingredients.

"But the book says to do it like this" Remus argued.

"The book is a piece of shite…I made this potion last month doing what the book said an it turned the color of shit brown, just trust me man. I know what imp doing." Lily said with her hands over her eyes.

"Whatever" Remus said as he through in a vile of pure dragons blood.

"Remus have you ever felt the pain of the morning rain as it soaks you to the bone?" she said quietly with her eyes closed.

"Um no? Lily are you okay?" He asked stirring the potion.

"Maybe I don't really wanna know how your garden grows…cause I just wanna fly…" She said ignoring his question. Suddenly her eyes shot open and she hopped off her stool and ran over to the nearest desk stealing the parchment there and running over to Remus.

"This could be a song!" she said excitedly her eyes wide.

"Lily, calm down… What the hell did you do to your eyes?" He asked gripping her arms.

"What?" she asked staring at him with a blank face.

"He rummaged in his bag and found a mirror handing it to her. Too busy to ask why the hell he had a mirror she took it and looked in. Her eyes had changed from their normal emerald green color to a dark violet.

"Hmmm" she said raising her eyebrow in approval.

"What's wrong with you Evans? You look a demon" Sirius said standing behind Remus.

She looked at him and made a face. Handing Remus back his mirror.

"Oh well done Miss Evans, Mr. Lupin. Your potion is perfect! Twenty points to Gryffindor" Professor Slughorn announced sweeping up to their cauldron.

Lily sent Remus a cocky smirk.

"Oh my Miss Evans. What have you done to your eyes? Is this a new fashion statement? Ahh I remember my rebellious days as a youth" he said getting a look of nostalgia across his face.

Lily and Remus exchanged glances before lily narrowed her amethyst eyes at her professor.

Professor patted her head earning himself a glare before moving on to James and Sirius's cauldron.

"Ahem, Boys if you were to administer this to anyone they would die after drinking it. It is extremely important to slice the beetle eyes, not mince them" He said disappointment lacing his voice.

James glared at Lily who had started singing to herself.

"Fucking Evans" he said shoving his books into his bag.

"SEV!" Lily shouted walking up to where Severus and Lucius stood.

"Merlin Lily we're right here you don't have to shout" Lucius drawled in annoyance.

" Hey shut the fuck up, your eyes didn't turn a creepy purple color" Lily snapped back.

"Let me see" Severus scoffed. He lifted up her chin and she obediently opened her eyes widely.

"Lumos" Severus muttered. He put his lit wand in front of lily's eyes. And inspected the deep color of it. Her dilated eyes stared at him blankly.

"Well do you have any other symptoms that might be fatal?" Severus asked calmly.

"That's a nice way to ask if your dying" Lucius said 1ooking over Severus shoulder at lily's nearly black eyes.

"The high was pretty nice. Kind of short though, my head started spinning for a while and well…this happpend" lily said looking at her two friends.

" Lets go to lunch I'm hungry" Lucius said earning two looks from his classmates.

"You guys go ahead, I need a cigarette" Lily said taking out her metal cigarette case.

"Promise me you'll me actually eat something later then" Lucius said raising his eyebrow.

"Yes Daddy" she replied in a childlike voice.

"See you later Lily" Severus said as he saw Bellatrix walking past them toward the great hall. He started to slowly follow her. Lucius rolled his eyes and pulled his love struck friend along.

"eat well, Don't throw up on Bellatrix again Sev" Lily called after them laughing.

"Stupid Marauders" Severus mumbled blushing.

"Fucking Gryffindor's just have to live in a fucking tower, those fucking princesses. Why couldn't I be in Slytherin? Those bloody snakes can waltz in drunk whenever they fucking feel like it and not have to deal with stairs. But oh no I got stuck with the longest staircase known to fucking man" Lily mumbled to herself as she swayed on the staircase.

Walking down the corridor to the familiar painting, she smiled to herself and as she was about to mutter the password, the door burst open to reveal Remus Lupin. Her werewolf friend.

"Awe thanks for opening the portrait Remus" she mumbled rubbing her half closed eyes.

"Lily? I was just looking for you. We have to patrol tonight. Remember?" he asked leading her away from the entrance.

"Awe fuck, oh well might as well walk it off" she muttered.

"Are you drunk?" Remus asked laughing slightly.

"Ahem, just a bit you know. A little vodka here, a little acid there. Have you ever noticed how far it is to walk from the dungeons to the towers? Really long walk…" she said trailing off.

Remus just laughed at her and led her down the stairway.

Walking along their usual route, Remus entertained lily in her drunken state by telling her stories about the marauders.

'She so fucking drunk, she won't remember any of this anyway' he thought to himself.

"Sooo Remyboy… have you found your mate yet?" she asked as they walked down a particularly empty corridor.

"How did you know I have a mate?" Remus asked surprised by her question.

"You inspired a random study session on werewolves when I was bored one day, so cough it up. Boy or girl?" she said punching him lightly on the arm.

"Boy" he relied sighing.

"Oh really now? Gryffinwhore, Slytherdick, Ravenerd, or hufflecunt?" she asked in a mock serious voice.

He looked at her strangely and she just smiled sweetly in return.

"Nice names, Gryffindor" he said looking out the window.

"Wait who's in Gryffindor again? Ah fuck it, in our year?" she asked.

"Yes" he replied suspiciously.

"Just making sure you don't have to fuck a first year," she said defensively. They both shivered in disgust.

"Hmmm so, is he a marauder?" she asked winking.

"Yeah he is," he said rubbing his face.

"Its Potter isn't it?" she said triumphantly.

"No!" he said quickly.

"Awe don't tell me your banging Pettigrew" she said with a look of disgust on her face.

"No" he replied looking at her confused.

"Ohhhh you get screw Black! You two were always closer in that 'secretly I wanna fuck you way" she said smiling.

"You can't tell anyone though, he kinda doesn't know" Remus said blushing.

"Well he kinda will when you guys turn seventeen." She said matter of factly.

"I know, I'm just basking in our friendship now before I go and ruin everything." He said looking down.

"You wont ruin anything! Obviously he's not as straight as he claims to be if you guys are mates. He's lucky to have you" she said sincerely, the drunken haze in her purple eyes slowly fading.

"By the way lily, you never told me what happened to your eyes." He said looking at them.

"I uh… sort of took a potion that Severus concocted. Didn't really know the effects so now I have purple eyes for an unknown amount of time" she said laughing slightly.

"Well that was stupid" Remus said frowning.

"I know, it seemed like a good idea at the time. I was really pissed off," she said smiling

"Oh yeah, the whole charms incident. James was just trying to show off," Remus said comfortingly.

"I don't why, that bird he was with looked ready to fuck him right there" lily said annoyed.

"True" Remus replied laughing.

"Ahh thank god only one fucking corridor left and then I can pass out" lily said sighing in relief.

They turned a corner and herd loud noises coming from one of the broom closets.

Looking at each other, they nodded and drew their wands out. As they got closer they could distinguish the muffled grunts of two people.

"Five galleons says they're shagging" lily said as they walked up to the door.

"No. My bets on oral sex of some kind" Remus said looking slightly disturbed.

"Your on" lily said gripping the door handle.

She swung the door open to reveal James Potter with his pants around his ankles and his groin shoved into some girls face who was on her knees in front of him trying to take him all in her mouth. James looked up at lily whose amethyst eyes had widened at the sight of his ruffled hair and disarrayed glasses. He stared at her dark eyes and moaned as he relieved himself in to the girl's mouth.

"Bloody fuck Potter what the hell are you doing?" Lily yelled turning away.

"What does it look like Evans?" he sneered as he pulled up his pants.

Lily glared at him and looked at the girl on the floor who looked both embarrassed and confused. She still had a full mouth and had yet to swallow what James had shot into her mouth. Kneeling down, Lily recognized the Hufflepuff crest on her shirt and lily remembered her being a fourth year.

"Swallow" lily commanded quietly but firmly. The girl looked frightened, but obliged and gulped down with a grimace.

"Tastes like battery acid doesn't it?" Lily asked raising her eyebrow at the girl.

The girl nodded her head meekly.

"Go back to your dorm, next time you can spit it out" lily said. The girl got up quickly and rushed out of the corridor.

"How the hell would you know how to do anything sexual Evans? All you do is study and act weird," James said scowling as he leaned against the doorway.

"Reducing yourself to getting blowjobs from fourth years Potter?" lily asked turning around to glower at him.

"She's probably a lot better than you could ever be, and she wasn't that great" James replied smirking.

"Really?" lily asked slowly walking closer to him.

"Well that's something you'll never know" She whispered brushing her hand across his groin, she smirked at the way his body quickly reacted.

"Down boy" she said quickly walking away towards Remus who watched the whole thing from the windowsill.

"Here, you win" she said handing five galleons

"Why thank you my lady" he said in a polite voice pocketing the money.

"Come on Prongs lets head back" Remus said hoping off the window and walking over to his friend who was glaring at lily while she swayed from side to side.

Lucius walked down the corridor lightly, careful not to get caught by any patrolling prefects or teachers. Not that it mattered really, he was a prefect himself, and he just didn't want any confrontation with anyone.

He had just received an owl from his father. He was explaining the conditions of his betrothal to Narcissa Black.

Last month his parents told him of his little marital binding contract to the blond witch. He always knew of the wizarding traditions, his parents themselves were in an arranged marriage. He never saw the point; he was the only heir due to their dislike for each other. Now he was destined for the same fate, that was for sure, but up until this summer he had no idea who he was to be married to. Now he was stuck with the youngest Black sister, if only by a few minutes.

He had to admit that Narcissa had grown into a beauty since her younger years. But they had always had a mutual dislike for each other ever since they had been four years old and had been forced to play with each other they still never got along.

It was evident that Narcissa had received the same news over the summer holiday because when they returned for their sixth term, she was glaring daggers at him and would sneer whenever he was present.

'as though its my fault, I never asked to be married to the bloody ice princess of Slytherin' he thought to himself as he walked closer to the dungeons.

Muttering the password he waited patiently for the wall to slide open.

He entered the cold common room to find it half empty. He walked over to Severus who resided in a corner with his nose in a book and taking notes. On his way over he passed by Narcissa, his lovely fiancé, who turned her sapphire blue eyes sharply at him to give him a disapproving look before returning to her letter of some sorts.

"I'll never completely understand the reason for pureblood traditions. Honestly what the hell is the point, the pureblood race is dwindling because of these stupid customs." Lucius drawled to his friend as he sat down in the sofa across from Severus. Contrary to popular belief, Lucius did not hate anyone who wasn't pureblood, hell he had a mud blood and a half-blood for his best friends

"Trouble in paradise?" Severus asked sarcastically.

"What paradise? There is no such thing as paradise when Narcissa black is involved, all there is… is hell" Lucius said grudgingly.

"Its times like these that I thank my mother for fornicating with a muggle, oh wait no I don't because I am not good enough to be with the girl that I love because of m blood" Severus drawled.

"Did Bellatrix finally tell you who she is betrothed to?" Lucius asked sympathizing his friend. Ever since he met Severus he had known about his love for Bellatrix Black. The older Black twin. It was a classic Romeo and Juliet tale. They loved each other, but couldn't be with one another, in public that is.

"Yes, she found out that she was to be married to Rudolfus LeStrange." Severus said moodily.

"Isn't he gay?" Lucius asked confused.

"yes" severus replied shortly.

"wow, and I thought I had it bad" Lucius said feeling somewhat better about his situation. He looked over at Narcissa to see her writing profusely. He examined the golden blond locks that delicately framed her pale face. Her large dark blue eyes were cast down and her dark pink lips were slightly parted revieling her pearly white teeth. He trced the shape of her jaw and the curve of her neck leading down to the open neck of her plum colored robes.

'definalty prettier when she's not glaring' Lucius thought. As if on que she looked up to meet his stare and narrowed to pretty eyes at him before getting up to leave to common room.

Sighing he looked at severus to see his friend reading his book again. The wall slid open again and Lucius and severus looked up to see their redheaded friend stumble through the door.

" 'ello chums" she said in a mock sweet voice.

"what are you so bloody happy about?" severus asked from behind his book.

" oh nothing actually, I just got a letter from my dear, dear sweat father stating that I must either stay at school for the upcoming holiday or go stay with my lovely mum and her wonderfull husband because cladia is due for labor and she doesn't want my "abnormalty" to affect the baby. Isn't that fucking wonderful?" she said sarcasim dripping from her words.

"what are you going to do aout your gigs?" Severus asked.

"gues ill have to crash at Danny's house." Lily said.

"Ill never understand muggles" ucius said sulking.

"you'll never understand anything"Severus pointed out causeing lily to laugh despite her angry mood.

Lucius watched his two friends. Lily had her thick two-toned hair straight at sticks. Her dark emerald green eyes had lost their violent hue a month ago but there was still a small amount of amethist speks in the center of her eyes making them seem darker. She was a rare one, that's for sure.

The three often wondered what house would suit her since she seemed so out of place in Gryffindor. She was smart, that's for damn sure, but she's not nerdy or studious enough to be a Ravenclaw, she is extremely loyal to her close and select friends, but she defiantly doent belong with the weirdos in Hufflepuff, she's way too cool for them. Gryffindor would suit her had she not been so rebellious towrd the self centered arseholes that reside in that stuffy tower. While she loved to hang out in Slytherin, she's not evil enough to belong with the snakes in the dungeons.

She doesn't really belong anywhere, but yet she could fit in everywhere.

"cheers to fate, and all the fucked up things it has in store for us" Lily said throwing back a shot of firewhiskey that she had poured into a potions vial.

"So what are you lot so gloomy about?" She asked pouring another shot.

"im engaged to a stuck up icy bitch that I have hated since I was four and the only thing we actually agree on is our hate for eachother." Lucius saidstealing the vial from her hand.

"what about you Sev? Whats eating your balls?" she asked snatching the emty vial back and pouring her pale friend a shot.

"the girl that Im in love with is Betrothed to Rudolphus Lestrange and I cant do anything about it because I am a half blood" Severus said sadly taking the shot and downing the burning liquid.

"I thought he was gay" Lily stated falling back against the floor.

"he is" Severus and Lucius answered.

"sucks for bella"lily remarked. The boys murmered in agreement.

They were silent for a few moments until Bellatrix passed by them, her black hair flowing behind her as she turned her dark blue eyes to Sverus giving him a certain look making him blush as she proceded to the dorms.

"well you pathetic pixies, im off to bed… got to get some…rest for tomorrows history lecture. Yes"severus mumbled as he followed his secret girlfriend to the dorms.

"I hate that Slytherins get their own rooms" lily mumbled.

"you twerps are stuck in that stuffy tower" Lucius said chuckleing.

"do you know how many times I've had to sleep in the cooridor because I was to fucked up to remember the password, too many to fucking count, I keep an extra sleeping bag in the broom sloset" she said laughing.

"its official, you're insane" Lucius said

"its been official since fourth year" she replied

they were silent for a few momwnts.

"how many venereal diseases do you think the maurauders have in total?" she asked randomly staring into the fire. Before Lucius had a chance to give his opinion the Narcissa walked through the sliding wall and looked like she was about to freeze in place. She had her arms wrapped tightly around her thin body and her pale skin looked frosty.

Walking toward the fire she sat in severus's vacated seat. An awkward silence hung around them like humid air.

"well I think I should be heading off, I don't want to be out to late and all. Bye Luc, See ya Cissa" Lily said getting up and quickly leaving the two to an awkward silence.

The two Slytherins sat there for a while. Neither moved, with the exception of Narcissa's shivering. Lucius didn't mind her company he just felt extrememly strange in her presence.

"we're going married after next year" she said suddenly breaking the thick ice that had formed between them.

"I know" he replied not knowing what else to say to that.

"there is no way out of it, I've checked" she said not looking at him

"me too" he said shortly.

" look if we're going to be married I require that we set some rules. I wont feel safe until I do" she said forcefully.

"I'm not going to kill you in your sleep, darling" he drawled sarcastically.

"I want you to know that I will not produce an heir until I am ready to do anything with you" she said.

"fair enough" he replied.

"you will never hit me, or injure me in any magical way" she said glaring at him.

"Like I would care enough to" he said scoffing.

"you will not cheat on me, I refuse to be humiliated in such a way and If you do I will leave magical contract or not" she said.

"can I count on that" he replied earning himself an icy stare.

"fine I can live with that, and the same applys for you as well. I want to know thata my heir is mine and not some random bugger who you decided to mingle and fool around with." He said staring at her.

"fair enough, we might as well enjoy what is left of our youth, and try to make our lives together as enjoyable as can be" she said sadly looking into the fire.

"you should get to bed, you might catch a cold if you don't change into something warmer soon. And I do know how much you hate getting sick" he told her as he got up and headed for his own warm and luxuirious bed.

Narsicca nodded and mumbled something he couldn't quite understand.

.

Sirius Black sat in the Gryffindor common room alone. His dorm mates are under the impression that he is in the accompany of a rather promiscuous Ravenclaw.

He was actually with her until he made a lame excuse about having to check up on his pet kneazel when he couldn't quite enjoy her company and administrations fully.

He just couldn't get it, why was it so hard to kiss girls now, everytime he got around to it he always felt strange and weird. Like it wasn't meant to be.

Staring into the fire he listened to the crackleing sounds that soothed him to no end, only to have it interrupted by someone's singing. Rather loudly.

"OHH IM NOT SICK BUT IM NOT WELL" he heard someone practically yell through the portrait hole.

The portrait hole opened and in walked Lily Evans with her eyes closed and her head moving to an imaginary beat.

"CANT YOU TELL, THAT IM IN HELLL" she yelled not notcing Sirius as she sat in the chair across from him.

She then went off to mumble the rest of the words in her head still moving around wildly.

It was quite funny to watch.

'must have heard me laughing' Sirius thought when she opened her eyes and abruptly stopped whatever she had been doing.

"what the hell are you laughing at? Have you never seen someone sing before?" she asked narrowing her eyes at him.

"not like that" he said laughing.

"so what are you doing here this early in the evening anyway? Shouldn't you be spreading around VD and impreginating 7th years?" she asked innocently.

"shouldn't you be off getting drunk and trying to kill yourself?" he asked glaring.

"im already drunk" she replied.

"and what are going on about early in the evening, it 2 in the morning" he exclaimed.

"really?" she asked and them nodded her head.

The two sat in silence. Each mulling over the thoughts that plagued their minds.

Lily reached in her jacket pocket and pulled out a silver flask. Taking a long drink from it she coughed and offered some to Sirius.

"I remember you in first year. When you were chubby and innocent. What the hell happened to you?" Sirius asked taking the flask and drinking a large gulp.

"life" she said sullenly. He nodded in agreement and handed her flask back to her.

"well lots of things actually, my dad had an affair with his secretary when I was ten. My mum, being the stupid woman she is, begged him not to leave her. He did anyway. There was a custody battle over my sister and I. She was 14 and I had already turned eleven by the time their divorce was finished. My dad took everything and my mum blamed it on petunia and I. My mum and dad didn't really care about having custody over us, they just wanted to spite eachother, seeing as we were the product of their failed love and marriage." Lily said in one breath as she stared into the fire. Sirius just looked at her strangley. He asnt expecting her life story but he listened any way.

"two months after the divorce, my dad married his secretary. Not to be out done, my mother went off to marry and a rich American business man who was a fucking asshole. My sister and I wanted to go to schoool here, so we were to split the holidays in half one year we would spend a summer with mum and winter with dad and the next year it would switch. My sister ran away when I was thirteen. My mothers husband had a thing for her and he would always visit her room at night. I could here him. When she left he got mad. He never touched my mother but he always hit me." She said slowly.

"why didn't you just lleave to your dad's, or tell him" Sirius asked.

"Like my dad was any better. All he cared about was his job. His trophy wife hates me. She tried to poison me a couple of years ago but I knew more than she could ever and I told my dad. He said I was trying to get attention and I shouldn't make up lies. The only reason I even go back to America is because my est friend lives in my step father's neighborhood. The only reason I go to my dad's house is because Im in a band in London. I have two families and I live for my friends" she said taking another drink.

"My parents hate me" Sirius said suddenly.

"what?"she asked looking at him.

"they do, I was supposed to be in Slytherin. They nearly disowned me for that. Now im expected to marry a purblood witch and produce and heir to the Black fortune. But im not so sure that's what I want." he said.

"whats with the whole prueblood rage anyway" lily asked.

"stupid elitest wizards wo don't want anything to do with muggles" Sirius mumbled.

"do do do dodo do" Lily started singing to herself causeing Sirius to laugh.

"wow Evans I would never have that you of all people would be this fun" Sirius said watching her continue her little sond.

"that's because you and your little friends decided to refrain from getting to know me and just jumped right in to makingmy life hell" she replied.

"what can I say…your special" he said.Lily rolled her eyes in response

"well Black, as nice as it is sitting here talking to you…I like the idea of hitting the sack better so…im gunna head up now, I think its safe to say that you should have at least had a quick shag…I doubt the rest of the guys would ask you any questions beside the usual 'how big is her rack'" lily said doing an impression of James…glasses and all.

She then picked up her flask and headed up the girls staircase.