Like We Never Loved At All...
Author's Note: Songfic-y; can't hear this without thinking of the current season, and so I had to write. I've never done a songfic before (I'm not sure I did it right) but I hope you like it!
Enjoy, and let me know what you think...(that way if its absolutely horrid I never try anything like it again)
Disclaimer: Not Mine. Not the show, the characters, or the song.
You've got it down, baby. The careless way you look through me. The loathing-coated voice. It's probably even worse than before us. Back then it was because of who you thought I was. And now it's because you know me.
We're together often. I see you all the time. It scorches my insides when I see your blue eyes taking in everything but me.
And you laugh easily, you move freely within this world we share. You aren't held back or hurting. But I'm stuck. Just tagging along. Broken. What we had echoes in my ears, always; and yet you can't hear it. You can't hear me.
It's like we never loved at all.
I don't begrudge you your successes, baby. You are doing great, and I'm proud of you, really. But each day passes and its like your another century away. We are farther out of my reach.
But I can't forget it. It seems you already have. And that you like it that way.
You were my teacher of so many things, but can you teach me this? Teach me to let go just like you. To let it all just slip away. Because I look at you and you've left no trace or clue.
It's like we never loved at all.
Have you really forgotten all of it, baby? Even thrown all the good out with the bad? Have you expelled me from your mind, from your history, from your soul and your heart?
Did you forget the tingling sensations that kept us up all night, that kept us warm in the cold, that kept us aware, even in the dark, of every touch, every whisper-hot breath, every bead of sweat shed for the sake of lust and love?
Did you leave the steam-hot fury and want, to let it blur behind you? Forgetting the way I could scratch inside your veins with a look, with a demand, with a kiss.
Have you lost all that, my love. Because I couldn't, I wouldn't.
And since you have someone new, to latch onto in the night, I suppose it never crosses your mind how good it felt to kiss me. And I know it felt good, baby, I could always see it in your eyes.
I'm sure you never even think about it.
It's like we never loved at all.
Except we did, baby.
And if I can't forget...I'll make you remember.
You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath the city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But I'm still livin' with your goodbye
And you're just goin' on with your life
How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all
You, I hear you're doin' fine
Seems like you're doin' well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
(Leavin' us behind)
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is baby yeah
(I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know)
To letting go, letting go like you did, like you did
How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all
Did you forget the magic...oh
Did you forget the passion
Did you ever miss me
Ever long to kiss me
Ohhhh ohohh ohh Baby, baby
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved...at all...