Chapter 1

My Life

Bella's POV

I've loved Edward since we were children and always will I don't care what he is or what he does I will always love him it's not his fault.

About 3 days ago Edward disappeared from the hospital he was dying in no one knew what happened to him and I was the only one that cared. His parents had already died from influenza and he was on the way. I was one of the "lucky" few people who hadn't caught the flu yet. I'd rather have been dying by the love of my life's side then have to watch him dye without me we weren't even married yet.

But today three days after he disappeared he came back. And he was different he was more handsome than he ever was before and he had blood red eyes. But I didn't care because he was alive and healthy.

But then I saw him kill my neighbor. It was awful! He snapped her in two like a twig then sucked her blood. I shudder to think of it.

After that he proceeded to kill the whole entire town in just that one day even the sick and worse of all my parents.

I was the only one left and was sobbing in my room. My love my life he was a monster. But I didn't blame him it's not his fault he's been turned into something I never thought existed, a vampire. I still love him though no matter what I don't care you can't stop loving someone that easily and I love Edward deeply always and forever he's not to be blamed for what he does he really is good on the inside.

He's waiting for me I can tell he's standing outside the house glaring at my window with his new eyes. I went to him.

Immediately he grabbed my waist and bent his lips to my neck. At one time I considered this sweet and romantic now it was honestly scary. I felt bad for being afraid of him though because I still loved him but I couldn't help being afraid knowing what he was going to do.

He bit me.

I quickly stifled a cry for I knew if any of the old Edward were still in him it would hurt him to know that he hurt me. And I couldn't hurt him he needed my blood and he couldn't help himself so I would help him I would go without a fight or a cry if I could that is. But as he drank on I realized I couldn't and ended up crying out " Edward please stop, remember yourself remember me please Edward." I was full out sobbing by now it just hurt so much. But he wouldn't stop and so I cuddled up into him like I had so many times before when he was well and human. And I imagined that he was normal again and still loved me and I was happy.

If anyone was going to kill me I'm glad it's Edward it really is the best way to go at your loved ones lips.

That's when I blacked out but first I heard a sob and it seemed to be coming from Edward but I couldn't be sure. Even if it wasn't I'd like to pretend it was then I could at least think he still loved me a weak human at my dying moment.

A/N I want to end it there but sadly I cant because I want to keep going so bad so u lucky ducks get to read on!

Edward's POV

I truly was a monster. I had been dying from influenza as my parents already had my mother just a week ago then Carlisle came. He took me off to the woods and bit me. I was too sick to care. But then I started feeling fire in my blood it was so painful I couldn't stop the pain! I cried out begged for someone to kill me I thought I was in a living heck the fire just wouldn't stop.

No one killed me but I wish they had even now that the fire is over. Why you ask? Because I am the worst monster ever I am a creature of the night a vampire. I suck human blood I'm a murderer.

Carlisle gave me the choice of drinking human blood or animal. And I tried animal blood but I wanted human so bad animal just wouldn't satisfy me and so I left the woods for town.

I was angry. It wasn't fair I shouldn't be a vampire I should be dead! And so I began my massacre on the town. There were to be no survivors.

I began with an old neighbor I forget her name it didn't matter anyways she'd soon be dead. I went on to kill the rest of the town. There was only one person left a girl. Bella I briefly remembered. I stood in front of her house and looked up at her window she stared back at me and soon came down.

Her sent was magnificent! The most mouthwatering sent ever better than every other human combined! I wrapped my arm around her waist and brought my teeth to her neck.

Losing no time I began to suck her blood I heard her let out a small whimper that she let out in spite of the fact she was trying to stifle a scream.

Then she started talking to me "Edward" she said " please stop, remember yourself remember me please Edward."

I sighed I remembered now Bella the love of my life. But I couldn't stop she smelled so good and tasted even better. She started sobbing and cuddled up into my chest as if to protect herself from me by using me. She was still so loving even as I was killing her she hugged me. It was too much. I pulled myself from her neck but it was to late she was dying. My sweet, sweet Bella was dying because of me because I was a monster. I began to dry sob. Quickly I picked up her dying body and did the only thing I could I took her to Carlisle hoping he could fix her.

When I brought her there he took one look at us and quickly took Bella to his office where he lived in the forest. He didn't say a word just started sealing her wounds with venom and pumping her heart. " She's lost a lot of blood Edward I'm not sure if I can save her." I cringed "Try Carlisle please I love her, she can't die because of me because I'm a monster I can't let her I love her so much Carlisle please save her." At this point I was sobbing tearlessly of course because of what I am. Carlisle didn't say anything else just kept working over her furiously. Then he did something I'd never seen anyone do before he pumped someone else's blood into her to give her enough to live.

And slowly she began to come back to us the venom and extra blood saving her life but now she was going to have to live her life like me I know she'll chose animals she could never kill someone never be a monster like me for I am and always will be a monster I almost killed her and now she has to live as a vampire because of me.

I knew I couldn't be around her anymore she would hate me a murderer. I couldn't bare her hate and so I told Carlisle of my plans. It would be better for us all Bella wouldn't have to be around me I wouldn't have to see her hate and Carlisle would still get a companion his very own daughter. I whispered to in her ear, as she writhed in pain on the table breaking my heart even more, "I love you Bella I always will I'm so sorry I did this to you I hope some day you find it in your heart to forgive me darling even if you can't love me." and with that I left.