One quick note: Most of the stuff in here are headcanons. I have not read the manga (I know, I am a poor, deprived human being), so my knowledge of SnK only extends to episode 17. The only spoiler in here is the fact that Marco died, and if you are reading this I assume you know that already.
Every day I march onwards
My life on the line, my green cloak around my shoulders
To remind me of what I sacrificed
I walk alone, surrounded by others but never connecting with them
Because I can only connect with one person
And that person is you
And you are gone.
I see you sometimes
Walking beside me
Guiding my footsteps
Smiling brightly
As you did when you were living
Breathing
Beating
Heart and bones
Still intact
Face still there
Body whole
Unlike my pathetic heart
Which still belongs to you
Always and forever
Until the day I die
And join you
Too soon, too soon
But not soon enough.
And while the others move on
Dancing on a knife's edge, lives hanging by a thread
Living life as brightly as a flame
So easy to snuff out
As I have learnt already
When I walked along a blood-splattered street and found your body
Frozen in death
"His name was Marco Bodt."
And I love him with all my heart
Which is broken
So broken
With blades in both hands
I shall avenge you
I shall cut down
Every last Titan
With that sword
Which used to belong to you
Much like my entire existence
Every caress, every kiss I save for the thing that will save my life
Were supposed to be the ones I would give to you
Thousands of days
And thousands of nights
I would have spent with you
If only I had not been so weak.
You called me that one
You told me I was a leader
And that you will always follow me
Because that's why you were still alive.
I failed you
I failed I failed I failed
I'm a failure
Yet you watch over me
My angel
I know you are there
I can see you sometimes
Out of the corner of my eye
When I turn my head, when I blink away the tears
You are gone again
But I know you are still there, holding me close.
You are there every time I rush into battle
Every time I cry myself to sleep.
You are there in the good times too
Like when Christa and Ymir were married
And everyone attended
Even you
We watched the smiling, trembling Christa, decked out in a white dress
Said her vows
Binding herself to Ymir for life
They were so happy
So fucking happy
I did my best to smile for them
But all I could feel was your ghostly hands comforting me, arms holding me gently
Because we never had our wedding
Our happy ending
I love you Marco
I always will
So I shall live out the rest of life
For you
I shall live for both of us
You can count on me
But I'll be waiting
For that day
When it's my turn to be left
Bleeding
Tears of happiness running down my face
Because at last
I am with you.