A/N: So here's my first Twilight fanfic. All rights belong to the lovely Stephenie Meyer. I am simply playing around for my own enjoyment. Please be honest in your reviews and feel free to tell me that I'm out of my element here. Oh and this story IS Bella/Edward, I promise. : )

BPOV

Jessica and Angela had done my hair. Sue Clearwater had taken care of the decorations. Renee bought me the beautiful dress. What more could a twenty-two year old bride ask for? But then I heard Angela's mother playing the wedding march and my mind drifted elsewhere to a place it hadn't been in nearly four years.

Edward. I had always thought it would be him at the end of the aisle in a black tuxedo looking more like a god than anyone had the right to. I thought it would be his remarkably enchanting topaz eyes that would offer me comfort as I clumsily walked to the altar on Charlie's arm. His crooked smile leading me to his arms. His velvet soft voice saying 'I do' and his lips on mine at the minister's cue. But the events that took place on my birthday five years ago changed everything.

At first, I was lost beyond comprehension. Nothing had meaning and my life was a hollow pit of darkness. Until my own personal sun rose and I found love again. Sure, it wasn't the same deep connection I had shared with Edward but it was love and it made me whole again. Well, as whole as I could ever be.

Somehow, with everything I had, I pushed thoughts of my once vampire lover and focused on what I was about to do. As I emerged with Charlie and began walking, I saw my Jacob, my sun, waiting for me at the altar, a goofy grin on his face. Some things would never change and for that I was grateful. Jacob had always been my best friend and I loved him so much. Without him, I wasn't sure there'd be a Bella right now. I would have wasted away until there was nothing left. I smiled genuinely as he took my hand and we said our vows.

I was officially Bella Black. Strange to think of myself that way. Before he left, I had always fantasized someday becoming Bella Cullen but then I realized it was foolish to entertain such notions. He was gone and he certainly wasn't coming back. Besides, with Jacob, I could stay human. Yes, he was a werewolf but we could still be together. The only thing that worried me was the whole imprinting ordeal.

I had seen what Sam's imprinting on Emily had done to Leah and I did not want to end up like her. Although Jacob reassured me each and every day that nothing, not even a werewolf love spell, could ever change how he felt about me, I had my doubts. Were he ever to find that girl, the one that held him to this earth and was the core of his existence, he would leave me. I wasn't sure I could take it if another man I loved left me.

The reception party was actually enjoyable. Charlie, Quil, Embry, and even Sam had the honor to dance with the bride but Jacob soon grew a little jealous and requested that no one else interrupt him and his new wife. When I looked into Jacob's puppy dog eyes, I saw nothing but love and joy emanating from them. It made the whole dancing thing not so horrible. I enjoyed myself. I was surrounded by friends and family and I knew that with this commitment, I wouldn't be required to isolate myself from them. Things would stay the same except for the fact that I was now a part of the Black family as much as the Swan family. Charlie, Renee, and even Phil were emotional and Jacob and I left for the airport to go on our honeymoon.

After pestering him enough, Jacob told me that we were going to rent a beach house in Brazil for the week and tour some of the big cities like Sao Paulo and Rio de Janeiro. I was excited. I had never been out of the country before and I had a feeling it would be an amazing trip.

On the plane, while Jacob slept, I was able to think about my life and the course it had taken. Amazing how things can change in the course of a year. In the course of a week, even. Last week, Jacob and I were engaged and now we were married. A week before Edward left, we were great. The perfect couple. A week later… Oh, stop it, Bella. He doesn't care anymore. Why are you still so hung up on him?

It was time to let him go. I glanced over at Jacob's sleeping form and felt a few stray tears escape my eyes. He had saved me. The least I could do was not let him know how the truth. Just how much I wished in my heart that it was Edward next to me and his last name with mine.

Disgusted with myself, I turned away and asked the flight attendant for a sleeping mask, drifting off into a dreamless sleep.

We arrived soon after I woke up and Jacob seemed to notice my thoughts were elsewhere. He kept looking at me, pure concern evident in his eyes.

"Are you alright, Bella? You're so quiet." he said, gently stroking my face.

I smiled but I was certain it didn't reach my eyes. "I'm fine, Jake. It's just a really long flight. I'll feel better once I get some fresh air." I replied, stretching my arms and yawning.

"Well, I hope so." he whispered, leaning over me to kiss my forehead.

It still astonished me just how mature Jacob was. He was still two years younger than me and I used to think of him as that lanky fifteen year old boy but he was a man now. And he cared. He really did care whether or not I was happy. I sometimes wonder if he never did imprint on me and failed to mention it. Based on how he had described the phenomenon, it sure seemed like it.

When we arrived at the beach house, the bed was covered with roses and I knew what was expected of me. Jacob had been wanting to make love to me since I had voiced my love for him. I knew how long he had waited for this moment. However, by the time he got my shoes off, I wrapped my arms around my waste, exactly the same way I did whenever I thought about the Cullens. I could feel myself breaking apart. It was crazy how real it felt. I thought I'd gone back in time because the pain of losing him was as fresh as if he had broken my heart yesterday. I started to cry and Jacob wrapped his big arms around me muttering words of comfort but nothing could comfort me. He must have thought I was afraid of the act of love which bothered me. At one time, there was nothing I wanted more only it was with someone else. Someone far from being the warm, human boy now holding me tight.

And at this moment, I truly despised myself. I was the incarnation of the word 'maneater'. I was hurting him and I knew it but I really couldn't bring myself to give a damn. After all these years, I still loved Edward. I still heard his voice. I still longed for his touch and there was nothing Jacob or anyone else could do to changed that. I do not know how I managed to keep it hidden all these years. I wanted Edward back and not having him in my life was killing me.

Jacob left once the tears stopped and I fell asleep. I was emotionally drained. When I woke up, the sun was nearly setting and I decided to explore the beach. I didn't know the name of it but it was beautiful, just breaking out the jungle. I was a bit afraid of whatever animals might lurk there but I knew Jacob would protect me. As if by magic, something I had grown to believe in whole-heartedly, I heard the leaves rustling.

EPOV

Another day of nothingness. Just a bleak existence. My only joy was found in the weekly hunts. There were plenty of panthers here and I had grown to like them even more than mountain lions. Today was my day to hunt and I decided to go up the coast through the jungle. The sun was still out but no one would be out here to see me.

As I ran, my thoughts wandered to Bella. The pain came like with the force of a rapid river clouding all my senses and I stopped in my tracks, sitting beneath a palm tree. Bella… My beautiful Bella. Five years. How I've managed, I have no idea. I wanted to go back but I had made her a promise and I intended to keep it. She would have a normal human life. How old would she be now? Twenty-two. A real woman. A small smile crossed my lips as I thought of the lovely shade of red her cheeks would turn whenever I kissed her and how her heart would flutter. I truly missed that. I missed it more than anything.

Of course, I never stopped loving her. How could I? She was the entire reason for my existence. I could not be without her. Life would have no meaning for me and I would soon take care of that. After all, nothing like Bella and myself had ever existed. How could I just-…

No. It couldn't be. I dared to take another breath and the wonderful smell of freesia overtook me causing the burning in my throat to worsen. It was so sweet, so tempting, so Bella. But how could it be? She was in Forks. She had to be. There was no way she would have come here. Why would Bella come to Brazil? Unless she had spoken to Alice or something.

But it was definitely her. I could hear her heartbeat quicken as I made my way through the leaves. The noise was frightening her, as it should. I could have been a panther for all she knows. Slowly, I revealed myself and stared into the big brown eyes of Bella Swan. Only something was off. Something shiny on her left hand caught my attention and I realized that it was a wedding ring.

Still, nothing could keep me from taking in just how gorgeous she looked. The years had done nothing to her beauty. She was so beautiful but… what was this? There were tears in her eyes? No, I could not take the sight of tears on her lovely face. So I did the unthinkable. I approached her and pulled her into my arms as if the last five years had not taken place. As if Jasper had never attacked her. As if not a damn thing mattered but the two of us together again.

"Bella…" I whispered as she wrapped her arms around me as well, sobbing into my chest. "How I've missed you."

A/N: So? What did you guys think? I didn't want to make it too long in case you end up not liking it. Please review!