I Remember

By

Blissful Turtle

I remember the first time we met. The infamous Jewel Seed Case. I still shutter to think of my involvement in it. And you, I wasn't quite sure what to make of you. At that moment when I so desperately needed help, who would have thought that you would be the one to save me?

I remember watching you battle, mesmerized by your raw power. The truly amazing part was that you were just making it up as you went along, weren't you? Do you recall how unskilled you were back then? Just stumbling along. Yet, you would later become an instructor, huh? We used to laugh about that, didn't we? Did I ever tell you how adorable your laugh is?

I remember the first time I saw you defeated. You were so scared and so sad. It kills me just thinking about it. You never would have been in that situation if it wasn't for me. Even though you never blamed me for it I could never completely forgive myself. But afterward, you showed me the determination you had, the drive to succeed. Do you know how much I love that about you?

I remember the first time you referred to me as a friend. I also remember the first time I met your family. It's remarkable how fast they became a family to me too. And when we told them we were dating, I remember how they just kind of shrugged like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

I remember the first time I realized your feelings for me. The confession you had spent so long rehearsing went to waste when you kept stuttering over it and finally gave up and kissed me. That was also the first time I pulled you close and kissed back, wasn't it?

I remember the first time we made love. You were so nervous you were trembling. Usually, you are so calm and confident; seeing you acting so shy was incredibly sexy. And when you would touch me, my mind would blank and I would lose control. You always claimed that my aggressive side was our little secret, didn't you?

I remember our first real argument and how it almost tore us apart. What caused it is long forgotten but the pain from knowing I hurt you…Why do you keep forgiving me? What did I do to deserve someone as amazing as you?

I remember when you became a mother. That was quite a shock. You never even considered having children before. Doting on your daughter made you so adorable to watch back then. Well, your always adorable, but you know what I mean, right?

I remember when your daughter was K.I.A. We were all devastated by the loss, but you…it broke you. No parent should outlive their child. It destroyed you. Gah, do you know how frustrating it was back then, knowing that I couldn't protect you from that pain. I felt so worthless, the only thing I could do was hold you. After a long while, life regained its normalcy. You would even start to smile and laugh again (oh, how I missed that laugh). But sometimes, late at night, I would still hear you cry out to your little girl.

And I remember when you passed away too. You slipped away in your sleep. You looked so calm and serene. Did you realize that I would be the one to find you? Now it appears I am about to join you. Funny, isn't it? They say when you die your entire life will flash before your eyes. But all I can see is you.

AN: Yeah, I don't know where this came from, but it wouldn't leave me alone until I wrote it. Yes, it is about Nanoha, but the narrator is left ambiguous because I refuse to participate in shipping wars. Just imagine whomever you want. I can think of at least four characters who could be thinking this, how many can you think of? Thank you so much for reading, if you would be so kind, please leave a review.

-BT