Disclaimer: I don't own Spike. Or Buffy. Or anyone really. They are the property of Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy and a whole bunch of TV networks and probably lots of other people besides. Don't come after me, I'm an impoverished student!
I don't own 'Heart for Darkness' either. It's a song by Sparklehorse and it's all theirs. It's on an album called 'Vivadixie . . .'. You don't have it? It's beautiful. Go forth and buy many copies (hopes this promotion will outweigh use of song for own ends . . . maybe?).
Other things you should know: There are probably SPOILERS ahead for the episode 'Touched' in Season 7. Read no further if this is likely to upset you.
Thanks.
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Heart for Darkness
She laid her head on my chest
As the sun burned down the West
There's one thing that we've both still got
There's one last dance in this parking lot
Oh yeah, I've got a heart for darkness
I've got a heart for darkness
(Mark Linkous: Sparklehorse)
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The spinning world stands still as she closes her eyes. All around I hear the soft sounds of my pieces falling into place.
I'm too afraid to move, too afraid to look away. Glad that I don't have to breathe to break the silence. Time slides past in a gentle breeze and I'm frozen in. Desire bleeds out gently from my bones. The hurt dies inside me like a candle in the sun.
Sleep takes her out to sea and she lies still beside me. Inside her is the winter and the winter in me feels its pull. She saw through me as I have seen through her and she did not look away. And there is nothing left for us to hope or fear.
In dreams she is a thousand miles away. That's OK. I can't always save her. I know that. I couldn't even save her from myself. Doesn't mean I'm going to stop trying. No matter what it takes.
Whatever tomorrow brings I've had today.
And I feel alright. I feel all right.