Hi there,

It's been a while hasn't? I've been busy this past few days with our org. activities! I am so happy that the concert we cooked up was a success. Thanks for reading my fanfictions. Here is my new fanfic. I hope you'll like it. Well good news, this might be my second multi-chapter fanfic. I also write under the pseudonym Maria Winters.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Sailor Moon…thank Takeuchi-sensei for making a wonderful manga that we all love and enjoy. If it wasn't for her brilliance we won't be reading or writing fanfictions about Sailor Moon ne?

Tinted with Blue

Danielle Winters

Winter slowly fades away to give way to a new life. As spring approaches, changes starts to occur to give light to everything that had died due to the cold but beautiful snow.
Old Memories

August 03, 1994

It was the autumn of 1993; he was walking in the crowded streets of Tokyo looking for something he does not know. His midnight blue eyes show no emotion, only the emptiness he silently suffered within the span of twelve years. How painful is it to live a life without a family? How lonely is it to live without knowing your own identity? He diverted his icy stare to the park filled with withering leaves that is blown by the crispy and chilly wind. I saw him, walking in to the lonely park. Oh how I wish I could run to him and hug him like I used to do.

But I cant…

He refuses to see me and I cannot understand why? His rejection hurts so much but I respect him and so I obeyed. I will love him silently if that is what I have to do. I would rather keep this feeling inside me than blurt it out and lose him in my sight forever. If he asks me to leave his sight, I'll gladly step away from him and watch him from a distance just like what I am doing. I'll embrace all the pain inside me. He doesn't need to bear it with me. He has enough burdens to carry, enough suffering to go through. Let me silently support you, and with my stare, let me warm your heart.

I'll silently love you and that is enough for me.

He closed the old diary and placed it under his pillow. How stupid was he to ignore her. She had loved him since her youth and yet, all he returned was a cold shoulder." Why do we regret everything when it already too late? " he thought to himself. He took a picture frame from his bedside table and stared at it. She was petite but beautiful. Her long blonde hair was in tied in an odd way. Two pigtails that resemble a meat-bun are keeping her hair from touching the ground. Her smile brightens everybody's day. Her most distinctive feature is her blue eyes. When you look at her eyes, it's as if you are looking at the sky. Just like the sky, her eyes reflect the infinite possibilities that a person can have.

And he was too stubborn to accept that fact…

He has to suffer the consequence… he had to loose her forever. It was the price he has to give for breaking her heart, for leaving her for a stupid dream that he thought was a premonition, an omen about their future. He scorned her heart and left her in the abyss of loneliness. Loneliness that was too much for her. She was too innocent to be hurled in a whirlwind of pain and sadness.

She was his angel but because of him, her wings have faltered that caused her to fall and hit the ground. She was his sun but because of him, she had to leave the sky and forever hide in behind Mt. Fuji. She was his spring but it was his own fault that he experiences an eternity covered with snow; an eternity of winter. It was his fault that she had left and moved to another place.

Where was she?

"Her parents had to send her to London." A girl with raven hair and that reached her waist said in a melancholic way. "They do not know what's causing her that illness so they had to send to an aunt who is a doctor there." She added.

"It is for the best. She doesn't need to deal with me anymore." He replied avoiding any eye contact from the girl.

"You love her, why do you need to leave her!" she shouted.

"You will not understand Rei-san…" he retorted and then he walked away.

"Mamoru-san chotto matte!" she called back. He didn't turn his back to her; he continued to walk away not knowing where his feet would take him.

The phone rang and it raised his mind to consciousness. He picked it up and answered the call.

"Chiba-sensei desu." He said.

"Mamoru-san. It is me, Ami." The voice in the other line said.

"Ami-chan, kombanwa. What can I do for you?"

"Well, can you replace me on my shift tomorrow? I have to go somewhere and it is a very important matter for me." Ami said with a tone of urgency.

"By the sound of your voice I can sense that it is really important. All right, I will replace you in your shift tomorrow." He answered while rubbing his temples. Too much thinking about what had happened causes him to have headache.

"Arigato goazaimasu."

"Do' itteshimasu. Oyasumi nasai."

"Oyasumi." Then Ami put down the phone.

That phone call reminded him of a familiar scene. 'Oh kami-sama why do I have to remember theses?" he said out loud.

She knocked on his door with urgency. He tried to tell her that she doesn't want to see her anymore and that everything between them is over.

"Was it that dream? The dream where I would die and the world will end if we stay together?" she said. He froze on his spot and comprehended what she had said. He slowly opened the door and let her come in.

"How did you know about it?"

"I had a dream about it for the past two weeks." She replied. She held his sleeves and began to cry. "I don't want to spend eternity living without you. I don't want to die if I wouldn't be able to die in your arms. I'd rather experience the end of the world with you that to end it without you!"

"I always see that dream every night and I begat to believe that it is a prophecy."

"It doesn't mean anything to me!"

"You are being selfish! Will you forsake the safety of the innocent people just so you can be with me!"

"Am I being selfish! You think I am being-"

"Get out!" Mamoru said angrily while he pushed Usagi out of his apartment. He closed the door behind him.

"Mamo-chan listen to me please, I don't care about that dream. It was just a dream and nothing more!" Usagi said while sobbing. "Even if the world will end, I don't want it to end without you." She continuously pounded the door and sobbed until she fell on the floor and cried her heart out.

Behind the closed door, Mamoru stands against the door while gazing at the distant Tokyo Tower. His heart is wrenching him, killing his soul slowly for he had just abandoned the person dearest to him than his own life. "It's for the best. You'll be much safer without me by your side." He thought while tears started to flow out of his eyes as the rain began to pour outside.

He felt the hot tears stream down his face. God, he loved her more than his own life and he still loves her. "Why did I let her go? Why did I let that stupid dream come between us?" he shouted in to his empty apartment.

The rain had started to pour and people outside were running in search of for a temporary shelter. Mamoru looked at the rain and cried himself to sleep with a thought embedded in his mind.

"Usako…you must've cried in your sleep because of me a hundred times…"

Outside, in an empty park where people used to wait for their friends or lovers before going somewhere else, a young woman with long blonde hair that was in a long braid and blue eyes stood under the pouring rain. Her umbrella protected her from the rain and her coat warmed her body. She was looking at a lit window at the 25th floor of a condominium tower.

"I'll watch you even if I have to hide in the shadows." She said to herself while her pink lips formed a sweet smile.

"Usagi-chan…" a voice called out. A woman with brown hair tied in a ponytail came out of the shadows.

"Makoto-chan!"

"You have just come back and you are already watching him…"

"I can't help it… I love him."

Well that's it for now. I'll be updating soon, I promise. My ideas are now. To all the people who have read my stories, I copied a portion of this from Behind the Closed Doors. I hope you like this one.

Take care everyone!

Sincerely.

Danielle Winters