Dirty Little Secret by missmiamya
Summary: Marco and Dylan are back together, but was Marco actually done with his relationship with Tim? One-Shot containing Slash
A/N: This is a Marco POV by the way! It's like the first time for me ever doing a whole fic like that so bare with me! lol. Well if I make it longer than just a one shot it probably wont all be in Marco POV but this chapter is for sure!
Disclaimer: I don't now nor have I ever and do I ever plan on owning any part of Degrassi! It's sad I know…but I'll get on with my life!
Marco and Dylan are finally back together. It took a year and a lot of fighting, but they made it. The perfect couple back together again. They love each other and would do anything for each other, but Marco isn't sure how he feels about dumping Tim like he did.
Tim was there for me to help me get over Dylan. He didn't realize it, but he was slowly having that effect on me. If Dylan wouldn't have come back for the summer to get me back Tim probably would have succeeded in tearing me completely away from him. He is just so damn cute, funny, sweet, and smart. I don't know why I treated him like such shit! I feel really bad. Maybe I shouldn't have gotten back with Dylan. But I love him. It's great being with him. He knows everything about me. Well almost everything. He has no idea that I've been hanging out with Tim during his hockey practices. He has no idea that Tim and I are closer than we should be. He has no idea that I'm starting to love Tim as much as I love him. He doesn't know because I don't tell him. I don't tell him because I know that I'll lose him forever if I tell him. I really need to decide what I want and decide fast. Sex with both Tim and Dylan is great, but I feel so dirty. I can't believe I'm actually doing that. I can't believe I'm the cheater. It's hard to imagine me Mr. Perfect at everything actually fucking up for once, but that's why I need to decide who is best for me and who I love the most. It's not going to be easy, but I can do it.
"Hey Babe," Dylan says coming up behind me wrapping his arms around me and kissing my neck. He pulls me out of my thoughts as I turn and see his perfectly toned body, blonde curls, and the sea of blue eyes that I get lost in so frequently.
"Hey, how was practice?" I ask turning around in his embrace and wrapping my arms around his neck as I pull my self up on my tip toes to give him a kiss.
"It was good, but I missed you" Dylan says pulling me into another deep kiss. He knocks the wind right out of me. I've never felt as high as I do when I'm kissing Dylan. He just gives me chills all over and makes me feel like I'm on top of the world.
"I missed you too," I say after the long kiss. I begin to run my hands down his sweaty shirt covered chest, and smile sexily up at him. He laughs that cute laugh and flashes me a bright smile before pulling me up into a tight embrace in which I take the opportunity to wrap my legs around his waist.
He walks to the bedroom with me like this and we fall onto the bed. We both quickly lose our clothes and are exploring each other's bodies. It feels so great to be with him, but at the same time I feel so dirty knowing that a couple hours ago I was in this same bed with Tim. Dylan and I don't bother to use condoms anymore. We've both been tested and know we don't have anything, and everything is better without them. Dylan is applying lube to both of us before he begins to thrust inside of me pumping my erect tool at the same speed as his thrusts. I moan with pleasure as our sweaty bodies become close to reaching our climaxes together as they always do. We are so in sync with each other that it is sometimes scary. I feel Dylan's warm load inside of me at the exact same time that I release mine onto him. We both moan in pleasure through out the whole time. He begins to bite at my neck and I know at that moment what it is I have to do. I have to end everything with Tim. I know that he is going to take it bad, but I love Dylan. I don't want to lose Dylan. I hope Dylan will understand when I reveal my secret to him. Or maybe I wont. I mean does he really need to know? I feel Dylan's teeth making their way around my neck and I decide I should probably stop him before I end up with a necklace of teeth marks! Oh no it's too late! Oh well I'll just have to pay him back! I climb on top of him and pin him down with his hands above his head. I attack his neck with my teeth and he struggles to get away from me laughing the whole time. We play around wrestling and making out for awhile before we both become to tired to move anymore. I curl up next to him putting my head on his chest and drifting off to sleep.
"I love you more than anyone could ever see," Dylan whispers before kissing the top of my head and running his hand through my hair.
"I love you too!" I say before completely drifting off to sleep.
The next day Tim and I are sitting in the park. I choose to meet him in the park where I wouldn't be tempted to jump on him and have sex with him again. I love Dylan to much to do this to him anymore.
"Tim, look I know that you and I have been sort of involved lately, and it was fun, but the truth is, I'm still with Dylan and I love him."I say watching Tim closely trying to sort of gauge his reaction.
Tim doesn't say anything. He just stares at me with a look of defeat or sadness or something along those lines on his face. I can't believe that I actually did it. I can't believe that I actually tore Tim's heart out like that again. Of all the things I've done to him I really didn't think that I could do that again.
"Tim?" I ask with concern edging it's way into my voice.
"Marco, I love you. Why don't you understand that. Dylan he cheated on you, and treated you like shit. Why do you love him and not me? I'd do anything for you!" Tim says this looking into my eyes as his fill with tears.
"He is my first love Tim. I can't just stop loving him. I'll always love him, and right now he's proved to me that he is trustworthy. Now I've got to prove to me that I am. I can't cheat on him anymore, and I can't keep stringing you along making you think you have a chance. Move on Tim. You will be much better with out me."I say as the tears spill down Tim's face.
"I'll never forget you, and I'll never stop loving you because you were my first love," Tim says still trying to be strong, but breaking down harder by the minute.
"I know, and I'm sorry that I put you through this. Can we still be friends? Can we keep this between us, and not tell Dyl or El or anyone else about this part of our relationship?" I ask practically begging him. If this gets out I don't know what it'll do to my relationship with Dylan. Maybe he'd forgive me, but he said he never actually slept with Eric. I want to believe him, but they were getting pretty close that night that I caught them in bed.
"I...I...I guess," Tim says still crying. I wrap my arms around him to comfort him.
"I'll never forget you either," I say to him as I rub his back to calm him down.
I'm sitting alone in the living room starring at the walls as Dirty Little Secret plays in the background. Dylan is at practice still, and I'm trying to decide if I should tell him. If I don't I'll be living a lie and regret it. If I do he's going to hate me, and never trust me again. I don't want that. I love him. I shouldn't have done that to him.
I hear the keys in the lock and Dylan walks in. I glance at him, but then quickly away from him. I can't even look at him right now. I feel like such a jackass for ever doing that to him. He deserves better than me. I'm worthless, and should never be trusted. Dylan sits down next to me, and I still don't look at him.
"What's wrong?" Dylan asks placing his hand on my leg.
I can't tell him what's wrong, but I need to. He needs to know what I did. I can't hide it forever. I take a deep breathe before saying anything.
"I...I...I cheated" I finally manage to say it after stuttering around.
I look at him and can see the hurt welling up inside of his eyes. I can't believe I did this to him. He means the world to me, and I just cheated on him, and told him like it was no big deal. It was a big deal, and I didn't mean for it to sound like it wasn't. I know it was. I know I screwed up, and that I could lose him forever, but I had to tell him. If I wouldn't have told him it would have only made everything worse.
"With Tim?" Dylan finally manages to say softly not looking at me, but at the floor.
"Yeah. I didn't mean to. I honestly love you. I just I don't know had to expierence something else for me to realize how much you mean to me." I say as I begin to break down. I can't hold back my emotions. He means the world to me, and I can't lose him.
"I figured something was going on. I just judged it wouldn't go to far." Dylan says glancing at me with tears sliding down his face.
I reach out and wipe them away. He does the same to me. I feel close to him. Closer to him now than ever before. Maybe I'm not going to lose him. Maybe this will be a good thing. We will work on this, and get past it, and everything will be great. Better than great even.
A/N: Okay so I've been working on this for awhile. What do you guys think! Should I Make it longer or keep it like this!