Hi people, aliens, cats...and whoever else is reading this (especially YOU my lovely reader :D)
I decided to write this new story because ideas for this were stuck in my head for a long time and it just blocks everything else for other stories (we will see if it will change when I finish this :D)...anyway it really hit me hard and I wrote half of this story in matter of one weekend (woo-hoo) so I should be able to update every Wednesday (if I don't forget... honestly there is a huge chance I will - I have memory of a ninety years old lady)
huge shout-out to NutHeda who is amazing beta and decided to go through my nonsense to make it readable...thank you!
I really, really, really hate ALLIE storyline so there is none of this nonsense - let's say that Jaha didn't get to her (yet?) and Murphy realized that former chancellor is crazy so he ditched him and went to steal on commander's roads then he got caught, dragged to Titus and so and so on as it was in the show
Pretty much everyone from the show (who is still alive in the moment the fic starts) should make an appearance or at least being mentioned (except for Emori I don't like her much and I definitelly don't want to write her for some weird reason :D ...so let's say she is probably running somewhere in the desert with a rocket launcher :D)
Now that's all from me... enjoy the reading and let me know what you think =)
'italics' - thoughts
sum: Clarke goes to Arkadia and loses it a little.
She knew she should not be leaving something so important here, but what other options did she have? She can't let Ontari have it and she definitely can't walk into Arkadia with it in her pocket. In the best case scenario, Pike would throw it into some storage room, and in the worst case he could destroy it. Then the last thing that reminds her will be... Clarke shook her head to get rid of the thought. She was not ready to think this way. The flame will be safe here until she will solve the mess that her people created.
She sighed and got on the path she was sure that leads to Arkadia. She couldn't help the humorless laugh that escaped her at the thought of her people. She was always telling Lexa that everything she did was for her people, and now... All she can think of now is the flame, the lifeless body of the commander on her bed, and black blood. Oh so much black blood on her hands.
She shook her head again and punched the closest tree with all her strength. "How is it that..." another punch. "...everyone I care about..." and another one. "...always die?" Tears slowly started falling down her cheeks. "My dad, Wells, Finn, and now her…" She punched the tree one more time before she fell on her knees full on balling. "They're all dead because of me." It was just a whisper - quiet enough that she could convince herself she never actually said it.
Clarke was sitting on the ground for some time, quietly sobbing until she looked at her hand. She saw her bloodied knuckles from all the punching. She wiped her nose on her sleeve and dried her eyes. Luckily she had taken a few supplies in her backpack. She opened it, took a cloth out of it and wrapped her hand. Clarke quickly recognized the memory that came to mind, but she pushed it back and quickly stood up. "Ai laik Wanheda. It's time to show my peop..." She quickly stopped herself and shook her head once again. "Ai laik Wanheda." Her eyes hardened. "Ai laik kom no kru." She nodded to herself and started walking in the direction of Arkadia. "It's time to show Skaikru why are grounders so afraid of me."
Clarke got through the blockade without much trouble. The name that the grounders gave her still held some power, and she had some extra time before Ontari would find out how to recover the missing flame.
She was standing in the tree line wondering if she should go through the secret passage that Octavia showed her, but there was a big chance that Pike already knew about that. So she just straightened her back and went to front gate. She heard shouts from guards from a few of the watchtowers, so she raised her hands to show them that she is no threat, for now, but her steps didn't falter until the gate opened.
Clarke started lowering her arms when she heard Pike coming her way. "I would keep them up if I was you, Clarke!"
The blonde obeyed. She saw Bellamy trailing behind Pike with an expression full of sadness and regret. When he heard Pike saying Clarke's name his eyes quickly darted over to see if it was really her.
Pike stopped in front of her while two of his guards stood slightly behind her with their guns aimed at her. "Clarke Griffin..." He paused for a moment and then added in mocking tone, "…Or is it only Wanheda now?"
Clarke clenched her jaw but otherwise did nothing.
"We should talk inside. You probably don't realize it, but here outside of our gates it's dangerous for civilized people." With that he turned around and marched back inside.
Bellamy gave her one last apologetic look and followed Pike.
One of the guards behind her shoved her with his gun. "Move!" She glared at him but obeyed anyway.
Clarke was not prepared for what she saw inside the walls of Arkadia. Lincoln, Sinclair and Kane on their knees in one line with their hands tied behind their backs. "What the hell?" When she looked on the other side of the line she knew what she would find. The bodies of the grounders that were held captive in Arkadia were scattered across the ground, each with one hollow hole in their heads.
Pike turned to the guards who were holding three men on the ground. "Take them back to prison. Their execution will have to wait. Now I have another job." Once he finished his orders he turned to Clarke. "We will talk about Lexa."
Clarke tensed at the name, so much hate laced in for such a beautiful name. 'He of all people has no right!' She growled and punched Pike right in his smug face and felt his nose break underneath her knuckles.
Before anyone else could react she faced the guards behind her and jumped on the closest one. His gun fell from his hands and lander too far for his reach. She landed a few punches before she decided it was not enough. Clarke had too much anger in her body and needed a better way to release it. So she plunged her thumbs into his eyes and while he was screaming his lungs out she only pushed deeper. She heard Pike screaming that they need her alive when she felt someone grabbing her arm. The blonde spun around, swiftly got out of the grip, and punched the person in the guts with all her might. He began to squirm in pain as he roughly fell to his knees.
Clarke unsheathed her dagger. 'Really... It's amazing how stupid these people can be - not even checking for a weapon or tying me up.' She thought to herself before slicing the guard's neck. Splashes of a blood covered her face. She raised three fingers and dragged from her hairline, over the right eye, and down her face. When she looked at them all she could think was blood. She smelled it in the air, she saw it on her fingers, and she felt it on her face.
Clarke rose from the ground and looked around. 'Blood.'
No one moved they were all just watching her in shock. She saw fear in eyes of everyone. 'Blood.'
She saw Kane and even Bellamy watching her scared that they would be her next victim. 'Blood.'
Then her eyes fell on Lincoln. He didn't have his usual emotionless look on his face. Even he looked startled and surprised. Clarke thought she even saw an amount of awe on his face. 'Blood.'
Lincoln fell to his knees while his eyes were still on Clarke and whispered, "Wanheda."
She gripped her dagger tighter. 'Blood.'
She could her Lexa's voice in her head. 'We are who we are.' Her eyes hardened. 'Then I am Wanheda…but Wanheda is not leaving witnesses, is she?'
After her final thoughts everything happened so fast. She jumped on the remaining guard and started stabbing him in the stomach. Even when she knew he had already died she continued stabbing him and screaming at his blank face.
'For everything I lost to these people, for everything I sacrificed for them, for everything they took away.'
She didn't notice her mother standing in the doorway of the fallen Ark, watching her with horrified expression. 'Blood.'
…She didn't notice Miller and Harper running from Ark to help the prisoners. 'Blood.'
…She didn't notice Octavia at Lincoln's side kissing him, or when she saw Clarke and her eyes went wide. 'Blood.'
…And she didn't notice Pike, who with one hand was holding his bleeding nose and with other grasped to an electric stick.
All that she could think of was blood, blood, blood! She didn't feel the first electroshock going through her body, but then came second followed by a third. She turned from the pool of blood that had formed under the body of the butchered man and tried to fight off her attackers, but it was too late and there was too many of them. She managed to lay a few more blows, maybe even cut someone, but soon she was laying on the ground unable to move.
She felt two pairs of hands grabbing her and dragging her inside of the Ark and then everything went black.
"I don't care if you will have to destroy half of the Ark I want her chained to the wall! She blinded one of my guards and killed two others, one of them is hardly recognizable now." Clarke heard silent muttering around her, she guessed they were responses to Pike. "Half of my people are in medical right now! Just finish it before she wakes up!" Another electroshock went through her body and darkness embraced her again.
Translations:
Ai laik Wanheda – I am Wanheda
Ai laik kom no kru – I'm clanless.
next time: Clarke will be reunited with some people and they will have a little chat