I really miss this show. Thankfully we still have fanfiction! I suck at updating stories and coming up with good ideas so I'm 98% this is a one-shot, or possibly a series of one-shots. Whatever I make it out to be, I hope you enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don't own SWAC.

"See, Chad? This is why we can't go through with it. We can't get along!" She all but screamed at me.

I looked around our apartment, running my hand through my hair in frustration and panic. This is the third time this week that this has happened.

"Sonny, calm down."

"Do NOT tell me to calm down. We've been fighting, worse than usual. We can never agree on anything. I think we just need to-"

"I swear to God, if you finish that sentence-"

"Break up."

I closed my eyes and breathed forcefully out of my nose. "You know, ever since I proposed you find any reason to try to break it off. If you don't want to be with me, tell me. Stop making excuses."

"I do want to be with you," she protested.

"Obviously not." I snapped, shaking my head. "You've ended it three times this week. Yeah, I really see the desire to have a life and build a family with me."

"I just want to make sure this is the right decision.." She trailed off quietly.

"Oh, please!" I scoffed. "You know we're meant to be together. We've been together for years and we've made it work. Your past relationships were shit and now you're afraid to make a commitment because you think you'll get hurt. But I'm not going to hurt you; I would never leave you, and I definitely wouldn't cheat on you. I don't know what else you want from me."

She stared at me silently with tears running down her cheeks.

"Fine," I said, resigned. "I'll go. The engagement is off."

Tears fell more freely now. "Chad," she cried, desperate.

I turned back to look at her and felt my stomach drop. Tears ran down her face, her arms crossed across her chest and her slim frame shook slightly. A thick silence filled the room, the discomfort palpable. I turned and walked quickly down the hallway to our bedroom, grabbing my keys, wallet, and a change of clothes and tried to ignore the pain and her cries. I wanted to be angry -I was- but I groaned internally at the sorrow and guilt that accompanied the anger. I shouldn't feel guilty, she chose this.

I grabbed my stuff and returned to the living room. Sonny was in the same spot where I left her and she rubbed her eyes aggressively. It broke my heart to see her in pain but I knew I needed to leave. I wrapped my hand around the back of her neck and kissed her forehead, breathing her in and memorizing the feel of her warm skin one last time. She slowly began to lean in and I pulled away without a word, opening the door and slamming it shut on the way out. I drove to the nearest hotel and desperately tried to pay attention to the road.

"Room for two?" The lady asked with an eyebrow raised. She probably recognizes me. I frowned as I recalled all the girls I'd taken here. I'd never had sex with any girl besides Sonny, nor had I fooled around. The farthest I'd gone with any other girl was a heavy make-out, but I'd take them here for a good charming. CDC always had to charm the ladies.

I smiled politely. "No, thank you. Just one."

I sighed dejectedly as I got into bed, replaying tonight's events in my head. Had I overreacted and been too dramatic? Possibly. A large part of me knew this wasn't the end of us, but a smaller part of me was still afraid. I've never walked out on Sonny after a fight. I always stayed and forced us to work it out and if that wasn't accomplished, I'd sleep in a guest room or in the living room. But this time was necessary; she needed to realize that she can't keep trying to end it. All of the problems and fights were introduced and initiated by her. When we were teens, I would always start fights to get her riled up. But this was beyond ridiculous. We were 22 now, both with successful careers and planning on starting a life together. Apparently we weren't on the same page with that one. Although I understood her hesitation and fear, it was still undeniably hard on me. Sighing and shaking my head, I tossed and turned until I fell into a restless sleep, tonight's happenings put aside but not forgotten.

I got nervous butterflies as I turned to door knob, pushing open the door to our apartment. I frowned when I took in the scene. Shattered glass lay all over the living room floor, broken picture frames strung out with ripped up pictures of Sonny and I. She lay on the floor, breathing quickly and lightly. Her hands and arms were streaked and splotched with blood. I frowned as I sat on the floor, pushing her matted hair out of her face, which had dry tears and blood on it. Her eyes fluttered open and she stared at me with empty eyes.

"Sonny.." I faltered, struggling to remain calm. "What did you do?" That wasn't the right question. It was painfully obvious what she did. The better question would be why.

She lay still, limp but stiff. She wouldn't meet my eyes; wouldn't even look at me. I clenched my fists in frustration.

"Sonny!"

She sniffled as tears ran down her and cheeks and she sat up, slightly wobbly. "We're not getting married."

"No." I agreed. "We're not. At least not any time soon."

"I'm sorry," she hiccuped, rubbing tears off of her face, smearing the blood. "I wish I was better for you."

I smiled sadly. "You're perfect, Sonshine. You're.." I sighed. "We're just not ready. And that's fine. We have the rest of our lives to figure it out. And if we don't work out, at least we can say we tried."

"I want us to work." She mumbled quietly, staring at our fingers laced together.

I swallowed the lump in my throat and let out a shaky laugh. "Believe me, I do too."

"You're not going to leave?" She questioned, her big brown eyes meeting mine intensely. "You'll stay?"

"As long as you want me here," I promised, smiling reassuringly.

"Thank you, Chaddy." She giggled, but the happy sound didn't reach her eyes. I knew it would take us awhile to fully recover from this. "I love you."

I pushed away my musings and focused on the beautiful girl in front of me. "I love you too."

I knew a lot about Sonny. She's a huge pain in the ass, stubborn beyond belief, and loves picking a fight over nothing. I also knew that there's nobody else in the world I'd want more than her, and through all her faults, she's absolutely worth it.