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Turtlequeen2: This is a new project I'm trying out. It's a three chapter story mainly about Kagome and Inuyasha's relationship. Includes poems and a small plot. Romance for the two, but including Kikyou….it wouldn't be Inuyasha without her interference would it?

So for those of you who like my poetry, this is a small little fluff story of Inu/Kags. Please enjoy and review!

I do not own Inuyasha, only Rumiko Takahashi does. It's only wishful thinking…

Chapter 1: Kagome to Inuyasha

What Am I to You?

The Miko from the Future was pressing her pen to the paper with haste. She was only glanced up to see those familiar golden eyes look back at her. The eyes were accompanied by the flow of silver hair and cute dog-like ears on the top of the person's head. The hanyou was staring at her in interest. He sat near her in a dog-like fashion, his red haori and hakama ruffling in the cold night wind.

She then looked around at her other friends who were all currently sleeping near the fire. The monk and the taijiya were far apart after the earlier incidents with his groping hand. Shippou, the small kitsune, laid curled up with Kirara, the neko-youkai in her kitten form.

"Kagome, what are you writing? Is it for another one of your spell book things?" came the familiar hanyou's voice. The miko looked back at Inuyasha and shook her head absentmindedly.

"No, it's just my journal," she explained softly.

Inuyasha raised his eyebrow in curiosity. "What's a journal?" he asked, his ears flicking in attentiveness.

Kagome heaved a sigh. "It's something I write in to explain my day. To put down my thoughts and keep a record for my memories."

"I've never seen you use it before," Inuyasha stated matter-of-factly.

" I just found it recently and decided to put it back into use," came Kagome's explanation.

"Oh? So can I see it?" he asked.

Kagome suddenly stiffened up. "No! It's something for only me to see!"

Inuyasha crossed his arms and narrowed his eyes at her. "Keh! Fine! You don't need to jump down my throat over it!" he half-yelled, not trying to wake up the rest of the group.

The miko only rolled her eyes though she felt guilty for how she reacted. 'Ok, so maybe I was a little too harsh…' she thought as she cast a look at the brooding hanyou with his back turned to her.

A determined expression crossed her face. 'I still have to get this done!' she exclaimed in her mind. She took on a concentrated look as she began to once again, scribble down words into her notebook. There was a reason that she didn't want Inuyasha to see what was written in her journal. It was mainly the fact that she confessed things in there that she didn't want him to see. Mostly about her loving him and her thoughts about his relationship with Kikyou.

As she continued to write, she reached her hand up to her mouth to stifle a yawn. Inuyasha didn't fail to pick up on it. He cast a glance at her over his shoulder while she wasn't looking up.

"You should get some sleep," he murmured less gruff than before. "We're leaving first thing in the morning."

Kagome heaved a sigh. "I know. I'll go to sleep after I finish this," she said with determination despite the fact that her eyes were half-shut.

Inuyasha rolled his eyes, his back still turned to her. She was one stubborn woman! Anyone could easily tell that Kagome was making herself stay awake. His face furrowed in thought. 'What the hell is so important that she has to force herself to stay awake in order to write?'

He had no time to think, for the potent smell of tears filled his senses. He stiffened up, hating when any woman was crying. He nervously turned to see his greatest fear. Kagome's back shuddering as she was sobbing silently.

"K…kagome?" he asked, his eyes wide with surprise. What the hell was going on?

She continued to ignore him as she finished her writing, putting the pen away with a trembling hand. Her shoulders shook as she tried her hardest to look away from his worried eyes.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" he demanded impulsively. His tone was underlined with concern even though it sounded uncaring.

Kagome knew him well enough to know that he was only worried about her so she didn't bother with a glare. It wasn't in her intent to actually cry in front of him. 'I knew I should've waited until he was asleep…' she thought in a sigh. 'But then again, he'd probably smell my tears and wake up anyways…'

"I…it's nothing Inuyasha," she lied, trying to stop herself from shedding more tears. The more she cried, the more Inuyasha would get suspicious to know why she was crying.

"Don't lie to me wench! You don't just cry about nothing!" Inuyasha exclaimed. He knew that it had something to do with the things she was writing about.

Kagome let out a sigh. She then turned to him and forced a smile. "It's nothing you'd care about," she said, trying to avert the subject.

His eyes narrowed. "Try me," he replied.

Kagome wanted to smack her hand to her forehead, but held in the urge. 'I didn't expect him to want to know so badly! Usually he'd just stop talking about it after the first time I try to change the subject.'

"Um…well…it was a song I listened to. Yea that's it!" Kagome said more to herself as she tried to lie again. A sudden smile formed as she mentally congratulated herself on her fast thinking.

"A song?" Inuyasha asked, not believing her for one second.

"Yea, when I was writing, it suddenly popped into the my head. It was about this woman who talked to the her love's grave because she couldn't get over grieving over him," she continued, thinking up the idea as it flew across her mind.

"Keh!" came the hanyou's only response. "So how did the human die?" he asked in slight interest after a minute of silence.

Kagome made a thoughtful face as she pondered this. "Well it didn't say, though it seemed like the man died trying to protect her."

Inuyasha's eyes widened slightly.

She continued," It reminds me of Sango-chan and Miroku-sama in a way." She knew very well that it also reminded them both about themselves, but Kagome didn't dare bring it up. Not wanting anymore questioning, she walked over towards her sleeping bag and crawled in. "Goodnight Inuyasha," she nearly whispered as she yawned again, once again taken over by sleepiness.

As she immediately succumbed to sleep, Inuyasha only shook his head. "I knew that she was tired," he murmured under his breath, a small smirk forming on his face.

He turned his back to walk over to the tree above them to rest in. However, he was stopped by Kagome's sudden whimpering. He raised his eyebrow and turned back to see that she was shivering. In her rush to get to sleep, she forgot to put the cover back over herself.

Sighing, he crept beside her and cautiously reached out to cover her. He was surprised to find the notebook still open and in the underside of the covers as he pulled back on them. The hanyou noticed immediately, the scribbled handwriting and the kanji that spelled out his name.

Curiosity got the better of him as he picked up the notebook, careful not to ruffle the pages. He walked over to his perch in the tree and hopped into it, as to be a safe away from the miko. Just as he suspected, she was lying about why she was crying. He knew this because he could clearly see and smell the tears that fell onto the parchment.

The hanyou's eyes widened as he began to read the entry addressed to his name. It was as if she was writing to him!

Inuyasha

What am I to you?

Kikyou or myself?

A friend or something more?

Someone to love or hate?

My heart yearns for your answer

Yet at the same time I am scared

Scared that you choose her over me

Scared that I might loose you

You always run off to her

Then turn around to come back to me

"What the hell are you thinking?"

That is the same question I think over and over again

I am growing weary of being second best

Am I only here for your convenience?

No, I should stop thinking that

You have already told me time and time again

That I am more to you than just a jewel detector

Still, why don't you just put Kikyou in our group and push me

Back down the well from whence I came?

Aren't I too weak?

I must be nuts,

I am starting to think that Sesshoumaru is onto something

Emotions are for the weak

As long this goes on

My heart and soul will continue to go on clenching

Clenching in hurt and pain and yearning

So what am I to you?

I hardly doubt that I'll ever let you see this

I'm too frightened to

What would your reaction be?

To know that I loved you?

My tears show that enough when I cry by your side

Every time you get injured

When you are near death

So am I wasting my time,

Thinking that you'd ever return the feelings I have for you?

Kikyou often says that I am not supposed to be here

That I should stand aside

But I will not!

Until I hear the words from YOUR mouth

I am here to stay

All because I promised to stay by your side

And I won't go back on it

Inuyasha's eyes were wide as flying saucers. His jaw dropped before he could stop it. She loved him!

"…Kagome loves me?" Inuyasha asked himself. If he didn't witness her writing it in front of him, he would've never believed it. A big grin found it way to his face as he thought about Kouga's face if he knew about this. The grin was also from the sheer thought of Kagome loving him; a hanyou.

His ears then flattened against his skull as a full wave of guilt came over him. His gold eyes narrowed in thought. "Kuso! I had no idea! What will I do now? With Kikyou and Kagome…" he muttered under his breath.

'I love them both. Dammit! This is too much to handle now, but I know that I have to choose eventually. Kagome is my present,' he began, then continued,' but Kikyou is my past…Why the hell does this have to be so hard!' he finished bitterly.

An idea then popped into his head. He stopped his maze of endless thoughts as he crept over to Kagome's backpack and pulled out the pen and jumped back into his perch. He smirked and then took on a more concentrated look as he began to write in rushed kanji. What a state of surprise she'll be in…

Of course that's if she wasn't too angry to sit him to hell for finding out that he read her entry despite her warnings against it…

So what shall Inuyasha write back? Stay tuned!

Kuso - Shit/Damn

Please review!

Ja ne!