Dear Die-ary
Ch. 1: Pain
A/N: Hello. This was a piece of crap I wrote while stuck in a hospital because the voices in my head threatened to kill me...I'm insane. YAY!!!!!! But seriously, I'm on meds. My psychiatrist watches me like a hawk. I have no freedom... Evanescence owns the song 'Whisper'. This is Johnny's POV here. My anti-psychosis pills are making me sleepy...Unnn...
Dear Die-ary,
Fuck. I've split more blood today. I do not know why I do this. Can anyone remember a time when I did not slaughter children while their mammas watched? What has made me like this, have I always been this sick?! There must have been a time when I didn't kill. Dr. Phil, here I come.
* Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself...*
I want to stop hurting. I want to stop killing. This monster in my head needs to die. Die, die-that's it! To get rid of this beast I must do away with myself! It would be better this way. No one cares about me. Devi-she still hates me, I know that. I love her. I love her more than life itself. I hope she realizes that when I'm gone.
* This truth drives me into madness
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
+ Don't turn away
Don't give in to the pain
Don't try to hide
Though screaming your name
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn out the light
Never sleep, never die + *
I'll finally be able to live the life I wanted, if I come back again. But, I hope, that I don't come back. I want to live the life of eternal damnation I know I'll have. Nothing matters any longer. I am sorry to every family who has lost a life at my hands. I'm so sorry for the pain I have caused you all over the years. Please someone hear my cry.
* I'm frightened by what I see
But some how I know that there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be blinded by tears
I can stop the pain if I will it all away
+ Don't turn away
Don't give in to the pain
Don't try to hide
Though screaming your name
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn out the light
Never sleep, never die + *
I hope that any one I've frightened with the ghastly shit I've done, I ask that you find it somewhere in your bleeding hearts to forgive me. I'm going now. I bid you all a very fond farewell.
* Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in?
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for, I rise to meet the end *
Goodbye...
A/N: Wow, I didn't know I could write something so sad...WAHHHHH!!!
Ch. 1: Pain
A/N: Hello. This was a piece of crap I wrote while stuck in a hospital because the voices in my head threatened to kill me...I'm insane. YAY!!!!!! But seriously, I'm on meds. My psychiatrist watches me like a hawk. I have no freedom... Evanescence owns the song 'Whisper'. This is Johnny's POV here. My anti-psychosis pills are making me sleepy...Unnn...
Dear Die-ary,
Fuck. I've split more blood today. I do not know why I do this. Can anyone remember a time when I did not slaughter children while their mammas watched? What has made me like this, have I always been this sick?! There must have been a time when I didn't kill. Dr. Phil, here I come.
* Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself...*
I want to stop hurting. I want to stop killing. This monster in my head needs to die. Die, die-that's it! To get rid of this beast I must do away with myself! It would be better this way. No one cares about me. Devi-she still hates me, I know that. I love her. I love her more than life itself. I hope she realizes that when I'm gone.
* This truth drives me into madness
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
+ Don't turn away
Don't give in to the pain
Don't try to hide
Though screaming your name
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn out the light
Never sleep, never die + *
I'll finally be able to live the life I wanted, if I come back again. But, I hope, that I don't come back. I want to live the life of eternal damnation I know I'll have. Nothing matters any longer. I am sorry to every family who has lost a life at my hands. I'm so sorry for the pain I have caused you all over the years. Please someone hear my cry.
* I'm frightened by what I see
But some how I know that there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be blinded by tears
I can stop the pain if I will it all away
+ Don't turn away
Don't give in to the pain
Don't try to hide
Though screaming your name
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn out the light
Never sleep, never die + *
I hope that any one I've frightened with the ghastly shit I've done, I ask that you find it somewhere in your bleeding hearts to forgive me. I'm going now. I bid you all a very fond farewell.
* Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in?
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for, I rise to meet the end *
Goodbye...
A/N: Wow, I didn't know I could write something so sad...WAHHHHH!!!