Just to clear misconception. Ritsu DID fall in love with Takano during High-school FIRST. When he left for America, he was heartbroken and decided not to fall in love again. However, One guy was able to change that. He started to fall for him,little by little but an ACCIDENT happened and he return to Japan shortly after it happen.

Just another story. Hope its better than the previous one. ENJOY:)

CHAPTER 1

As each day went by, Ritsu is getting more confused. "Do I still have feelings for HIM?" It was a question he thought everyday. "I know I still have feelings for him but..." He tried to immerse himself with loads of work to forget about this. Eveything was cramp in that tiny brain. He felt that he was about to break down. It was hard enough being a manga editor since this is the first time he is doing it , what's more he had to deal with all these feelings for his boss. He was on the verge of tears but he would never let it show. He didn't want people to think that he is weak.

It was already past midnight and he was the only one left in the building. Even his boss has gone home."Lucky he has gone home if not I would have to deal with him again." Ritsu let out a sigh of relief.

The sun expired to envelope the world in street was deserted, there was not a single soul out there. Many would be scared to walk alone in the dark however Ritsu was not bother by was nothing compared to what he had been through. That was like eternal darkness, the feeling of loneliness, never ending.

Ritsu was walking along the deserted street while checking his phone. He noticed that he marked tomorrow as an important day on his calendar. He just could not remember but he knows that its important. Couldn't remember, he just cast the thought aside.

As the train station has already close about few hours ago, he took a longer way home. As he passed by the empty streets, the sweet scent from the sakura trees engulfed him. It feels so nostalgic as if he was at the same place again and his mind just sort of lets go of everything and feels all tingly and outdated like looking at old vintage things.

Upon reaching his door step, he remembered. All those horrible thoughts appear again. Tears trickling down his cheeks. The blank, emotionless expression swept over his face as the realization of the moment gradually seeped in. The fear seemed to rise behind his eyes. Paralyzed by the tragic feeling of loneliness,he gently whispered to himself, "Haitani! ."

Too immerse in his thoughts, he didn't notice his boss was outside, moreover, waiting for him. Takano got shocked by the sight of it. "What happened? " Takano asked, concern about him. Rubbing away his tears, "Its nothing. I'm okay, thanks for your concern. " He pushed Takano away but to no avail. Takano just pulled him in and kiss him passionately.

" Stop! Stop this!" He tried to say in between moans. When Takano finally let go, Ritsu step back and broke down. "Stop doing this! I have had enough of this. Do you even consider how I feel?!" Before Takano could reply, Ritsu started again. " No! You never! You only did what you wanted! Ritsu shouted. Takano look with eyes opening as wide as an ocean. He has always tease him before but had never seen him this angry. Takano step forward to hold him but was slapped away by him. " Don't touch me! You don't have the rights! You don't even know anything about me and you say you love me?! Don't be ridiculous!" Ritsu let out a small laugh.

Leaving a astonish Takano outside the corridor, Ritsu ran inside his apartment and started crying his heart out. He could not hold back any longer, remembering all those things in the past had made him fall apart again. It was so unbearable, the images of the past keep flashing through his mind. Those were the most happy moments of his life and he wish it could stay that way forever however in reality not all would have a fairytale ending. And unfortunately, he was not the lucky ones.

He hated himself, how he wish he was the one that could leave this world. If he could go back in time, he could have stop it from happening. It took him a long time to forgot about him but now it seems that he is back to square one.

" Haitani! Haitani, why did you leave?!" Ritsu cried out. " I..if..., if...I could. .s...stop..." His tears just kept flowing like a broken tap. He shivered as fear took over him. His shiny amour that once protected him is now starting to fall apart. Slowly he's letting his emotions get the best of him.

For the rest of the night , he just sat there crying himself to sleep. Thinking about those sweet moments with Haitani.

Meanwhile outside at the corridor, Takano was taken aback by Ritsu sudden break down. He wanted to go and comfort him but he knows that it would just cause him more grief. So a wise choice was to just let him be alone until he has calm down. It hurts him to watch His Ritsu being so sad but could not do anything about it .

NEXT DAY

Morning arrived sooner than the anyone have expected. Takano went through another round of his morning routine before embarking on his journey to work. He wanted to knock on his neighbour's door to see whether his Ritsu has heal from yesterday's break down however a call cut through his thoughts. " What do you want so early in the morning?! Yokozawa." It was Yokozawa on the phone, he wanted to remind the raven to buy the rose for HIM before coming to work. And so he went off without waking the brunette, thinking that he is probably asleep. "He should be in office before I go to work." Takano thought.

However, what Takano did not know was that Ritsu had already gone out even before the break of dawn.

IN THE EMERALD DEPARTMENT

Takano has just came to work with a fresh bouquet of flowers in his hands. No one questioned him as they knew who it was for and did not really want Takano to remember those bad memories.

Takano noticed that Onodera's seat was empty so he questioned the others," Have anyone of you saw Onodera?" "Nope. Maybe he's out with his girlfriend~." Kisa san joke. This irritates Takano to the core. " He wouldn't dare!" He thought. "I just heard that his has taken a day off." Hatori strolled in and said.

" He's still..." Mino cut off his thoughts. "Takano san did you know what happened to him. You know, he has been acting very weirdly recently." "No. I don't. " Takano lied, knowing that he must be the cause. "But that never happened before when I tease him. Maybe I have cross the line this time. I'll drop by later to check on him. " Takano cast the thought aside and went back to his work.

AFTER WORK

"You ready?" Yokazawa appeared out of no where and asked. " Give me a sec." Takano gathered his things and dumped it into his bag. " The faster I get this done with ,the faster I can go home." "Where's He?" Takano didn't need to asked who he refers to. "Day off" Takano reply bluntly. "You gave it?" "Would never." The conversation died off as they walked towards their destination.

As the moonlight casts its eerie shadow on the path that lie ahead, the two went in the huge patch of land labelled, "GRAVEYARD".The fog hangs on the stones of the dead like a heavy, suffocating sheath, casting a relentless misery on all who trespass through it as death welcomes them breath by breath. The deafening silence is pierce through by the shrieks of blackened crows. The tomb stones were neatly align in a straight row, one after another. These stones of cold withering cement witnessing the tears of laughter, and tears of guilt awaiting every shadow's lament.

It didn't took them long to find thy one, like they always did. However, upon reaching, a black figure kneeled there ,with cries filling the air.