Just a short story. Just happen to write it so why not post it. I know my writing is bad but I want to try to improve. So here...

( The Letter)

Dear Takano san,

If you are reading this, it must mean that I'm not here anymore. Please don't come and find me. Please don't wait for me too. I'll not be here anymore. I know its selfish to have kept it a secret from you but I don't want you to be sad. It hurts when I know you are sad.

Through all these time, I finally realize how much I love you. But I could never admit it. I was afraid that it might end up like the last time during high school. I was so scared to get hurt again. You have no idea how much I love you then, my heart was about to jump out when you accept my confession. I was over the moon delighted. I would never thought that you would accept me as a guy.

I am afraid that you will reject me. I always had nightmares about how disgusted you will be when you find out that I'm gay. I never thought that I would pour out all my feelings in front of you,it seems that whenever I am near you I just can't seem to be myself. I would somehow be very nervous, I will start to panicked when I'm around you. I just couldn't calm down, like a high school girl falling head over heels.

Although subsequently, our relationship came to an end to quickly. Even though the time we spent together was short, it was one of the best times I had in my life.

Remember the time when I ask you if we were dating, you laughed at my speech. I was so hurt and dejected. I felt like a thousand swords has sliced through my heart. From that day on, I promise myself to never fall in love again. So I put up a barrier around me to stop me from feelings any emotions.

But... when I met you again, I couldn't help but start to fall in love with you again. I hated myself for this. At first I thought that it was just a normal feeling but as each day passes I started to realize that the feelings that I have for you is getting stronger and stronger. My heart would always beat faster when you are near, I would be blushing madly just by the sound of your sweet and seductive voice. You would always be in my mind, I could never forget you even if I tried to. You are the most important person to me, I had confirmed that.

Every time I wanted to confess, the thoughts of being heart broken, being alone was just too intense. I really love you but...I just didn't have the courage to do so. I know that a sorry cannot fix everything but I really want to apologise to you for waiting for a useless person like me. I was an idoit not to accept you.

After many mental augments, I was ready to confess, but reality strikes me. I know that I could never be with you. We are not destined to be with each other. Fate is always just so cruel when lady like is beside you. Maybe that what's I get when I missed my chance, too bad for me.

Maybe after I'm gone you'll find true happiness. I know that deep down Yokozawa still loves you very much. Please don't let him down like what I did to you. Promise me you'll forget everything about us , move on and start anew! Be the best shojuo editor in the world. I know you'll be able to.

Had love you and always will.

Love

Onodera Ritsu

As Takano read the last few words, tears started trickling down his cheeks. He never knew that Ritsu was so much in love with him. He regretted not noticing it. "Why did you leave me? I miss you so much. If we could go back to the past...maybe our ending will be different." He said as he drifted himself to sleep clutching onto something in his hand.

By morning, his fist was lose, the Thing was gone and he could never find it again.

There the ring was broken in half on the floor of the raven's bed. Half of it says "Love you" while the other "From Ritsu". The one that he always hold so dear was gone Forever. ... He would never appear in his life again. Not now, not ever.