My Almost Lover: I Still Love You Chapter 1: The Beginning, a kingdom hearts fanfic

Almost Lover: I still Love You

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Your fingertips across my skin,
The palm trees swaying in the wind,
Images,
You sang me Spanish lullabies,
The sweetest sadness in your eyes,
Clever trick.

Roxas and Axel sat on the bench of Twilight Town High School, eating lunch finally away from Sora and Riku for the first time in forever. Axel looked at Roxas, mentally giggling in a perverted way at how innocent and sweet Roxas looked. His emerald eyes glinted, " Roxy, you want to hang out after school today?" Roxas closed his eyes, trying to remember if he had anything to do… "Sure!" Aquamarine eyes brightened and Roxas smiled, as he thought of how perfect today was… "Hey, don't call me Roxy, you giant." Axel laughed out loud, and grabbed Roxas' hand as they headed to their next class.

The bell rang to dismiss all the students from the prison, and amidst all the high school students, Roxas and Axel walked out talking from their last art class. Roxas looked up at Axel, and laughed as Axel started making fun of what Mrs. Aerith had said to another classmate. Roxas looked at the sky, and smiled softly, "It's so beautiful, isn't it?" Axel agreed and put his arm around Roxas, like he used to do before they date. "Let's go to the beach, midget. I have to tell you something important." Roxas looked worried, but they made their way to the solitary beach.

Roxas' honey dew blond hair was ruffled by the wind as they reached it, and then looked at Axel, "What… is it?"

Axel looked nervous and sad at the same time,"Tomorrow, I have to go back to Hollow Bastion." his hoarse voice lowly reaching Roxas' ears.

Roxas looked at him, his eyes widening angrily,"No! Why…Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

"Because I didn't want you to react-" Axel was cut off as Roxas stood up angrily and started walking away. "Roxy, no! I love you! COME BACK!"

Axel stood up and ran after him, the red spikes rummaged by the wind.

"Go away,then! Just l-leave me! " Roxas tripped on the sand crying.

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

He stumbled and he lay there crying, as the light dimmed over the ocean. Axel's pale hand came down to hold one of Roxas' and the other to rub his back and to stroke through the blonde's hair. "R-Roxy, I don't want to leave! I have to!"

Roxas sniffled, and asked in a soft, hurt voice," How long will you be gone?"

Axel coughed and looked down, his voice hoarse and soft again,"...2 years."

Roxas cried even harder as Axel rubbed his hair and a tear dropped down his cheek.

"I thought you loved me," Roxas said in a hollow, desperate voice.

"I told you, It's not my choice!" Axel yelled desperately, crying harder but silently now.

Roxas sat up, then put his pale arms around the redhead's body and leaning on his shoulder, fell asleep on the beach, maybe trying to forget it. Anything to forget it, even if it's just for the night.

Axel and Roxas both sniffed but sat there silently, and Roxas fell asleep against Axel, Axel gathering him silently in his lap and watching him sleep with red-green eyes.

-I want to freeze this moment..i Want him to be why does it seem like I'm hurting him more, than being the boyfriend i wish i could be?-

The sun rose, and Axel had to leave in two hours. Roxas shuffled slightly in Axel's arms, looking up at him with sleepy eyes.

"Morning, Axe." He smiled.

Axel's green eyes were tinged with sadness as he leaned down and kisses Roxas softly,"Morning, Roxy."

-2 hours later-

Axel stood by the car, hugging Roxas tightly and kissing him,he whispered in his ear,"I'll be back, Rox. I swear. I love you. I won't forget you."

Roxas whispered back, clear tears sliding from his blue, sweet eyes," I love you too, Axe. Call me...please."

Axel kissed him one last time, and climbed him in the car, saying softly," I will. Never forget that I love you."

"I won't.." Roxas replied softly, as Axel waved and the car drove off. Roxas walked back into his house, murmuring," I can't forget you, so how am i supposed to forget you love me?" Tears dripped down his blue eyes steadily.

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

Roxas thought back two years to when he'd first met Axel as he lay on his blue bed in his room. God, was he handsome. God,...did he miss him. This was torture. His heart was breaking, everything was breaking apart, and he hadn't even been gone for a day. He loved him. How was a person supposed to forget that?

The images of them dancing, hugging, kissing, and making out even. They had been on the verge of the next step…A new set of tears broke out renewed, and Roxas was glad, for once in his life, that his brother, Sora, and his boyfriend ,Riku, would not be home for a while.

Sometimes playing hooky was healthy. Roxas' red eyes stared back at him as he looked in the mirror, then he disappeared back into his bedroom to stifle the sobs that kept renewing themselves from losing his lover, for two years, TWO YEARS!, to be stifled by the white, forgiving pillow.

The next day was Saturday, so Roxas got up about midnight, and drove to the beach. As he walked out onto the beach, the many nights that he and his beloved redhead with emerald eyes had spent there hit him hard. He tried to walk up to one of the restaurants, anywhere, until, at about 2 am, Roxas decided all the memories would kill him, and headed home.

The next day, Roxas was woken up by Sora, as he crashed through the house that they shared, so he could find his backpack to do his homework. Axel immediately flew to his mind, then suddenly he remembered, Oh. He's not here.

His heart ached hard and stinging, and Axel's "I love you" and "Roxy" echoed in his ears.

Suddenly, Roxas flew up in bed, his eyes shooting open, as a thought hit him.

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Roxas huffed, as he changed his shirt, and jeans, and packed his duffel bag full of clothes. He ran into Sora's room, and knocked on the door.

"Sora!" He yelled through the door, "open the freaking door!"

The door flew open, and Sora raised his eyebrow as Roxas fell to the floor."Yes?"

Roxas ran his hand through the blonde spiked hair that he shared with Sora, "Where in Hollow Bastion does Axel live?"

Sora answered hesitantly ," He lives in the castle. Why?"

Roxas yelled, "No reason!" and ran back to his room, to pack something in his bag.

Sora followed him, suddenly seeing the bag," You ARE NOT driving there, Roxas!"

Roxas looked at him seriously," Yes. I am. How would you feel if Riku left for two years?"

Sora got flustered," Th-that's different."

Roxas yelled, a tear rolling down his cheek," It's not! I'll be back when I can… I mean yesterday was the last day of school anyways, for 3 months. I'll be back…"

Sora yelled, trying to stop Roxas," Roxas! Don't leave! You don't even know how to get there! You don't wanna go, I promise."

Roxas yelled back, looking serious and standing at the door," Yes. Yes, I do. I don't care what secrets are there, I just want Axel!"

Sora said softly, his blue eyes looking down," You're not going to say bye first?"

Roxas' face softened, then he walked over to Sora and hugged him," I love you, ok? I'll call you on my cell phone. I promise."

Sora held him tight then leaned against the door and sighed,"Fine… but if our friends ask, I'm telling them where you went.."

Roxas smiled and got in his car," Don't worry. I'll be back, in two days. Love you, big bro."

Sora watched as his brother drove off and sighed, thinking, 'he won't like what he'll remember…"

oohhhh! my first fanfiction and you already have a cliffhanger! so tell me...do you like it? please read and review! itd be great. i just need to know how my first one is liked.

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signed, Raven M.