Better then me
Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN THE CCS CAST!!!
Author's Note: Hey everybody I just wanted to write something really short. I've been into a lot of drama lately and I guess it took most of my time then anything. So I wrote something because truly I really don't want to go crazy because of all the crap that's going on. Anyways this is just a one-time fic but I dedicate this to a really close friend of mine that I lost because of stupid the activities going on between us. Song is by Hinder, which is a kewl ass band. Really good song if you ask me. Yea so enjoy.
I think you can do much better than me
Darkness ran through the room as a figure sat on the bed, holding some kind of picture frame. Lost in though he didn't notice the tears running down his face.
After all the lies I made you believe
In the frame he was staring at, was a picture of himself with an emerald eye beauty in his arms. Both hugging each other as a couple, smiling to the camera, which meant that they were both happy with each other.
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
On the bottom of the picture fame was two engraved names. Under his picture, Syaoran and under the young girl's name was Sakura.
The edge of the bed where your nightgown used to be
He closed his eyes, remembering that memories he missed the most with her. All the times they were with each other, talked on the phone or the times they would just go out with there many friends.
I told myself I wouldn't miss you But I remembered
He also remembered the bad times they were in.
What it feels like beside you
He couldn't forget those painful memories that were in his mind when he lost her the fist time. The time he was without his Ying Fa, His lovely cherry blossom.
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
Those were the most horrible nights in his life. Feeling the loneliness, he had to go through without her.
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
Of course after a while, she usually sneaked on the phone to call him during work hours.
Even though they weren't allowed to speak to each other, they couldn't help but to miss each other's voices that calms their nerves.
While looking through your old box of notes
So they were happy, sneaking around talking only on the phone or they would secretly would just send emails to each other.
I found those pictures that you were looking for
But after a while they couldn't last any longer and they wanted to see each other again.
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
They knew they weren't allowed to see each other, so they played it safe and only talked on the phone.
That time at the mall You and me in the dressing room
Later on after a while of sneaking hellos, they finally got caught.
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
Their parents finally agreed of their children to never talk or see each other again. Because of Syaoran's wild ways, her parents disagree with their relationship.They saw that he was a bad influence towards her and kept her away for her own good.
What it feels like beside you
What was painful though was that he never got to kiss her, to hold her in his arms or even say a simple goodbye.
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
After a short while he started to change.
And I think you should know this
He started to lose his temper more often, got into many fights here and there, but what changed about him the most was that he was a cold-hearted bastard who only cared of himself and those who were close to him.
You deserve much better than me
Those were the most painful days of his life. Just remembering them was starting to piss him off.
The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Those days were the days that he blamed himself for everything. He blamed himself for everything her parents said to him.
Wish I never would've said it's over
He knew everything they said was bullshit, but he should've listened to them when they said to stay away.
And I can't pretend that
But how could he stay away from the beauty he fell in love with?
Stubborn he was…Really stubborn little wolf.
I won't think about you when I'm older
And now that the whole nightmare was over with her family, he still wishes to see her.
He misses her but he hides his feelings from the world around him.
Cause we never really had our closure
He waits for the day he gets to see her again
This can't be the end
To actually tell her his feelings he never lost for her
I really miss your hair in my face
To plead for forgiveness to her family of his mistakes.
And the way your innocence tastes
To kiss her soft lips again….he waits.
And I think you should know this
Waits for the day he see 's his cherry blossom
You deserve much better than me
He opens his eyes again to see the picture again in his hands.
I really miss your hair in my face
He slowly got up and slowly walked toward his dressing stand.
And the way your innocence tastes
He slowly places the frame down and sighs as he stared at it.
And I think you should know this
(you deserve much better then me)
(And I think you should know this)
He slowly whispers before walking out of his room "forgive me Ying fa…"
"Ashiteru….Always"
You deserve much better than me
Well whatcha think? I guess its ok since it kinda happened to me. but anyways thanks for reading . Arigatou!