Who do you want to be like?
When I was asked I didn't know.
Now I can answer…
You.
It may seem strange that I so admire you.
But how could I not?
You demanded that I change,
And any change I've made was because of you.
You were my section leader.
And while most only corrected my technique,
You were the one that made me perform.
You were the one that forced to be confident.
After one show, I said that I wasn't scared anymore.
You told me that after I found confidence marching,
I could transfer that to my life outside of band.
It seems obvious now, but it hadn't occurred to me.
You would say that you used to be like me.
This always surprised me, we were nothing alike.
I still wonder how it's possible.
And why I am so behind where he was then.
A year later I'm still trying to be confident in life,
But I too often find myself silently in a corner.
I want to scream but can only whisper.
Confidence evades me.
Then I see you being loud and obnoxious.
And even though others may think you an idiot,
I see strength in that; you don't care.
You are criticized but still act like yourself.
I see that and I can't help but admire you.
You are, in that way, who I want to be.
Confident. Indifferent to other's thoughts.
You showed me what I need to gain-
I'm still learning; I look to you for motivation.
If you could do it, shouldn't I be able to?
This is a battle that it is possible to win.