Now I pay the price

Pairing: Ereri

Anime: AoT

Eren's P.O.V

I still feel Heichou's boots on my cheeks. 'I know it is for my safety, but did he really had to kick me so hard?' I think to myself. "Oi brat, do you hate me now?" Levi asks while he sets himself next to me on the sofa. "N-n-no I don't hate you I know it was for my own safety" I say. 'I am so stupid' I curse about myself some more in my thoughts when suddenly Levi says: "Eren come with me. This is an order" "Y-y-yes sir" I stumble over the words and follow Levi to his room. I can hear Hanji protesting and Erwin who is calming her down.

"Why are we here, sir?" I asks in a whisper voice just loud enough for Levi to hear. "We are here because we need to clean you up, don't we?" he answers, walks past me and locks the door. 'This is bad, so bad' I repeated this a few times in my head when Levi suddenly stands in front of me. "Brat, look at me when I'm talking to you" he says. "Y-yes sir!" I answer a little bit in shock. "Did you hear what I said to you?" "N-n-no I didn't hear it" I stumble. "I said: 'Take off your shirt and pants and go sit on the bed then I will get a washcloth.' Do you hear me now?" Levi says a bit annoyed. "Why do I have to take off my pants?" I asks slowly. "So I can clean you properly" Levi answers while rolling his eyes. "Okay" I answer back and start to take off my shirt and pants and walk to the bed. Levi went to the bathroom next to his bedroom and came back with a washcloth. I try to remember the last time I took a shower or washed myself. "Eren look at me" Levi says, I came back to reality and turn my head to Levi so he can wash my face. The washcloth touches my face and I shiver. "What's wrong?" Levi asks, I think I could hear a bit of concern, but I must be mistaken. "Nothing, it's just cold." Levi stands up and walks to the bathroom with the washcloth. When he came back after a few seconds, he holds the washcloth against my cheek and asks: "Is it still cold?" Now I really heard concern in his voice. "No it isn't" I answer and he continues to wash my face.

When he was done with my face, Levi slowly put the washcloth against my chest, I start to blush for no reason. 'Why the hell am I blushing? What is this feeling? Why am I feeling it now? What is wrong with me?' All these questions rush through my head. When I suddenly feel a pair of soft lips against mine. I look at Levi in shock and then slowly close my eyes and deepen the kiss. 'Why is he doing this? Why does this not feel weird? What happens to me? Am I in … l-l-love … with Levi?' I pull away from the kiss and look into Levi's beautiful grey eyes. Did I just say beautiful? Yes I did but I don't care. I can see a slight blush to appear on Levi's cheeks and I think I'm blushing like a madman. There was a uneasy silent between us, I slowly open my mouth to say something but I didn't really know what so I decide to talk about random stuff: "When do you think I will see my friends again, corporal?" I see him look away to think. "I don't think soon, but I'm sure you will see them again" Levi finally answers. 'I'm glad with that answer then I can tell Armin about this. He always know what to do' I start to smile at this thought. I see Levi staring at me again. "Is there something wrong, corporal?" he has a slight sight of a blush on his cheeks. "There is nothing. Eren, chin up." I do as I was told and feel the washcloth against my throat, it was cold. I start to shiver again. "What's wrong?" Levi asks with clear concern. "Nothing sir" "Don't lie to me" "I am not lying" "Yes you are, I can see it in your eyes" "What is wrong with my eyes?" I ask while I put up big puppy eyes. I see Levi looking to the right side with a pink blush on his cheeks. I slowly came closer to Levi until I was right in front of him. He turns his head back to me and looks straight into my eyes and I look straight into his eyes. "There is nothing wrong with your eyes. They are beautiful" Levi says and closes the gap between us. I surrender to the kiss and throw my arms around Levi's neck while his hands go around my waist. We deepen the kiss and I feel Levi's tongue ask for entrance, that I gladly gave. The kiss deepened even more like Levi never wanted it to end what I actually also want, but we had to stop for air. After we both had recovered we smash our lips back together. Levi's hands slowly made their way to the front area of my boxers. I gasp at the sudden touch, but didn't stop Levi from touching me. He slowly moves his hand up and down over my now hard member. I let out a few moans. "Let me hear more of your own made music" Levi whispers in my ear. I try to hold back a loud moan, but let it out when Levi moved his hand faster. I gasp when I suddenly feel Levi's mouth on my erection. 'It's so hot and wet' I think as Levi runs his tongue across my length. Quickly a second gasp follows as I feel Levi's fingers at my entrance. But before he could press one finger inside we hear footsteps. Levi quickly raises his head and pulls my boxer in place. The door opens and Hanji sticks her head out. "Levi, Erwin wants to talk to you" she says. We can see a little blood come from her nose. "Hanji, are you okay?" I ask. "Yes I am fine. Why?" "Your nose is bleeding" I say as I point at Hanji's nose. "Oh that is nothing" she says and wipes the blood away with a napkin. "Where is Erwin?" Levi asks to Hanji. "In his office. Is it okay if I 'borrow' Eren?" she says as Levi gets up and starts walking to the door. "For how long?" "A few days" Hanji whispers that last word, but we could both clearly hear it. "What for?" Levi asks suspicious. "For an experiment" she answers. "Heichou, are you alright?" I asks silently. "Yeah I am fine brat. Just follow shitty glasses to where she wants to take you" he says back. I could hear a little sadness in his voice. "Okay, let's go Eren" I hear Hanji say and she grabs my arm. "Wait Hanji. Let me first get dressed" I says and pull my arm loose. "Okay okay. I will wait outside" she answers and walks out.

Levi's p.o.v

I watch as the brat gets dressed. "Goodbye sir" he says before he walks out to Hanji. I put on a simple shirt and pants and walk to Erwin's office.

I knock on the door, hear him call and enter the office. "What did you wanted to talk about?" I ask already bored of being here. "About the experiment Hanji will pull on Eren" "Yeah what about it?" I saw he doubted before answering an answer I wish I didn't heard. "He might not survive" he says calmly. It hit me like a stone in the face. "What do you mean?" I ask afraid to loose Eren. "Hanji wants to figure out what makes Eren turn into a titan" "Why on earth would she want to know that?!" I shout in his face almost losing my cool. "Hanji thinks she can make something with it" Erwin says calmly like he doesn't care whether Eren dies or not. "What if she can't? What if Eren dies for nothing?!" I keep shouting useless things at him until he puts his hand on my shoulder and I notice tears falling down my cheeks. "Levi calm down" "No… I can't let her kill Eren!" I shout and run out of the office to the stables. I know I was too late to stop them from leaving but I still had to try. As I reach the stables I see no one. Two horses are gone. 'I am too late, they have already left' I think and fall to my knees. Tears stream down my face.

(Author's recommend: start listening to sad music here for extra feels) Three weeks later

It was now three weeks later and they still haven't returned. 'Eren probably died and Hanji is afraid to come back'. Ever since the second week I stared having this thought, I tried to think about something else but I couldn't. I walk slowly to Erwin's office. "Have you heard anything from Hanji?" I ask my voice like a whisper. "No I haven't. I am sorry, Levi" "It is not your fault" I say and walk back to my room.

Four weeks later

'Four weeks…still nothing, this is it now it is certain Eren is dead. MOVE ON!' my mind has been shouting this at me repeatedly since I went to Erwin's office the third week. I again walk to Erwin's office not expecting much. "But how do we tell Levi?" I hear a voice say as I stand in front of Erwin's office. "I don't know, he is really fond of him" 'Fond of who? Who are they talking about?' "I know and it is all my fault" I recognise the voice. It was Hanji's. Does this mean I get to see Eren again?! I slam the door open and see Hanji standing there with tears in her eyes. "Levi! I am soooooo sorry!" she shouts between cries. "What do you mean?" I ask confused and look around to see if Eren was here. "Where is Eren?" Erwin opens his mouth and says with a serious face: "Levi please do not get upset or mad… but Eren couldn't make it back." 'What? What is he talking about? Eren couldn't make it?' my head was running wild. "What do you mean?" I ask my voice unsteady. "It means that Hanji experiment has failed and Eren did not make it through" he says calmly. My eyes grow wide in shock and disbelieve. "Do you mean Eren is…" the last word wouldn't come out. I couldn't believe it, Erwin or Hanji. "This can't be true, this can't be happing to me" I run out the office. I couldn't take it anymore, run into my room and lock the door. "Please don't be sad" I hear a voice say I turn around but see no one. "It wasn't Hanji's fault it was mine, I wasn't careful enough" "Eren? Is that you?" I ask. I feel tears run down my cheeks. "Please stop crying, don't be sad anymore, be happy. I am with you and I will love you forever" his voice begins to fade away. "Eren! Eren, answer me! EREN!" I shout the tears keep coming faster and faster. "Please don't leave me again" I shout weakly but he was now gone forever. Never coming back. Never. Never…

Exactly one year later

It has been a year since it happend. I could barely make it to this point. I was standing in front of Eren's grave.

"Here lies Eren Yaeger. died at the age of 15."

That was all that was written on the gravestone. Tears cover my face as I lay down the flowers. "I have tried living without you Eren, but I couldn't. I really tried, so please forgive me for this" I say and rise the gun next to my head. "I can't live without you" I say and close my eyes. I hear a voice scream my name but I ignored it and placed my finger on the trigger. "Never thought this would be my end. Kind of funny isn't it?" I say. Then I throw my head up and feel the cold iron of the gun on my temple. I tighten my grip on the gun and pull the trigger.

Me: So this was my Ereri fanfic. I hope you liked it and sorry if it was really sad.

Eren: Levi ain't gonna like this

Me: Like I give a shit

Eren: Okay nice knowing you.

Levi: I am going to kill you! *runs to me*

Me: Bye peeps need to run for my life *runs away*