Wide awake, staring at the ceiling probably for the last 45 minutes, Santana reached for her phone glancing at the time, 2:58 . Ugh!She hadn't been able to get a good night's sleep for the past week.

She had been staying up late every single night studying for her final exams. She had one more final for her intro to public relations and shed be free for a couple of weeks. She was really looking forward

to going home for the holidays, her first semester CSUN had been way more difficult than she had expected. Life in Los Angeles had been way different than expected. After Rachel's pilot was green lit, Rachel

moved to a little condo in Santa Monica, Kurt and Blaine stay in the loft in NYC, Sam moved back to Lima while Mercedes went on tour with Brittany as one of her back up dancers and Santana feature in the one song

they recorded together. Santana also got to be the pre-opening act doing a couple of covers before the actual opening act went on. It was the best summer of her life, she loved life on the road, she loved that she

got to spend so much time her girlfriend and one of her best also got to see Quinn and Puck on the second show of the tour when they stopped in Connecticut, Marley, Jake, Wade and Ryder drove all the

way to Cleveland to see he girls perform as well, and they got to catch up at the after party. They toured all summer long with their last stop in that point Mercedes took off to Atlanta to work on her new album,

and Santana and Brittany had to decide what their next move.

Santana reached for her phone again, the time read 3:15, she started typing a message

s-Hey Britt! u up?

after a few minutes she got a reply

B- I am now :S what's wrong?

S- Cant' sleep... too anxious

B- Just relax San, you'll do great, call you in the am xoxox

UGHHH! Santana really wanted to talk Brittany, she was the only one that could make her anxiety go away, Santana understood why she couldn't talk, it was pretty late, probably even later in the East Coast.

After they got to LA, Santana and Brittany stayed at a hotel for couple of weeks while they found jobs and a place to live. While they were on tour they had talked about what they wanted to do when it ended,

and staying in LA seemed like a good option. Santana really loved singing and performing, but she also liked what she had done for Rachel back in NYC and she thought it would be a good career...just in case. She applied

and got accepted to CSUN for public relations and marketing, and Brittany wanted to go to school for Dance but she had to be in LA to audition, so they had to wait until the tour was over.

Santana got up and walked out of her room and into the kitchen, as she was about to open the fridge she noticed Rachel's grocery list with a neon sticky note on that read the words "SANTANA IT'S YOUR WEEK!"

"crap" Santana thought to herself- she hated grocery shopping as much as she hated laundry, cleaning, doing dishes, or any chore for that matter, but they agreed they take turns "Suck it up Lopez" she thought to herself.

"shopping for Man Hands McVegan, just kill me now" Santana said out loud as she poured herself a glass of coconut knew she was not gonna get any sleep that night, so she walked out her balcony and sat on the

little bistro chair, looking up to the sky, she could see the stars shinning bright. The Latina loved looking up at the stars, it reminded her of Brittany's last night in LA. The girls went to the beach and stay awake till sunrise

just looking at the stars and talking about what their lives were going to be like without each other.

Brittany was working at Millennium for a couple of weeks when one of the senior dance instructors invited her to join Katy Perry's dance crew for her world tour. After talking about it, the girls decided it was the best thing for Brittany to do

since Santana was busy with school.

"Long distance never works" Brittany said with a sad tone in her voice.

"Britt, we talked about it" the Latina said as she placed her hand on Brittany's.

" It didn't work the first time, why would it work now?' the blond's hand pulled were both silent for a while, they could only hear the sound of the ocean, peaceful, magnificent, beautiful.

" It's only for nine months, think about it, some people get a baby after nine months, we'll get each other, and that is way way better, no drool, no crying...' Brittany started laughing and Santana couldn't help it but to put her arms around her

her girl, the girl she loved so very much- "Britt, I Let you go once, do you think I'd let you go again?" Brittany shook her head- " Exactly! so you go wow everyone around the world, and I'll be here waiting for you! I'll always wait for you!

That moment, that one moments was the one Santana couldn't let go of, it was the moment she kept playing in her head... She would never let Brittany go... yet she was gone, sure they were still friends and they talked every once in a while but,

four months had passed and there she was, looking up at the stars, wishing things were different, Wishing Brittany was still around like she was when they were on tour, wishing she had never told Brittany to go, wishing... they had never broken up.

first fancfic please comment and let me know what you think?!