Hi! This is Peggy-chan here, with my first multichapter fanfic that I've decided to finish! And it's my first Beyblade fic too, so it's kinda a first-y thing going on. Anyways, its yaoi so if you don't like, don't read. It's also kinda supposed to be angst-y in some parts… I tried to write it all angst but it was too funny sweatdrop. The pairing is KaiRei, probably some MaxTyson and anything else I can think of at the moment.

This fic is based on the song 'Missing' by Evanescence. Each line has something to do with the chapter, so I figured why not call it 'Missing'? And here you are!

Disclaimer: I can barely buy a lollipop. What makes you think I own Beyblade?

Missing by Peggy-chan
prologue

Can you stop the fire, you can't stop the fire

Can you stop the fire, you can't say the words

Dark. So dark. And cold, to the point of freezing him. Such was the aura and feelings of his dreams, or rather, his nightmares. Dark and cold. Like his mind. Like his heart.

In this dream, the most frequent one that haunted him, he would hurt. Searing pain beyond belief would course through him like a swollen, icy river. Memories, flashbacks of his childhood, whirled around his mind, all the worst ones, never the happily-ever-after type. But there was one in particular that was constant, one that he always remembered from his past and that would always play the longest in his mind. It was so old, it almost seemed unreal. Like a grim fairytale one would tell to their child on Halloween, or like a horror story. But it wasn't any of those. It was real, etched into his heart like writing on a stone tablet and as unforgettable as a loved one's birthday. Or death.

In the dream, or rather memory, he must have been no more than six years old, for the memory seemed old, not like a movie but like a series of photos flashing in his mind. A blurry slideshow of memories without sound. In the beginning, the pictures showed his smiling face looking into a mirror as a young couple was trying to fix his hair, their faces equally cheerful. He mirrored their features and them his. His parents.

It might have been his birthday, or Christmas, or a party they may have had to go to, he wasn't sure and probably never would be, but it was cold, or so it seemed by the thick clothes. But these details were always unimportant. What happened next was.

BAM! Sound suddenly returned to the dream with alarming velocity as the door slammed open, banging with force against the wall. Sounds whirled around him like a tornado, blurring the images so he could not see them properly. Bangs. A woman's scream. Shouts. A shattering of glass. Gunshots. Then another scream, as piercing as a dagger. Then, a child's sobs. His sobs, which turned to screams. The pictures refocused in time to see dark, shadowed men dragging him away from the dead bodies of his parents, covered in blood. Then silence reigned and the pictures faded, the last memories of his family as a broken one, parents dead, son torn to pieces. Darkness ruled the nightmare, and it seemed to be over.

But it was not. Suddenly a cackle echoed through the shadows. It was loud and deep, dark and evil, like the shadows. It rang through his head, gaining volume until it filled him and it poured out of his ears and nose and mouth, then it pooled around him until he was drowning in the laughter of this evil being. He opened his mouth to let out a scream, but it was soundless and he sank further, aware that no-one could help him now. A new sound joined the cackle. It was his name, being called from above.

Kai, Kai, KAI!

Kai sat up suddenly; sweat pouring down his face and body, the t-shirt he usually wore to bed sticking to his body. He was taking quick, short breaths, his chest heaving and falling rapidly with each breath, and as he rested a hand on his chest, he could feel his heart pounding through the thin fabric of his t-shirt. "Kai," a soft voice asked. "Are you okay?"

Slowly, he turned his head towards the voice and his crimson eyes met with worried ochre. "I'm fine, Rei," he sighed tiredly, running an erratic hand through sweat-soaked, two-tone hair. "I hope so," Rei replied, still looking concerned. "You were screaming so loudly, I had to wake you up to see if you were ok." "Sorry I woke you," Kai mumbled, looking away to hide his shame. Rei laid a hand on his arm, and smiled, loosened raven hair sparkling in the moonlight. "It's alright," Rei consoled gently, smiling sweetly. "As long as you're ok." Kai gave a tiny smile and shrugged "I'm fine, really. Go to sleep. I just … had a bad dream, that's all." "Sounded more like a horror movie was playing in your head, the way you were shrieking," his teammate joked, grinning. Kai shrugged and looked down, smile fading. "Was it the same dream you had last night, when I had to wake you up then?" Rei asked, noticing the look of fatigue resting in the bags under Kai's eyes. "Yes it was," Kai whispered softly, the screams still echoing in his mind. "Do you want to tell me about it?" Rei continued, a glimmer of hope sparkling in his eyes that begged Kai to open up to him.

Kai thought about the proposal. He knew he could tell Rei anything and he'd always keep it a secret. Rei was his best friend, and even if he wasn't, he always kept secrets. But did he really want to burden Rei with so many problems? He didn't want Rei to constantly fret over his troubles like a mother. It would stress him out and he didn't want Rei constantly worrying over him. He wouldn't be as happy as he usually is once he found out. And Kai hated seeing Rei upset. So there was only one ting he could do…

Slowly, as if it hurt him to do so, he shook his head no.

Rei sighed sadly. He had expected Kai to decline, but disappointment was still alive in his eyes. "You sure?" Rei half begged hopefully. "You'll worry," Kai said simply, his eyes hidden by messy slate spikes. "No I won't!" Rei protested, pouting. "Curiousity killed the cat," he shot back, smirking as he flicked Rei's nose. "Shut up!" his friend whined, but he was smiling and gave Kai a nudge as he spoke. "Well now that you're better, I think my work here is done."

"What work?" Kai snorted, ruby eyes twinkling mischievously. "I know you care," Rei taunted, sticking out his tongue. "Whatever. Now go to sleep, you've got training in the morning," Kai waved him off. Rei groaned and got up. "Yes, oh captain," he answered mock saluting him and getting up. He marched to his bed and hopped in. "G'night Kai."

"G'night Rei," he sighed and lay down, rolling over to try to get some sleep. But as he closed his eyes, the images of his parents' corpses flashed into his mind's eye and the screams echoed louder in his head. Mentally screaming as well in frustration, Kai rolled onto his back and got up. For the third time this week, he couldn't sleep. He wished he could do something about these nightmares plaguing his existence. But how could he stop the pain? How could he prevent these nightmares? How could he stop the fire?

He reached under the pillow of his bed, taking out a Swiss army knife, and walked out of the room he and Rei shared. He walked into the bathroom, locking the door behind him and keeping the light off, so that the only guide he had was the midnight moon. He flicked open the knife and raised it in the air, aiming for his wrist. The blade glinted dully in the full moon, and he struck, relishing in the sight of his life-giving blood, pouring out of his wound.

TBC…

Peggy: FINALLY! I took forever to type this and I wasn't even really sure if I wanted to post it in the first place. But my friends pestered me, so finally I have posted it! Arigatou AJ, Shilly, Shivvy and Kerin! Now all I have to do is post the other 2 chapters that I have written so far. --; Don't count on seeing an update for a month or two, I am super-lazy and mega busy. Please review, flame, whatever you feel like. I won't continue if there are no reviews!

Oh, and I am a MAJOR Kai fan. It hurts me to write an angst with Kai, but this is my first one andI can't see any other character that's more likely to torture themselves than Kai...even though he's not very likely to in the first place.

Ja ne!