A/N: I had said to myself, that I wouldn't write anything new, looks like I lied. Okay this is mainly about Ponyboy being kidnapped when he is four years old, and how that affects his family. I have been having dreams about this so I know where I want this to go. Umm I rated it the way I did because of things that happen to Pony in later chapters, this would include forms of rape (hint: there's a pedophile). So the P.O.V will switch every chapter. Oh yes if you don't like angst please press the back button! I have been accused of writing something to depressing so yeah. Well read on!

Life Without You

Chapter One: Darry

I smiled proudly at the responsibility my parents had given me; I got to watch my brother all by myself. I was only watching Pony; he's only four years old. I have another brother who was staying at friends, his name is Soda and he was six years old.

I had sat him down in front of the TV while I took a break to do my homework, he was being a pretty good kid so far, and a lot more quiet that Soda.

CRASH!

I jumped at the loud noise and ran out to where I herd it from, the kitchen. And there he was. Pony must have wanted something to eat because he was sitting on the floor and chocolate cake all over the place, I could feel my face getting red.

"Pony what are you doing!" I tired not to yell at him, he was only four.

" I'm sorry Darry but I was hungry." His voice was really little; he had cake all over his face I couldn't help but laughing.

"Okay but next time tell me if you hungry, I could have helped you. Now lets get you to the back and hose you off." I took his hand and lead him to our back yard. I had him take off all his clothes and then hosed him off. He kept complaining the water was too cold. "Okay now stay outside while I go in and get you a towel."

I ran inside but was sidetracked buy something on the TV, before I knew it I heard the front door open, I sucked my breath in realizing I left Pony outside, he can't reach the door knob.

"Hey Jr. where's the little guy?" I could here my dad's voice coming from behind me; I turned my head slowly afraid not wanting to tell him.

"Well.umm.dad.he made a mess and I took him in the back to clean him up but well I kind of left him out there." My voice was really small and I didn't dare look my dad in the eyes.

"You left him out there! He could catch a death of a could!" I heard my Mom shriek as she ran for the door.

My mom and dad ran outside and I followed, Pony was not in the back yard. My heart started to race when I saw that the gate door was open. Pony couldn't open that! What if he was kidnapped or something? I couldn't live with that! I couldn't live knowing I was the one who lost my baby brother it would be just horrible! I looked up at my parent's faces they looked so scared.

We searched for hours, but we never found him. My parents called the Police and suddenly a lot of people came over to comfort my parents, I stayed in my room. I wouldn't talk to anyone, even my friends. I did lose him! It was my entire fault. He could be all alone somewhere or maybe even dead and it was all my fault! I looked around and saw one of Pony's toys, and I just broke down crying.

I was never going to see him again! I would never see his cute smile or his pretty eyes. I would never see him ride a bike or help him on his homework. I would never get to be a big brother to him!

"Darry?" I dried my eyes to look into the eyes of my only brother left, Soda.

"Yeah Soda?" he had tears in his eyes.

"When is Pony coming back?" I didn't want to tell him what I really thought so I lied.

"Soon." I tried to smile but I couldn't.

A/N: Okay that was short, but my first chapters are usually short. Next chapter will be in the future, about nine years making Pony 13 and it will be in his P.O.V