Hello everyone! This is my very first fanfiction and I also have to say I'm not speaking English. So please be nice to me. This is taking place after Sam and Freddie dated and won't be too long. So, enjoy reading. Yoshi

Disclaimer: I don't iCarly

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Sam´s POV:

It´s always the same with my Mum. All the time she's screaming at me, and the cat. I should do more for school and be as a good girl as Melanie is. I hate it when she compares me with my „perfect sister"!

As if she would be better. She never really cared about me, I had to go through life all by myself. She was never there for me, when I needed her. I can´t stand it anymore, I want to be away from her!

I was on the way to my best friend Carly. She accepts me like I am. I went through the Lobby of Bushwell Plaza, past Lewbert. When he recognized me, he started yelling but I didn´t get what he said and I wasn´t caring as well. I got into the elevator and leaned against the wall.

Now the memories are coming back. Two weeks ago Freddie and I broke up. Right here, at midnight. We agreed that it´s better this way because we argued to often, but I miss him anyways, a lot.

When we first met each other, we never thought that we would end up togehter. But I need the Nerd. And I know, he needs me. We behave like we did before we went out, but something has changed.

The elevator stopped on the eight floor and I got out. I walked to Carly´s and Spencer´s apartment and rang the bell. Normally I would run in without even knocking but I was to upset to do so. Suddenly the door on the other side of the hall opended and guess who came out: Freddie, my ex.

He glanced at me with a mixture of curiousity and sadness. Finally he said something. „Hi Sam , what are you doing here?" I gave him a short response. „What would I do here Freddklopp? I want to go to Carly." I know that it wasn´t necessary to be mean to him, but I

didn´t want it to let on me that I wasn´t in a good mood.

He looked a bit disappointed at me. „Carly went on vacation with Spencer and they won´t return for two weeks. You could come in with me, if you want. My Mum is not here right now.", he said with soft voice. I could read something like joy and confusion in his face. That again confused me. But I nodded and went into his loft.

Freddie's POV:

I asked Sam if she wanted to go in with me and she nodded. I was happy but there was still something strange. Well she´s always kind of strange, in her Samish-way, but today she seemed off and upset.

I opended the door and walked behind her in my apartment. She sat down on the couch and was starring at the table. So I decided to settle next to her. „Are you hungry?" She only nodded, what was irritating me. I knew her, I knew her pretty well. She would never only nod, if she had the oppurtunity to get food.

This was really scaring me because I worried about her in the moment. Until two weeks ago we were together and I´m still loving her. It´s very hard for me to see her that sad. I closed the distance between us and put my arm around her shoulder.

„Hey, what is it? It isn´t normal for you to be this silent.", I whispered.

„It´s nothing", she looked at the ground, „I only wondered where Carly is right now." OKAY! This was a really lame excuse.

„Come on! Not even Gibby would take this. You can trust me. Look, I'll get you some ham from the kitchen and then you tell me, what´s really bugging you, deal?"

„Hhmmm"

I took that as a yes and went into the kitchen. I openend the refrigerator and pulled a plate out of the cupboard. I put a big piece of ham on it and grabbed a coke before heading back to the living room.

Sam sat on the couch the same way as she did when I left. Now I really wanted to know what´s the matter. She was in such a bad mood, I´ve never seen her in before. Not even then, when she had fight with Carly and iCarly almost died.

I walked up to the couch, put the plate right in front of her and sat down. She didn´t make a move. I was really worried. She still wasn´t saying anything, so I pulled her close and took her head in my hands, that she couldn´t avoid my gaze anymore.

„Tell me what happened. You are not your usual self. You haven´t eaten the ham yet." I stroked along her face with my fingers. She tried to turn her head away, but I didn´t let my grasp lose.

„Why do you even want to know what happened?", she spoke to me after a while.

„Because I´m caring about you and I can´t stand it, when you´re sad.", I admitted softly. She looked at me a little bit surprised.

„Are you serious?"

„Yes, I don´t care, what it is. You only have to tell me so I can help you. I want you to be happy again."

She looked at me for a moment and then suddenly started crying. Sam cried! I`ve never seen her crying before and I don´t want to again. She really had to be upset. I pulled her into a hug end held her tightly. What the hell was it, that made her cry? Aarrgghh, I´m not allowed to curse.

She didn´t push me away as usual and so I tried to calm her down by stroking her back. I rocked her back and forth and kind of enjoyed it. We haven´t been so close for fourteen days. But that´s not important now, I had to know, what happened.