Hello, I am Jteadore but please just call me Tea. I love writing but what I love even more is reading. I've decided to try out writing, once again, a fanfic. Please no flaming, I would really appreciate it.
If there's any spelling or grammar mistakes, please tell me so I could right away fix it. I would really appreciate it if you do.
Any Shugo Chara characters in this fanfic do not belong to me but the plot of this fanfic does.
Read and enjoy! Thank you! (*´・ｖ・)
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Chapter 1: Not Enough
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Amu's P.O.V
(Flashback)
"Hey, watch it, kid," a guy about seventeen years old told me as I almost run into him on the side walk. He pushed me to the side and I landed on my butt right on the floor.
I shut my eyes then open them, only to find a hand stretching out for me right in front of my face.
I looked up at the guy.
He looked about sixteen years old, midnight blue haired, and a smirk displaying on his face.
"You should really watch out where you're going, strawberry," he said.
I blushed in embarrassment.
"I am not a fruit, I am a person and my name is Amu," I told him while a glare manage to form on my red face.
He grinned.
I wish I could smack that little smile off his face!
I frowned.
"I am Ikuto," he introduced himself.
"I don't care," I simply said as I stood up and brush the dirt off my jeans.
Ikuto looked shocked for a second then no later than 3 minutes, his idiotic grin came back on his face.
I rolled my eyes.
"Well, see you," I waved at him.
"Wait, um… I am new around here and I need someone to show me around town and stuff…" he said.
I sighed and mentally smacked my forehead for the thing I was about to do.
"Come with me, I'll show you around," I told him.
He nodded.
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That was when I met him about two years ago yet I never knew I'd be the one falling for that jerk.
His name is Ikuto Tsukiyomi.
After that day, we became really close despite the fact that we would argue and went through a lot and sometimes ending up pushing him away.
He still stayed no matter the circumstances and I became to fall in love with him.
But you know, those typical boring old stories about two best friends being super tight and one of them ends up falling in love with the other while the other one is infatuated with another girl, right?
This is not the typical story of my situation though.
You see, he's dating my friend.
He doesn't even know I even love him that way, pathetic right?
After 2 years, I still lack the courage.
Ikuto even told me he was in love with me a long time ago and I never manage to process that. Because, how could be in a love with someone like me? That sounds depressing, in a way.
But if I was Ikuto, I wouldn't be in love with Amu Hinamori, the girl who can't even say out loud, not even by herself, that she loves her best friend.
Because I am that type of girl that's too clumsy for everything and almost always says the wrong things at times.
The girl who's too cheesy for her own good.
The girl guys broke up with over and over because she is way too complicated and emotional.
That's why I denied it and I tried to let him go, I tried pushing him away, and I even half pushed him to date my friend to do so.
Yet, he always came back. Always, always, breaking my heart a tiny bit more than it was but he never seem to notice.
I didn't reject him to be exact when he confessed but I never said anything and he never push me for an answer.
What was there to say, honestly?
I could have ended something beautiful by then like our friendship and I would die if that ever comes to an end.
I have never have a friend like Ikuto. He's way too special for me and I am extremely attached.
That's why I could never admit something like that…
Especially since I don't even deserve it after putting him through a lot of things in the past.
Whenever I think about it, I always end up feeling guilty.
"Amu, what are you thinking about?" he asked, leaning in closely to my face.
I broke out of my little trance and froze for a minute, staring into his eyes that by the passing second I seem to have melt into them instantly but slowly.
Ikuto grinned sheepishly.
"That's all it took to break your daydream."
"Baka, don't be doing that. Remember what happened last time you did that? Saaya got pissed at you and didn't talk to you or me the whole day!" I yelled at him.
"Oh yeah, sorry," he scratched his head, grinning.
He could be so stupid sometimes, I swear.
Saaya Yamabuki, queen of the school, head of the cheerleaders, an all-around-amazing and flawless independent girl. She's what every girl wants to be and what any guy would want in a girl.
In other words, she's perfection.
The total opposite of me, of course.
She's also really nice and my friend which I really love okay.
That's another reason why I can't tell him what I feel. I mean, they are a perfect couple and I wouldn't want to ruin that and it's not like he's going to leave a diamond for a rock.
So…
right?
What am I saying? Ikuto is her boyfriend, I shouldn't even be thinking of him like that.
I turned my head to the right and lay my head down on my desk, ignoring Ikuto's long talk of whatever he was talking about.
My eyes closed for a moment after and that's when I went back into thinking about him again.
And though he was right there in front of me and I was in front of him, I could never admit those words.
My biggest fear is him leaving me and I know it sounds dumb after everything we been through, but I still feel scared.
Yet, I could never get why he would stay for a stupid girl like me, I mean I know he cares about me but yet I still believe he doesn't need me. He has other friends, persons that make him happy and a beautiful girlfriend. A nice reputation in school, he's into sports and he's every teacher's favorite yet
he talks to me. Even though I take out every ounce of my being to him and let him explore my soul day by day. Even though I break down and deny everything he tells me…
Even though I am just nothing compare to him.
I just don't get it.
I took out a deep breath and open my eyes to stare out the window.
It was cloudy outside and there was no sun around meaning it might rain later.
I mentally smacked myself for being such a dummy since I didn't bring an umbrella.
"Don't worry, I got you," he whispered in my ear.
I could feel my cheeks heating up.
"Idiot, how did you know?" I asked in wonder.
"You were staring out the window," he answered.
"Oh," that's all I said.
Then my mind started wandering back to the same things again, repeating itself about Ikuto and me, my memories, my feelings, and my silence.
This is a never ending cycle because this is what I spend most of the day thinking about.
I love him but I need to forget.
I will never be good enough.
The bell rang, snapping me out of my thoughts again.
"Come on Amu, let's go home."

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I hope you enjoy it. I know it was really short but I'll try to make the next chapter longer, though!
If you have any questions or anything please don't be afraid to ask.
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I am super excited for this fanfic since it kind of relates to me in a way. Anyway, please don't be afraid to drop a review, thank you! The fun is just beginning, guys. Bye! ( ´ ` )ﾉ